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Now, we can stop lecturing and advising each other and just start sharing experiences.

Well, I'm sorry you felt that I was lecturing you, I just comment on things that come to mind and certainly don't mean to come across as though I am telling you what you should or should not do. If you are upset about the way I post it's not because I am trying purposefully to do so.

Also, you might know they are lying, and I might know, but someone else reading might not. I was merely using it as an example to show how negs play their mind-games on people, as it was not clear in your post whether you believed what they were saying or not. The advice about not conversing with Tinnitus 'tones' wasn't especially just for you but for anyone reading, as Tinnitus is quite common and I wouldn't want someone to read it then go off trying to contact spirits through it and get into the same mess that I did. Although I suppose my post was, in part, a reply to you and not clear on whom I may have been addressing and why. Hopefully I've now cleared that up and we can concentrate on the topic rather than bickering.

McArthur,

I get a lot of benefit out of your posts.  
This is for feedback, and not in any way a criticism.

I experience an oppressive lecturing tone when you comment on someone else's post.  I do not experince that when you post something that's original to you and not in reaction to someone else.

I hear you "referee" what's real and what's not.  The trouble with that is that your sense of "real" is ontological.  Even though you have a HUGE range and scope and some pretty "out there" experience, "Reality" is a big place and there's a lot of "real" that doesn't fit for you.  

Your point that there are novices out here who can be damaged by misdirection is doubtless accurate, but they're going to get in trouble anyway.  There's a lot of stuff that gets posted that's pretty questionable that nobody challenges.

For what it's worth, some people (and I am one) can only truly LEARN something when they TEACH it.  I'm still immature in that but it's completely part of who I am, so it becomes part of my communication patterns when I least intend it.  

It's a gift, but one with a bit of a "pet tiger" quality to it.  It's really tough when the tiger cub grows up with the kittens and doesn't understand why it doesn't work out when they jump on the top of the bookshelf like everyone else.  

Feedback.  For whatever it's worth.

The tones, or high pitched sounds--my point about them is they are directly related to the projections. They are using technology, something we know very little about. A type of technology that uses access to your own mind and cannot be done without your own mind.

I'm not sure I fully understand what you are saying here. Are you suggesting that Inorganic Spirit-Beings use physical technology? Do you have any links or more info on what you mean?

I don't have a source for this anymore, but I'll bet there are people here who know all about it.

Part of my healing 15 years ago, involved tone therapy.  A Unity church paid for me to have whatever alternative therapy might possibly help and about that time one of my healers went to a seminar and bought a system that recorded people's voices analysed them and then calculated what pure tone was needed to balance and stabilize that person's electroharmonics.  

The voice pattern analysis was linked to a color coded chakra linked chart that described specific patterns of "unwellness"  Mine voice test just nailed me with perfect accuracy.  As I recall, the missing pattern for me was "B"

It was just some goofy thing, but since I had a free pass, we tried it.  I can't describe how powerfully effective it was for me.  I used it for years and wore out 2 tapes.  

I think I'm the only person that healer ever used that system on effectively.  

I STILL use sound therapy when I get into the least bit of trouble -- usually one of a handful of Steven Halpern CDs, but most recently Shastro "Shambala"

OK here we go!!! Read this old thread of mine:

Em, Negs and Possession

I propose in that thread that negs somehow affect humans using subtle Electromagnetic fields in the brain, something which health authorities have also been able to do. I also postulate that EM fields also somehow affect negs in an adverse way. Now read this!

http://www.harvardmagazine.com/on-line/050447.html

Researchers at McLean Hospital's Brain Imaging Center have found that the oscillating magnetic fields of an MRI scanner (a machine commonly used in medicine to produce high-resolution images of internal organs and tissues) can immediately improve the moods of depressed patients suffering from bipolar disorder, a psychiatric illness characterized by alternating periods of mania and depression. A controlled study recently published in the American Journal of Psychiatry indicated that 23 out of 30 bipolar patients (77 percent) reported an improved mood after receiving the scan—and that 100 percent of the patients who were not taking antidepressant medication indicated a better mood.

