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I have never had panic attacks, but I was quite anxious socially through most of my teenager years. I was shaking at lunch time, thinking people were laughing at me, my jaws were tense, my hands were cold, I felt rigid, I didn't look at people... and well, I did have a panic attack once when I had smoked marijuana in public. I don't think they would prescribe pot for anxiety... because well even though cannabis can be relaxing, it can actually weird you out and cause more anxiety. When I am high, I won't even post things on Facebook because it makes me too anxious to share what's on my mind. I would seriously avoid it at all cost - also it triggers hunger pretty badly. Also you say you have been on various medications... my guess is you were put on benzodiazepines, possibly Xanax? How long did you use medication? Did you know benzo or even anti-psychotics like Zyprexa can cause rebound anxiety and the most hellish long-lasting withdrawals symptoms ? Benzo withdrawals is much more crazy than heroin! Even though there is a part of you whose seem happy for what you have, you seem really depress... Give it some time though... see it a as transition... try to take a small walk outside, even if you feel weirded out by people... I know my aunt was exactly like you and no medication helped her and pot made it worse for her. Now she is 40 and started to live, she have a business and she is doing a lot better! See it as a transition... you are not alone in your situation, I don't know why, but it's pretty common! Hang on my friend! Seriously forget about the pot, it will indeed kill your ability to AP, LD and pass a point you won't even remember one single dream! Try to do some sports... like jogging, it's tough to get started, but it's a powerful antidepressant and natural anxiolytic! And don't give up on your dream, we need cops like you! And God, you have a caring and loving girlfriend... I have never had a girlfriend because of my social anxiety which is still pretty big around girls...so cheeeeeeers up! 

I can only imagine a room full of astral projectors all rubbing their hands like they are thinking of some evil plan  

Lol that would be funny for sure!=)

How to stay out longer? This is exactly the question I asked a teacher in a LD. I was in a class and became aware and I went to him and asked out: How can I remain longer in this state? He gave me 3 or 4 tricks. Unfortunately, I could only remember two! First, he told me to write down my experiences. And secondly, he told me not to do anything stupid while in there. Guess what? After wandering just a little bit, I found a beautiful woman, had sex with her and woke up! I wish I could remember the two other pieces of advices he gave me! I have met him again but I forgot to ask. I like the idea of telling yourself: I am aware! Also, I believe intentions could be useful here... for example, I was really bothered by sex killing my experiences, so after noting down such an experience, I wrote my next intent. Something like: I don't want to have sex while projecting... if anything I want to have a beautiful experience of love and not go farther than hugging and kissing. It's exactly what happened the next time! Those love dreams are priceless and they last much longer than the sex ones!

Last thing, when you say your projections doesn't last long... do you mean you physically wake up or you just go back to the stage of vibrations? Don't allow yourself to wake up, let the vibrations fill you over and over and keep going out!

I am pretty new to AP but I get your point, the intent is the most important thing to be successful! This isn't related to AP, but last winter, when I was still lost in a world of drugs and tripping on 4-aco-DMT, I decided to dose again and to mix with methoxetamine... and then just for fun I decided to write this in Word: "Ahh I I made up my mind! Tonight I will try Psilacetin (4-Aco-DMT) and I want to badtrip and end up falling into the darkness...  gonna fall and keep going down never reaching bottom"

Guess what happened next? It wasn't my intent at all, but my thought became real... because thoughts does contain some sort of intent whenever you want it or not.  I totally blacked out for about 15 hours and when I woke up... well I was already up! I couldn't walk or speak well and I felt so messed up... I started listening my recorder which was still on. I heard a demoniac voice, I didn't understand the language, but I knew what it was saying. It was saying "FINALLY WE GOT YOU YOU ARE TRAPPED HAHAHAHA" I became so scared, I read a murder story in the newspapers and started to believe I may have murdered someone because while listening my recorder, I could see a vision through it... I had became a creature and people were afraid of me and a terrible story unfolded. That was very scary... to think it all started with a thought I wrote down!

Hum well... let's see if anyone else experienced something similar to me? I dunno why but I tend to think it's drugs related. I astral project when I am totally or mostly drugs free... but when I felt this pain on my back last week, I still had opiates in my body and the withdrawals only hit me in the face the next morning. Which mean I was stable enough to project and to sleep, but still my body was intoxicated. Also, my higher self or guide been telling me to stop smoking tobacco if I want to go further into astral projection. I just quit today... I will see how it goes from there. Seriously it was painful enough that it would discourage a lot of people to attempt AP! If anyone else had similar experience, please share!

