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I've been here about a year.  
I found this place because I woke up one morning unable to move, unable to scream.  A very frightening experience, I finally got up and thought everything was fine but I turned around and saw my body on my bed.  I was so shocked, I woke up but knew it was no dream.  This is what got me into OBEs!  I was scared but very excited.  I've had about 30 now, but have almost lost interest.  I'm more concerned with understanding consciousness, mediation.  Currently going through a strange energy phase, pushing, pulsing up my body and out of head throughout the day and night.  Kundalini I have heard, i'm not too concerned with what it is, but it is wonderful, I am changing!  And I am changing so much, I feel I am becoming myself again, like when I was young.  The OBE is what brought me back on course  The rope thing from Robert Bruce's book.
And nowadays I am becoming less and less interested in hobbies.  I love to talk, to go out with friends but sometimes I do nothing at all.  I just stand for a whole day... I just stand and listen or sometimes walk.  Not normal for a 19 year old these days, good.  I smile a lot.

Sounds like fun!  Why so keen to get rid of them?  Could get interesting

meditate
let it come naturally

who cares where the tan-tein is

I'm not so sure on all of this realm stuff.  Dunno wether my family will be there after death.  I doubt it because I don't really consider myself with them now, even though I live with them.  The love is almost there, but it's more of an agreement, we're very seperate this way.  I've noticed that love is the same from anyone, anything... but the more genuine, the more pure it is, the stronger the love.  So whoever is there to love me after death won't be important, but I hope that some sort of love will be there.  

I am going through a little awakening at the moment, sometimes I seem to lose all love, become very helpless.  Death seems like the only friend during those times, but even death I don't know.  How can I love what I don't know?  And if I focus on what comes after it then I am just in love with imagination, because I don't know what is after it.  And I won't trust what others tell me.  Loving the family is important, I hope to love them more, but I don't think i'm ready yet... I haven't got enough love inside me to share.  I think that's what should be focused on first.  

Sorry, I went from death/family to love... but I think they're close.  Because death is usually feared, and you need love to transcend fear. So my guess is that the whole effort should be to bring death and love together.  Would that make sense, I wonder.

meditation is medication!

if you want to fly so much go kill yourself and ask to be reincarnated as a bird

A way to possibly tell wether it was your life or someone elses that you were viewing is to check if you remember it.  When my past life memories are triggered, I actually remember being there.  How can someone elses life be remembered?  Those must be just dreams.

I have almost had astral sex a few times.  But I have a problem and it is the most frustrating thing!  Just as I am about to orgasm, I flip back to my body  And it happens every time - Just my luck!

I have used MP3 copies of hemi-sync in the past, they were encoded at 192kbs and they worked great.

I don't think those CDs are worth the money anymore.  The BWgen program is just as good and there's no sudden commands being blurted at you - Monroe used to make me jump a lot.

I've been recieving lots of memory flashes lately, I think they are past lives.  But it's difficult to piece together what they mean, they are just quick pictures.  The other day I recieved a memory flash of sitting at a table in a library.  I got so excited when I remembered it, I shouted out "the library!" I used to love being there  Maybe it was the Akasha library, maybe these are astral memories, I don't know.

Isn't there some sort of self hypnosis you could use to remember your past?

get ready!

this last week i have never had so much pain, the energy became so strong....  I have learned not to fight it, because that only causes more pain.  I laid down in agony for 8 hours waiting to die the other day, and I didn't die.  I have been slowly recovering and learning to handle the energy.  It isn't all bad, because it is quickly making me stronger, more accepting

Not that I think you will get the same symptoms, I don't know anything about kundalini energy... but I am slowly learning to handle it.  And my way is to become more accepting, more receptive and more aware.  Less thoughts and more awareness.

You're right, the experiences aren't bad right now.  I was just worried about the future, as to what happens afterwards.  Perhaps I should try to live more in the present.  I have heard some sort of  kundalini syndrome starts after this process is finished, and i've heard a lot of bad stories about that.

Thanks for recommending that book, I will look into it



The awareness exercising was something I was trying to bring into every moment.  Constantly watching what I was doing, espeically when walking.  I walk back and forth from work every day and this is a great time to take in the surroundings, watch myself walk and watch as the mind quietens down.  So I think it's just been a case of watching myself a lot more than usual, dropping useless thoughts which weren't helpful etc and carrying on happily listening to everything and being more accepting, more receptive.  In a way I have been trying to make each moment a type of meditation.

Robert Monroe pretty much tried to keep everything a secret until he grew more experienced and formed his own theories.  I don't think it's a good idea for anyone here who's just beginning to learn to start throwing other people's knowledge on other people.  Perhaps explain what you're going through if situations become difficult.  
But coming out to friends and family boasting that you flew out of your body the other night is only going to get you locked up or laughed at.  It's important to recognize where the information is coming from.  If it's coming from a book, then it's useless.  If it's from your centre or from your experiences then i think it's ok if you tell the right people, as long as you don't go around bragging in a certain attitude that says "I know and you don't".

I'm not sure how it started or when it started.  I have been using NEW in the past, but not much.  I have been using techniques to enhance my awareness these last few months, as well as meditating a lot.

These last few weeks, a gentle energy has been moving upwards through my chest and stopping at blockages, this happens throughout the day and when I am more relaxed it becomes easier.  When I concentrate on the blockages, a bit of pain is felt and sometimes strong heat and then it moves up to the next blockage.  Energy has left my crown a few times, when this happens I feel wonderful but only for a few minutes, and then the process starts again from the bottom of my torso.

The other night I woke up from a sleep and had the most painful experience i've ever had, a strong type of hot, lightning bolt shot through me.  I had no control over myself, all I could do was watch.  The pain was there, but suprisingly no fear.  I had been drinking that night, a bad move I think.  I've now decided not to drink again until I am well.