{snip}

In fact, researchers first noticed the scan's mood-enhancing effects by accident, while conducting an unrelated study of medications' effectiveness on bipolar subjects. During that study, many subjects emerging from their EP-MRSI exams remarked to the technician on how much better they felt than before the scan. Some were even cracking jokes as they departed. "There were enough patients who told us—and these were unbiased observations—that we thought we ought to pay attention," Cohen explains. For some, the elevated mood lasted for hours; for others, it persisted as long as a week.

I don't know why this applies, but it feels like I should share this (somewhat goofy) bit of info here.

My therapist is most unusual -- solid in the hard sciences -- chemistry, physics, biology -- solid in traditional theraputic techniqes -- solid in his own development.   His theory is that I am able to process in my etheric front brain and have intuition and cognition when and were none should be biochemically possible.  From there (he thinks) I adapt my energy patterns and drop them down on my physical psychobiology and effect change in traditionally unpredictable ways (quantum leaps) which in turn disorients my organic front brain patterns, simply because of the chaos of sudden change.  And homeostasis opposes the whole process.  He thinks that what he's seen is that as I grow in my ability to coordinate all this, I move forward faster and with less disruption.

IN his theory, I'm set up for this as an option because my energy package is so sensitve and reforms so easily in any kind of an energy field, with my body then following right along behind with just the predictable time lag for physical manifestaion.

Now, I treat all of this as "mythology" and suspect it may be like the story of the sun as a chariot driven through the sky during the day with the horses in the barn at night.  Some part of it is a workable model for something.  Me, I just keep doing what I do and exploring whatever works.

Part of you? How, you mean, like soul braiding, walk in?

I'm never sure about the words.

I don't know what "soul braiding" is but I think not that.  Sounds too intimate and tightly wound.

People talk about walk ins but all I know is my own experience.  

I think for me, it's a matter of the spirits being resident in my personal space and STAYING there for some reason -- not wandering in and out.  It's like the difference between a roommate, a house guest, people at a dinner party, and the guy who comes to spray for bugs.

The ones that helped me were beautifully behaved with exquisite manners and moved on when their work was done, leaving me in much better shape than I was in before they came.

MacArthur --

You hold your own so well, it never occurred to me to pony up and say that part of my healing involved spirits coming in and being a part of me for awhile as The Universe "cleaned house" with some of the more seriously unpleasant squatters.

I was lucky enough to have someone really great going through a parallel experience, not specifically the same but close enough for support and perspective.  

She would just shake her head about both our lives and say that most of the time she felt like a revolving door homeless shelter for lost and displaced spirits, while I was an upscale timeshare condo.  Same "problem" just a better class of transients.

But that was all a long time ago.

All negativity can be traced back to fear. Whatever it is, don't be afraid of it. Work on it. What do you fear? Whatever you fear, face it, conquer it. In a situation like this, I would ignore it, and I would do whatever it took to keep going as if it weren't there. But then again, I am a stubborn person and I would not allow some neg to get in my way.

The tactics of this neg seem obvious to me. It wants you to feel helpless and scared. The countermeasure here would be to refuse to feel either.

Your neg probably doesn't like coldness, since warmth is a sign of vitality. If there is no 'food' for it, how can it consume? This entity is feeding on your life force. That is why you feel tired and drained all the time. You could try qi gong in order to overload it. Or you could try to keep as cold as you can while still being comfortable, and drink a lot of water if you don't already. Water can store energy and information. Before you drink your water, you should try putting a label on the glass such as 'auric and bodily purity,' or you should say some sort of prayer over your water. This should clean out anything that's in there (and when you drink it, anything that's in your body or aura). In the meantime, process your shadow and your fears. Those aspects of people seem to attract negs, and I have found that I encounter less negs because I have processed a good deal of my shadow and my fears.

