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Indeed.
AND no one posted in my topic >.<

Ha ha,I can clearly say I know what you mean and understand you well...
but make no mistakes.
do not take your hatred as something it is not...
do you hate your own existance...or your body,or your life...or all of the
above?
I myself would be very sad if the "soul" exists forever...
I would get bored of existing real quick,propably...
tire of it...
so I,too,keep wondering what it's like not to exist.

Hello everybody!
I'm posting this to tell evryone I started Project TWIM(don't ask me why it's called that way).
I have started this a few weeks ago...
this means that,every cunciuss moment,I absorb energy from all and everything that is around me. why do I do this? well,I feel weak,and how much damage it can do if I take a lil' of this,and a lil' of that...
and besides,I want POWER  
My best friend (who browses the site,but never had the time to post in these forums) meanwhile finished training to see aura's...or should I say moved to the lookin'-at-livin'-aura's part.
He looks at my Aura every day and says it's golden...and that it grows brighter every day.
However,I,myself,do not feel any difference. I wonder why.

If you have any comments,Idea's,suggestions,etc...
feel free to post    

P.S.and make it snappy when posting replies!

My grandparents have returned from out of the country(don't exacly remember where) and brought a lot of suveniers with them.
the 1 they bought me was some kinda crystal...my granny says it's a real diamond that houses positive energy which they got from some mountain cult shop thing. she says there was a giant diamond the size of our living room there,and that there were a lot of small diamonds around it that gather energy,but they don't seel the little ones unless they have a reason...and some weirdo cultist came up to them and asked my granny to deliver this to "her older grandson" and gave them that little diamond thing...
I CAN feel some sort of energy from that little thing,but it sort of rejects me.
so here are the questions:
1.should I believe my granny's story?
2.what's with this diamond's energic rejection of me?
3.should I take it seriusly(the diamond)?

Note:this also refers to those that ARE able to project allready.

Myself,I seek 3 things in life.
I allready have one.
to achieve number 2,I need to have a sucsessfull,long astral projection,which is to be fully cunciuss. I thought it wasd impossible till' I came by(getting number 2).

P.S.if you care,for number 3 I need tons upon tons of money,a solid plan,and success in the plan []
the first one is just massive amounts of willpower.

I was doing pull-ups(or whatever that thing is called,exuse my bad english)today at school,when something strange happened.
I'm VERY WEAK physically(exept my fingers...and a certain portion of the arms).
while doing the test,I lost most of my energy when I reached 20,and by 23 I was exhousted.
but I kept trying,like I always do. I learn to ignore most body "signals" when I need to. usually a few moments after that point,my body stops responding,as in I'm trying to get up,but nothing happens. as if I am suddenly disabled or something.
but,this time...
My body seemed to "go wild" instead,and I started doing the push-ups in a crazy speed (I still felt exhousted).
it got very powerfull in a matter of seconds,that the seat my legs where cought in(if having my legs under a heavy seat doesn't make sense when doing push-ups,then this isn't push-ups)was practically broken in 2...
THAT WAS A FRIGGIN' COLD HARD STEEL SEAT!!!
after that I quickly stopped and got up (the exhoustion seemed to hame mostly disappeared) and took a look at the floor. my push ups left marks[:O][:I].
Now here is the quetion:
WHERE THE HELL DID THAT POWER COME FROM!?!!(and how?)

P.S.No,I don't have to pay for anything [^] only I and my teacher were there,and even she admits that no one will believe her if she says I left those marks(or broke that seat [xx(]) so she will just have the manager pay for the repairs.

I have this problem...
when I reach the state in which my body is paralyzed, I'm beggining to  have strabge feelings...
the heavyness of my body is no suprise,I believe that should happen...
but as I kept staying in that state for some time...
My left leg felt very different...the feeling was sort of close to pain,but not really...painfull.
that feeling really discomforted me,and I found it hard to ignore.
I have no Idea where it came from,but it keeps coming,again and again,only when I mediate,and only at my left leg.
this prevents me from concentrating and puts my mind in a chaos of thoughts.afterwards I either fall asleep if trying to ignore it,or I stop.

I'v been going into this site's chat (the java one,not in the forum)
and no one is ever on in there,even when people are on in the forum!
I go into it at evenings and on special occasions on mornings too,at the +2 GMT timezone,and I haven't saw a single person but me in the chat...EVER.
why is that,may I ask?
are you all bound to the forum,so the chat remains forgotten?

Is it possible to do that in the astral?
I mean,can you simply teleport yourself in some kind of darkness with nothing in it and start creating a world of your own,an entire universe,set by rules you make...and so forth.
is it possible?