I've read most of the stuff on the forum and a lot of websites and one book.  Most of the information I have found is all about "what" kundalini is.  I don't want to know what it is, I want to know what to do.  Perhaps it is something I need to deal with alone.  I don't even know what I am preparing for (if anything), but the energy continues to clear my blockages (if I help it) throughout the day and night.

I'm now going through a kundalini cleaning process and I can hardly sleep or join in with others at anything.  The most of the day I am focusing on the energy, or resting. Even at work, things are becoming very difficult and still I can't tell anyone.  I'm 19 and still living with parents, it's not easy to keep everything to myself.  I'm worried that if anything serious happens, I won't know how to explain myself, and they might begin to take some sort of action.  I'll have to wait and see

The biggest blockage seems to be in the top of my back.. when energy comes up at first it tries to push it's way through and then it becomes really hot as if it's trying to burn away at the blockage.  I usually get too startled because i've heard so much about kundalini.... and so i try to flick my awareness on something else until it calms down.. I wonder if I should risk letting it do it's work and seeing what happens...  I don't know what it is, or what to do, the energy sensations are more powerful all the time and I get them throughout the day and night now, almost every part of me... but mostly the left side.  My right ear feels like it's got trapped air just above it, all day... nothing seems to budge it, and it kinda effects my whole ear.  Energy seems to be working it's way up, and a lot of it is hanging around at the top of my head, but more of it keeps coming and pushing up and creating more pain.

I don't know if confronting the pain is a good idea, I don't want to leap into a more awkward situation.  Perhaps it will make things easier, but i'm worried it will make things worse.  On the other hand, i'm worried that if I repress it, it will come back stronger and more painful.

I have ordered some books so hopefully i will get an idea of what to do.

Sounds like it could've been a member of your astral fan club Frank.

For me, it's all about awareness and desire.

Thanks for the advice,

Just incase anyone is interested...

I went through a lot of pain again yesterday during meditation after focusing on the blockages.  I had a horrible back pain and a sudden slapping feeling to the left side of my head (next to my eye).  At first I actually thought someone had slapped me, I even spontaneously flicked my head to the right.  I was also hit with a flood of images, sparking my memory.  I remembered them but I was unsure where they were from.  Perhaps they were from an earlier dream or a past life, dunno.  I heard lots of loud noises and screams and saw many familiar but at the same time unfamiliar faces.  Interesting.

I stopped after a while because I was too tired.  Part of the blockage in my back was cleared I think, but i'm sure a lot of work still needs to be done, because there is pain again today.  I hope I am on the right track.

quote:Originally posted by Athios

I was wondering about KP's response. Did you actually get that deja vu feeling when that happened?

Yeah, just like all my previous de ja vus, but I was a bit more aware of what was going on.

quote:More importantly, since you do remember where and when it happened before, does that then actually count as a deja vu experience? What I'm getting at is, perhap there has been stuff happening (and maybe we've even heard about them), that could clearly explain and demonstrate what's going on during a deja vu. But maybe it's just that we don't recognize these events as being a deja vu experience?  []

I think it might be a case of awareness during the phase and how much insight you put into each experience.  It was exactly the same as my past de ja vu experiences.  The only difference was the observation which followed, which I then related to the past.  But that was a conscious thing.

Last night I remembered to ask for my guide.  It had been so long since my last OBE that I'd forgotten the vibrations.  They were so strong and it took me a while to wonder what they were.  When I got out I looked around and everything seemed normal in my room.  I shouted out something like, "I would like to see my inner guide!"

And then I heard a woman's voice, she said she was my guide.  She said her name was Suzess and that she was my sister.  She talked for a while and showed me a few images of what she said was my past life.  I remember seeing lots of men on horses in blue uniform with weapons.  I was the only one not on a horse and at first I was scared, but they smiled and carried on.  Then I met up with someone who wasn't on a horse, wearing a white robe.  But he didn't say a lot.  
I went back to talking my guide and I can't remember much of what she said but she ended it by telling me I am an ancient God!  haha

Then I lost control of the experience.
I think i'll try again tonight.  It seems all it takes is a little bit of desire and determination.

Thanks for reading,
God

I have always wanted to meet my guide, but whenever I am out of body I always forget it.  And lately I haven't had as many OBEs as I used to.  I think there's some sort of guide always available wether on the astral or not.  Since I was young I have been asking "myself" yes/no questions.  For example  "Will it rain today?" i would grab the first word that came into my head and count it's letters.  If it was an even number of letters then it would mean yes, an odd number of letters would mean no.  And I have been doing this since I learned how to spell, I don't know where this idea came from but all the answers I get seem to be quite accurate.  I think the words may come from a  guide, or maybe my unconscious/subconscious, whatever

About the quote:  I always thought of it as being innocent.  To not interpret anything into your own knowledge to just look at everything as if you don't know what it is.  As if you have no knowledge.  Like a child.  So a new born child would be very wise.

I can recommend www.farsight.org .   They offer a free real audio course which lasts around 15 hours.

Today I saw a black bird.  I had been thinking of birds the other week and it is what was pictured in my head, and the exact thing replayed when I saw the bird today.  I was lucky to remember it but I know it was from then.  

Reminded me of watching a movie when suddenly a scene from the trailer comes on which has already been seen.

Whatever kind you want.  The meditation I use is just to sit and be aware.  I let the thoughts come and watch them dissapear.  I can't really prevent thoughts from happening, but I watch them come and go until there is no more mind and just pure alertness.  Try to just be aware without thinking.  Let the thoughts come and dissapear.