Think of this neg as a beacon to show you where you need strengthening. When you strengthen those areas, it will go away.

This is good stuff, especially the suggestion about using the water, but I need to say that NOT all negativity can be traced back to fear.  Negativity is just . . . negative . . .  

ALMOST always, the human opening for negativity IS fear . . . but if you happen to be one of the few who have it come in through another door, you have to deal with where ever it got in.  It's hard because negativity, once lodged, throws open all doors -- especially fear -- to let more flood in.  

Also "stubborn person and I would not allow some neg to get in my way" can describe many people who for whatever reason find themself in this situation.  It's not weakness that attracts this sort of thing.

Categorically "refusing to feel" has always been a path to disaster in my life.  I have found instead that choosing to feel something positive in addition to whatever else I was feelings has been most helpful.  Also, in the depths of dispair, to postpone feeling fear, hate (et cetera) until a specific time with boundaries -- sometimes with support there, sometimes I just use "tonight at 8" and postpone the negative feelings to feel them all at one time for 15 minutes.  In times of extreme duress, I have used "three minutes" every hour to express and ground the negative

Karla McLaren (my hero) says that some of us just manifest sacred space where ever we are and whatever we do.  She goes on to say that there's a serious misunderstanding in our world about the nature of sacred space . . . that sacred space is a boundaried area where that which has been made unholy can be drawn and manifest to the point where it can be made sacred again.

It's big work and some of these very people are carrying the biggest load.

Chimarea

You and I must have had a similar experience, perhaps because we are both female?  I have noticed a similarity in the way females are betrayed/attacked/fooled as opposed to the way that males are.   Negs often take advantage of maternal instincts, the desire to nurture. They also take advantage of our vulnerability in our sexual/emotional make up.  You hear of females being sexually manipulated much more often than males.  I don't know if that was the case for you, but it was part of my experience and I had several conversations (privately) with other females who had similar experiences with negs.  With males, they work on the fact that they are often more cut off from their emotions, and their ego is more easily manipulated.  

I want to make one thing clear to all who are religious or believe in God and Angels.  Please don't apply different standards to non physicals than you would physical beings (as we are Divine also).  Dont' use anomolies and lack of logic to keep your eyes blind.  Of course there is some kind of God/Force/Cosmic Intelligence.  But what most people think is God is not, it is simply the non physical realm giving you what you expect.  In other words, there are plenty of ET's and non physicals currently on the God/Jesus/Mohammed/etc. circuit to please your expectations.  Don't be fooled.

A minister in church once told everyone, what is the difference between true wisdom and false wisdom (the latter of which he attributed to the devil but what most of us here would attribute to negs)?  He answered that true wisdom is gentle, it is capable of being analyzed from all angles, and it does not hide.  I thought these were good, common sense rules to apply what you might hear or think about what is going on the non physical realm.  Humans are not being tested, we are not bad--these are the words of a false God.   People talk about the Holy Spirit.  According to the New Testament, Jesus defined the Holy Spirit as "spiritual truth".  Not an invading energy, or force, not grace--but truth.  Keep that in mind when you are confronted with Beings who like to hide not only who and what they are, but information and understanding.  Negs thrive on secrecy.  

McArthur--well, you and I agree on some things.   I too am absolutely convinced that EM fields would destroy these things if we knew how to use them properly.  I also have always felt that they use the EM field of the mind, to manipulate thoughts and emotions in addition to direct manipulations of the CNS.  I used to use magnets in various different ways to try to gage the affect--holding one several inches from my frontal lobes and making a circular motion.  I never found one golden key but I am convinced that a way of protecting oneself lies with understanding more about these fields.  I too wondered about the connection with shock treatments and skizophrenic patients, and also, the story of one woman who had multiple sclerosis and was struck by lightening.  After she got out of the hosptital (she was in severe pain for awhile, and had suffered quite a bit of physical damage) she discovered that she was free of MS.  This was a story in the paper or on TV that was well documented.  I even thought, in one of my more desperate moments, is there someway to apply a low voltage to my brain to disrupt these things?  But to experiment in this way is extremely dangerous and I wouldn't do it.  But I do believe the answer lies with the understanding of the electromagnetic fields of the body.