I'v been attemting astral projection for some time now,as some of you might know...
my only sucsess were those few moments after a lucid dream,and that lasted 2 seconds...
I do not complain,it IS an achievment,but I wish for more (greedy me )

every time I start trying it,I feel my body allready vibrating a few moments after I close my eyes...
I do not know if it vibrates or not,but I can feel it vibrating.
after being like this for some time I sort of "lose track of existance".I am still counciuss but I am not thinking anything...
and I notoice nothing.
cos' I'm in that state,I can't concentrate on anything, so the attaemt fails and I usually fall asleep...
YES I DID read some stuff around (like the guide and some topics)
but just in case I'm making this one.
any tips on how to reach the astral would be greatly appreaciated.

I had a really strange dream lately...
it's not often that I actually get dreams,usually my sleep is too deep...far beyond dreaming...
anyway when I woke up I just KNEW this dream means something...
but I'm not sure what...
anyway here's what happened in the dream:
I saw myself (from aside) and then suddenly a lot of hair gre out and I became a fuzzy puffball.the backround had nothing in it but blue color.there was no ground,no sky...no nothing...only me and the blue...
a little girl (looked 4 years old) came to me then and looked at that puff that I was and said "you are cute". suddenly all that puff was on fire and one spark flew from it and burned the little girl to nothing.but only her body,her cloths remained on the non-existant floor.her hair too.
after that the puff stopped burning and looked as though it wasn't burned at all...
but then I hear a little wishper "argh...leave me alone...humans.."
and then the puff that I was gone up in flames again and all that hair burned out.I saw myself and I was suddenly engulfed in purple flames and my eyes were shining red...suddenly my body bursted into a giant that looked like a shadow demon...it was still obviously me...
this giant that shone and theres suddenly a backround-I see the earth in space.and suddenly the shadow demon (me) comes from behind it and all the contitnets burn in blue flames as I laugh...
and after all the contitents burned I see the shadow demon grab the mmon and throws it upon the earth...and it shatters into two peieces.
then I,again,the shadow demon,take the two earth peices in my 3 fingered (!?!!) ,clawed hands and they simply fall to dust.
then I raise my hands and I hear a tiny whishper "free" and then suddenly I see a bright light from nowhere...and it goes brighter and brighter...and then I wake up.

what can this dream mean?
am I going to destroy the world or something?[xx(]

I was doing some meditation when I fell asleep...
in the middle of the dream it became lucid,I became aware...
I was on a bridge. a rather big one.
my first thought was "YAY! another one! FUN!"
and I took a freefall off the bridge...
while I was falling,I suddenly decided to fly back up,and I pulled myself up by my thoughts...but instead of going up in there,I suddenly found myself in my bedroom.
I did NOT expect that.
I looked down,and I saw myself.then I felt strange and I woke up.
I was all shaky.
I sat and started thinking "what happened?"
and then a thought accoured to me "OOBE? well you need to have your body asleep to do it...and my mind was sorta awake,I could think...so mybe..."
and that's why I came to the forum in the first place.
was that but an illusion my brain created in the lucid dream...or was it really an OOBE?

Hello.
as you can see,I'm new at the forum...
I'v been "lurking" in the site (mainly the guide) for about a year now...
I was sure I won't need anything but my willpower and the guide back then,so I didn't bother joining the forums...
but after a year of weekends of training...
I think I did it,but I'm not sure.
that is why...I came here,into the forum.

Heh heh heh...
yup,unless I intently "shut myself off" my mind is in complete chaos with at least 3 thought lines,all going in different directions.
however I can(and do,sometimes) stop,and just...you know.
however I am the complete opposite of those people you described in the last 2 paragraphs,Kaz.
I spend my time alone and I won't go outside if I can help it.

you know,I'v been thinking...
no matter how many reasons we find,we will find ourselvs searching for the reasons of the reasons and so forth...
Ultimatly,there is no real reason [B)]
however,about the simple reason of physical existance,there is surely more than one reason...
otherwise this physical world whould be MUCH LESS complicated!
mybe there are hundreds,perhaps THAUSANDS of reason of having souls given a body and sent here!

quote:Originally posted by Inguma


I embrace you like a long lost brother!!!!!!!!!1 ehehehehe

ROFL []
Thanks,I checked the site,but all it gives is an explaination of what chakra's are.
well it shows who's color is red/purple...
but what about black?
following your advice,I shall search onward,in the net!
but not in google [B)] google is evil,when I go to google.com it redirects me to google.co.il (google in hebrew)!

quote:Originally posted by Inguma

You did hint that you are quite an angry person

"Crazy nutter" whould be a more proper description [][][}:)]
also,where can I find that info...?