Kaili,

I actually know men who have been through this.  The experience is similar for men and women.  I have not seen that there are more women than men like this, but I have seen that there are more women than men that SEEM like this, because women are conditioned to give up and give in and wait to be rescued.  (Because of what you're going through I want to be very clear:  YOU ARE NOT AMONG THESE . . . you are NOT giving in and waiting to be rescued)

In my experience, it's actually easier for women to get through it and to the other side than it is for men.

Men don't confess to problems like these as easily as women do.  When they do admit to the level of problem, they have an even harder time getting workable help than we do.  Hard to imagine, WORSE isn't it?

I don't know that I agree with your minister who said that true wisdom doesn't hide.  My experience is that true wisdom sometimes steps out and hands over an easy answer, but MOST of the time just keeps very quiet and helps me along while I discover the way to find the truth myself.  In my experience, true wisdom draws us on, it doesn't shove.  But maybe that's all the same thing you're talking about with different words.  

I have found that no matter how big my problem, if I just tell the truth, MY truth as simply and to the best of my ability, that everything will sort itself out.  The world comes back at me in a way to fine tune my personal truth until I get to a point where things are workable.

Keep posting!

by enlightened people you meant people who think that they are spiritual because they talk a lot about "higher things", lean to higher self ?

Were you responding to me?

IF so. . . there are people who just plain "glow."  Sometimes these are people who think they are spiritual and talk a lot about higher things.  There's something about that pattern that increases the odds of the "glow"

Ironically, it's not about good/bad.

There are people who think spirituality is fantasy who don't talk much at all who also "glow" but they seem to lean into one part of themselves -- what I understand as a "higher self"

There are also "enlightened" people who just talk the talk (incessantly) but and some of whom even walk the walk who do not "glow"  They often are the teachers and advertising for others who will "do"

The world is very confusing.

What a load of old crap!

sorry for being cynical but I've seen all this *so* many times before, it just get boring..
I'll see you after the 12th when you can explain to me why nothing's happend.. it will be interesting to hear the latest excuse!

Douglas

Douglas,

I don't mean this as a criticism, I really am both curious and interested to hear what you have to say AND offering a perspective.

CURIOUS:  If you are bored with these sort of postings, why did you click onto the thread so clearly labeled and read it?   There's got to be more interesting stuff out on AP for you.  

Are you wanting to protect the naieve?

Are you wanting better details and statistics?

Are you frustrated with the "needle in a haystack" because there's good stuff buried under too many words?

Are you the speaker who has been drafted by the group mind to express the frustration of those who feel "excluded" because the post wasn't actually FOR them?  Inclusion/exclusion are pretty intense human mind games.

Do you know or have an idea?  I really am curious.

I have a teacher who says that cynicism is frustrated idealism.  Maybe you  answered my question before I ever asked it and it's just that you really have been disappointed too many times.

PERSPECTIVE:  I find these frustrating and irritating too, altho for me they're not so frustrating when they come from Rastus.    

I feel the same way about astrology and feng shui and I find astrology and feng shui incredibly helpful.

I have developed a filter when I run into this stuff that intuitively allows me to select the pieces that are going to be helpful in my life right now and just let the rest go.  It's funny, the people I pass these on to pull up different pieces.  

BECAUSE Rastus posts these and I just "happen" to be on Astral Pulse right now, the ripples have gone out from the pool and a whole number of people who needed this information have it and are using it to make effective adjustments in their lives right now.  

Sychronicity is odd.  If you're working a different, but completely valid pattern, the info that's just priceless to someone else is just crap to you.

In most people's "normal" lives the easiest place to see this is the difference between men and women.  I have always been able to hold my own in a "male" circle -- I don't lack for male linear skills.  

At the same time, as I become more authentic, I am ever farther out on the "feminine" axis.  The men in my life make fun of me for the very intuition, emotion, and creativity that they treasure me for.  

Groups of women do the same thing with men -- denigrating the very qualities that are so needed simply because they are out of pattern.  

It's only because  I am so adept in the male patterns of logic and dominance structures that I have the freedom to explore other things in my linear life -- to BE intuitive because I can reshape it into a form that doesn't sound so crazy to linear thinkers.  

And so men "punish" womenspeak and women "punish" menspeak and everybody punishes "kidspeak"  and the exact out-of-pattern things individuals need are lost.  

And I have no idea why I'm chattering on about this because it doesn't seem to apply.  Mea culpa.

I really am interested in hearing what was going on for you when you read this.

I think spirit encouters and partnerships like this are like any relationship.

For the right person in the right place in their life, they're beyond wonderful and it's possible to reach things unreachable alone.

For anyone else, they're hell dressed up in "Sunday go to meeting" clothes.

And even if you are the right person in the right place in your life -- life changes and so relationship change.  Ready or not.  

Even spiritual ones.

But spirits -- even good ones -- are in a different time frame than we're in.  Things change for us material beings and the spirit just doesn't get it.  Not unlike a lover who doesn't understand that yes, they're still loved (or not) AND it's time to let go and move on.  And they cling too tight.

Or the spirit moves on and WE as material being cling too tight and something less wonderful moves in to fill the empty place we are holding open with our clinging to something that's GONE.

REMEMBER: Homeland security is watching you- in bed, on the toilet, and while you shower.

"Price: Value, plus a reasonable sum for the wear and tear of conscience in demanding it." -Ambrose Bierce, the Demon's Dictionary.

I like your signatures.

RE:  "Homeland security is watching" . . . I think it's in consequence my place to make it an interesting and educational program.  Getting someone's attention is the first step in retraining.

Just think!  We've got 'em paying attention!!!!

chimerae--

You mentioned you went through a similar exerience as mine.  Did you mean that you experienced a multi hour entity invasion or did you mean, a "dark night of the soul" involving negs, or what?

Would you like to share your experience?  I would be interested in hearing about it.

Kaili --

Astral Pulse is a difficult place for me because it's so energetically intense and I tend to be somewhat fragile.  

In consequence, I come and go here.   I feel like I'm on the edge of being "gone" from AP.  Sharing that sort of story is rather more intense than I can manage at the moment.

But the short version is:  Yeah . . . multilevel, multihour neg invasion where there just is no room for consciousness of anything other than the negative -- it's like a virus where they get in and take over.  Also, sometimes as a consequence of that invasion, benign well intended powerful entities -- both human and otherwise -- create genuine damage in their attempts to "help."  The "good guys" then escalate their helping aggressiveness, unaware that it's YOU that's being damaged and the invading entity is just happy as clam.  

Still though, there are positive forces that step in to support and advocate for you.  It's just that my experience was that the ones that are effective in that sort of situation are subtle and easily overlooked, even when they're doing the most.

There is life on the other side of this.

Another interesting but annoying aspect of it that I feel that I need to share with you, is that when these things are tangled up with you, they're not running around loose wrecking havoc on everyone and everything else.  That awareness didn't actually help me feel better -- I don't remember ever volunteering -- but it was part of the mechanism of getting to the other side.  

MacArthur:  THANKS for the source on that quote.  I still have too much of a bad attitude about it to have looked it up myself.  It's saved my butt a thousand times, but I still wince whenever I think of it.

 If you're going through Hell, don't pitch a tent.  Just keep moving.

Hmm. That's cute.

Yeah.  She was really was obnoxious.  When I was really struggling she would say it and then add in a louder voice:  

. . . and for God's sake DON'T BUY ANY REAL ESTATE!