Thank you,James! my crystal is cleansed at last!
also,I'm not wearing it [] it's bound to a chain in a form of an ankleshackle the size of a finger(fingershackle?). I only see it mornings/evenings,when I'm home.
also,you don't seem to have read many of my posts [}:)]
bad mood=energy.
bad mood X amplification=Energy X amplification.
if I WILL wear it someday,then I'll get hyper in sports lesson,as their mere existance angers me,and since I always turn my anger into energy...[}:)](sadness will not accur under any circumstances [])

also,a question...
whenever I try to look into the crystals energy,with my eyes closed of sorts...something like trying to see an aura...I saw the crystal in a sorta foggy bluish way and my hands had a sort of purple...you know.
after blowing on it,it's completely black now,with dim red edges...
but I really feel I and this thing I are sort of...exchanging energy?
and heres the question-what does this mean?

quote:Originally posted by runlola



well, not all crystals are pretty. Their spiritual
properties are what's important but I won't bore you
with all of that which you wouldn't believe anyway.
You should try meditating with it. Crystals tend to
amplify certain things about yourself. But you might
not meditate either, so nevermind. You could ask for it
to help heal the earth & bury it someplace nice. I buried
a crystal in Sedona. You may not know the place.
Anyway, good luck with your video game collection! []

once again,you are wrong,runlola.
I DO believe in all you think I won't and I'd appreciate being told []
and I meditate a lot [^]
but you are right about me never hearing of that..."sedona".
also,the crystal is chained with a metal...chain thing. it will rust of salty water.

P.S.what I collect is more than just video games...
it's an essence of the creator's minds...

quote:Originally posted by runlola



anyway, I have lots of crystal & stuff.
Is this your first?



Maybe you should buy a book about crystals if you are really interested.
I have seen the raw diamonds, is that what you have? It's a good stone, it intensifies the energy of other stones.

It is a very protective stone as well. You can put it in a cup
of water with a teaspoon of salt for a couple hours, rinse it
& it will be clean. You can program it to do what you want.
Cleanse & re-program once a week. That should be fine, unless
you had a really bad day, I would cleanse it that day too.

It's good luck when someone gives you a stone, I have had people pick
stones out for me in other places & they did a good job. I collect them, I like the rare ones. Well, if you do get into collecting, we could start trading...

Yes,tis' indeed my first.
I'm not a raven though,I'm not into collecting pretty things.
and even if I did I'd have nothing to collect cos' I can't understand such things...but that's a different story!
I'd ask what "rinse" is,but that's what I have a dictionary for,here![]
also,I'v ben told there was a mistake and this is just some kind of "mountain crystal" [B)] sigh...
good luck with you collection runlola,BTW []

Rastus,that's a DIAMOND. it won't fracture easily...!
anyway,what do you mean by the third method you described...?

quote: Picture it leeching out to a neutral crystal. Like cleaning a dirty paintbrush under a faucet, it first is cloudy then fades to clear, but if you move the brush you get streaks of cloudy. Water purity helps.

do you mean I should imagine as if the crystal is foggy,and then imagine the fog disappear slowly...?

Rastus,I cannot be offended. just tell me how.
I'm never in a real hurry these days,but there are things I will never do

quote:Originally posted by runlola



really? not even fed-ex?

what's a fed-ex?

Rastus,I...don't know.
how do I cleanse a crystal?
also,according to granny that's "energy storage" one.
well all I have is a bad feeling about this thing,however life has been no different since I got it.

quote:Originally posted by runlola


I think you should send it to me [|)]

what do I detect here...?
nah,it can't be...she will never...
anyway,I have a whole 2000$ and nothing to do with them.
I will give you the same answer I gave to those that asked me to send them the money:
Our postal service is on strike,like practically everything else here in Israel.

where you search,look where it says the word "server".
not the name of the server you are connected to,just "server".
there is a drop-down there.
if you choose "global server"(or something like that) it will search ALL servers,no matter which one you are connected to at the present time.
I explained it to the best of my abilty.

I use Emule plus (special version of emule) for the tiny stuff (like...err...the lil' games [:I])
and TurboTorrent for the big stuff.
well,let me tell you that-the only difference between servers is their location(which affects ping) and their speed.
content on different servers is different,however you can download content from any server,not only the one you are logged into. downloading from the one your logged into just makes it faster.
I don't need to explain what ping is,Inguma allready did.[]