Kaili --

I have kept silent because I couldn't think of anything helpful to say.

I've gone through very similar circumstances to the one you describe.  It was made worse for me by well intentioned, genuinely caring people of power who didn't understand reframing what I was in to fit their own experience.  At the time, it made my difficulties much worse.  

And, I felt beat up and "bad" because I had a situation that wasn't supposed to exist.  Did that mean that I wasn't real?  

On the other side of the experience, I realized that among the many incredibly unhelpful "positive mental attitiude" and "love and light" coachings I got, there were some scattered few bit that got in and took tenuous root.  I still don't know why some helped even a little and most didn't -- but that's the way it was.

As they say in the old movie "Pump Up The Volume" The Truth is a Virus.

I would hope that you would keep posting, keep telling your truth as you see it to the absolute best level of your ability in that moment.  I would hope that you would take the posts in response, distill whatever's workable, and let the rest go.  You  have too much going on to carry any extra baggage -- even if it's REALLY GOOD STUFF.    

As long as you keep posting both you and the people who respond to you are held in a special kind of consciousness by a great number of people who are active, albiet silent participants in the conversation  

Every post here is READ by more people than respond.  In the etheric, I sometimes think that matters more than the words.

The way out is THROUGH.  

One of the annoying people who actually helped me used to say:  If you're going through Hell, don't pitch a tent.  Just keep moving.

I don't know if this applies, but this is my favorite comic:

http://elgoonishshive.com/

You really have to go back and read it from the beginning for it to qualify under this topic . . . I think it fits!

I'm glad you're here.

I'm sorry it's been hard.  I do think everyone intended support and not criticism.  

Personally, I didn't realize you were so new to Astral Pulse.  (Yeah, yeah . . . I know . . . it's posted right there on the side of the screen, but . . . )

You're right.  You're intelligent and lucid.

And, I don't know, but in this venue I don't think age helps much.  The older we are, the more fallacies we seem to have to unlearn.

I about went crazy from a Splenda OD, no kidding.

Wow!!! That was close!  

I just bought Splenda yesterday because I was told it was "as okay as any refined sugar" by someone who's usually right on.   I completely flip out with aspertame.  I haven't enen opened the package.  And now . . . I WON'T

I'm not sure but I think you may have just preserved my sanity.  Such as it is.  

Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you.

at the moment, if i dont fix all of my problems with medications, i go nuts, and die from depression. my psychiatrist probably doesnt consider the money my mother has to pay for four medications, that is 80 dollars a month, except for the 3 free refills on some of them. im not really worried about the fact that im taking all of the pills because i have very few problems while medicated. im either indifferent on meds, or extraordinarily emotional not on meds, and i dislike having mood swings.

When you're doing your work and walking the Path even the less-than-perfect compromises we make to be human work out beautifully.

I used to be really frustrated about all the things I can't quite do "right" .  (Well, okay, I'm still REALLY FRUSTRATED but I can also see the wisdom in where I am.)

I find that if something (like these drugs) adds to my life but is a problem in some other way, if I practice gratitude for what works,  unconditonal acceptance of who I am where I am, and then turn what's not working over to The Universe or God (substitute your own term for the Great Infinite) then everything evolves into something better.

Note I said "PRACTICE" 'cause I can't really do Gratitude, Unconditional Acceptance OR Letting go.  That's why it's called "Practice"  

Among my personal compromises of the moment is that coffee cuts down my psychic abilities to the point that life is manageable.  But coffee is bad for me physically which messes up all kinds of things.  But because I drink coffee, I am frequently in line in this accidentally magical little mainstream coffee shop where all kinds of amazing things happen.  Someday, I suspect I will quit drinking coffee, and then something else will be the irritating grain of sand that makes the pearl in the oyster.

While I'm thinking of it . . . anybody else here a fan of Callahan's Crosstime Saloon?

What did you mean by most authentic and fully charged self?  I am unsure of what that means.  (I apologize for my incomprehension of some things.) ~ Juliet

Juliet --

There's always the interesting question about whether it's your incomprehension or me being incomprehensible.  I see things differently, and then when I try to say what I see it gets even more muddled sometimes.

You know how people talk about the "higher self"?  

With a few rare people, I have have seen them come alive, not just in their higher self, but in a way where every aspect of who they are comes to it's highest level of ability and works at maximum synergy with all their other aspects and with their place in the world and the world in general -- and across planes and in different worlds concurrently.  People who know more and have studied with Mr. Bruce may have a word for it that I just don't know.

By rough example, when that happens, even other people's incorrect models of that person were suddenly the best and highest version they could possibly be.  And the person's higher self would be concurrently engaged.  And the primitive selfish child within would be at it's highest capacity - - and so on and so forth.  And somehow, all those incompatible elements are just in perfect alignment.  It's like tuning a guitar and hitting the enharmonics.

That just fascinated the hell out of me.  So I started paying attention.

I noticed that everybody has those moments -- or more likely for most of us, those tiny fractions of a microsecond.  I noticed that it seemed that the least complex and evolved individuals had more of these moments than the enlightened who tended to lean into their higher self.  

But there are some rare individuals who are complex and highly evolved who are able to manifest this "most authentic and fully charged" congruity  with great frequency and consistency.  

They're often totally confused, because the experience doesn't "fit" the lower reality that their ego had the difficult job of navigating.  So they conceptually displace their own power onto other people, which makes the ego's job much easier but makes it harder to manifest that authentic and fully charged self.

I frequently don't really understand these things from Rastus -- and I don't feel moved to engage in a deeper level of understanding.  I just find that there are a handful of areas that are kind of "not my job" that make me being me so much easier.

Rastus sort of keeps me on track and gives me a "head's up" on some of those.  

One of these is his role for me as Timekeeper.  

Like others, I get a lot of these kinds of notices with dates and times and patterns predicted.  

What I find with Rastus is there's a unusual level of sychronicity -- I get the reminder from Rastus at the moment where it's easiest for me to take the key and fit it into the right lock just in time to have the correct door open.  And be dressed for the party and not standing there with "bad hair" in my paint splatter sweats with potting soil all over my hands.

My ex-husband was a fusion musician.  By metaphor, You can't really "fly" musically unless you have someone in the band who's timing is solid.  In the fusion bands, you always hoped that was your bassman and/or drummer.  Sometimes it didn't work out that way and it was really the lead guitarist who hauled the rhythm section back on track.  The horns just can't do the job.

Juliet --

I can be completely wrong, so I would hope everyone would always take anything I say with a grain of salt and just work with what resonates, letting the rest go as just me howling at the moon.

Having said that, I added that last bit with reluctance, only becuase it FELT so important.

In my experience, bonds form in the etheric that can tangle up etherically gifted people like J.  Like you.  Like me.

And now I'll talk out of my intellect and experience to try to translate my intuitive sense.  

If you conceptualize J as the repository for etheric capacites that are really YOURS, then every time you access your gifts that you have him mentally linked to, you pull a part of him in.  

Someone out on AP was talking about Soul Retrieval.  I don't do Soul Retrievals, but I refer people to shamans who do them.  Trapping a teacher in an etheric icon identity -- even if they get off on the power of that identity -- often results in some level of soul loss.  Most individuals who have enough "soul" to be etheric teachers have a way to recall and recapture the lost bits, but  it's a drain.
 
There's lots of other things that happen, but consider that an example, a little mini word story to sketch how you being your most authentic and fully charged self is a benefit to J and others you care about.

You don't know of any "special" psychotherapists in NC do you?

I worked for years with "normal" therapists and I've had "special" therapists off and on.

My general thought is that the "normals" are better therapists.  It's pretty confusing and frustration being a therapist anyway -- the psychic therapists tend to burn out or flip out or get in trouble with the System.  

I was referred to mine after I'd worked through everything BUT the psychic implications.  

I don't know any professionals in North Carolina.  Would the Monroe Institute be a referral institute for that general area?  Unity Churches are usually a pretty safe place to look.  I also have good luck with mainstream psychologists are practicing Sufis.  I'm not a Sufi and don't know much about it, it may just be that Sufi practice shapes people in ways that work for me.   I seem to traumatize American Buddhists, even though I like them alot.

Hi, Chimerae! This is LadyLea but I'm using a different username.  It's Juliet.  I hope it doesn't confuse anyone.

I don't have a word for the experience you call incubi, but I have had that happen and it's just annoying as hell.  

In that Other Place, people very much have specific energy signatures, like fingerprints, and that it's possible to tell "fakes" like that, as long as I'm not too needy or exhausted.

The desire to cut is a tough space.  Are you taking care of the things that are around that at this point?  Any spots there that need more backup?

Last night I was listening to Stevie Nicks as I thought about how we met, our bond, our dreaming, our intense feelings for each other, our break up, and the years that followed of off and on dreaming together.  As I thought of him, I pictured his face in my mind's eye.  Suddenly, my third eye began to tingle and pressure grew heavy and strong.  I began seeing images.  I could only make out one.  I saw James punching a bag, the ones that boxers use to train on.  I was puzzled by this image.  Why did he send it to me?  If he didn't send it to me, why did I pick up on it?  Could he be made because I am trying to take control of my learning? Or is he angry that I'm trying to break the bond between us?  It feels like leaving home.  I know I need to but a part of me wants to hang on to him.  I know this isn't healthy.  I don't understand how to deal with this situation and him.  I need to understand what's happening before I move on.

Sounds to me like you tuned into HIM listening to Stevie Nicks, thinking and remembering.  Picturing his face in your mind's eye is like dialing up the old phone number.  

The punching bag image sounds great!  I would hear that as James has anger work to do (as do most of it) and he's working it.  A punching bag is a GREAT place to do anger work.  Personally, I like to break glass, but my method is messier and requires tedious cleanup afterwards.  

The part of you that wants to hang onto him . . .do you have a childhood where the real experience of love, connection, and intimacy has some unfortunate pain and strings attached?  If so, you may have somehow linked those to love in your psyche.  Also, you had a pretty powerful experience and awakening with James, many people feel drawn BACK through their desire for the intimacy of breakthrough experiences because we've not yet learned that THERE'S ALWAYS MORE LOOT!!! and that as long as we grow FORWARD there will be MORE breakthroughs, more intimacy . . . but with currently unknown sources.  It takes a while and practice owning your own power before that gets easier.

There are lots of people here far more skilled than I am with helping people get clarity, set some parameters, and practice responsibly owning power.  

Still, sounds like great work to me.

I would love to work with someone like you are speaking of, I will have to look for some in my area!

One of my etheric coaches is an empath and ex-therapist from Florida.  When she needs intense therapy, she goes to Florida.  I don't know where, but I could ask if it ever becomes and issue.

You sound just awesome!!!!

hello everyone. i am 17 years old and have bipolar disorder.

Scientific American January 1991 has a great article on the high incidence of bipolar disorder in individuals of creative genius

It won't help about your specific question about the faeries, but it does give a window into extended perception that comes along with bipolar disorder on a very mainstream thread.  

I'm not bipolar, but I do see faeries (and other things)  I get regular therapy, simply because it's so crazy making to try to balance my larger reality with what most people see and experience.

The trouble as I see it is that we humans require healthy mirroring to verify our experience and to see what is helpful and what is not.   We need it to order our relationship with the world around us.  

My experience of faeries is that there are many many different kinds and some of them bite.  

Looks like you've had a pretty good response here for the rest of it, but if there's anything more you feel would be helpful, PM me