Thanks you guys for the warm welcome! Greytraveller, yeah I am pretty much done reading the FAQs! 

I just joined but I will be gone by tomorrow for a month... I'm mostly clean from drugs, but still I decided to check into a detox and in a rehab center before going back to school in January. And today, as it was suggested by my higher self last summer, I quit smoking tobacco! Wish me well, hope to be back soon=)

Journeys to exotic astral realms like Velis are relatively unusual. This Has happened to me several times but I have never been fortunate to meet a guide there or even to know the name of the place. So I consider you somewhat fortunate in that respect.
The next step for you might be to deliberately return to Velis and to learn more about it. Perhaps there was a reason that you went there?? Maybe there are beings residing there that want to meet you?

Hello everyone and thank you for your warm comments! Grey, are you suggesting that the always and ever smiling friend I met could be a guide? In my lucid dreams and my few astral projections, I always meet them! A few years ago, I met one... it was my best friend at the time, but the big smile and the warm attitude, made me realize he wasn't my friend. I asked him "Who are you?". He took my hand in his and as we holded hands he told me "I am you". Everything turned to blackness and I felt a feeling of elevation. That was a very beautiful experience! In any case, I really want to go back to "Velis" as soon as possible. I am still unsure as my purpose on Earth and I want a guide to tell me... well thanks guys for reading and for your comments! The Astral Pulse is really a cool place

I have had similar experiences! Back a few years ago, when I was crashing off methamphetamine, I was lying in bed in psychosis. I saw a black cat on my desk. I dunno why but it looked like a deity cat. It stayed there for a while and then it was gone. Then in the last year, when I was crashing off from fluoro-amphetamine, I found myself in psychosis again lying in bed... and all of a sudden I felt footprints on my bed and a cat came over next to me. I could not see it but he talked to me, I can't remember what it said, and then it left. I thought it could be my own cat, but my door was closed. That was pretty strange, I mean to feel footprints on my bed, it's a very very complex hallucination I rarely if ever experienced. Maybe it was my protective animal? I love cats! So glad though I quit using those evil drugs.

Here's footage of a glass ashtray exploding at a bar.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftjjJ-Rwk9M&feature=relmfu

Wow nice video! It's exactly what happened! It sure is strange...

A few years ago, I was with a friend in his apartment and there was a glass... people do not believe me when I tell them the glass suddenly imploded right in front of us! And there was no heat source! It did not explode, it imploded! We were extremely surprised... the broken pieces are quite similar in size and apart from very little pieces, none of them were sharp. I have a picture of the remains of the glass! It's nothing great, but it's hard to explain! I was told it could be "harmonic vibrations" that hit the glass or something like that. Still, it's a pretty rare phenomena! Here is a link to the picture:

http://postimage.org/image/4djl4ngkb/

Hola amigos!

I am yet another newcomer here. I am very happy I found people sharing the same interest as me! I am 26 years old, I am a French Quebecker, I have a degree in arts and letters, I love literature, Japanese animation and role-playing-games, I have a fascination with esoterism and I used to be a psychonaut. I explored psychedelics states... but overtime I got myself trapped into the world of drugs. I have been struggling to recover my health... I have been lucid dreaming and experiencing SP in the past 8 years and then it happened this summer when I was clear from drugs withdrawals... I had my first conscious AP! I sort of already introduced in the Astral Projection Experiences where I shared my first AP which was wonderful: http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_astral_projection_experiences/voyage_to_velis-t38894.0.html

I am very glad I found this place

Hello there,
Last week, when I started to feel the inner vibrations and tried to take my off my physical vessel, I couldn't do it and as I was forcing to achieve dissociation, I started to feel a very sharp pain around my right scapula. It was really painful and it felt like that region of my body was swollen. I was afraid because it felt really real. I physically woke up and I was relieved my scapula wasn't swollen. A few months ago I had a similar problem, but this time I felt chest pain. It's a different story, but on another occasion, I took me off my body but then I was pushed back my two beings. I couldn't see them because I was blind and it was actually painful when I struggled with them. I was also bitten by a mouse that was by my bed once. Well I deserved it thought because I tried to crush it with my foot! It's not pain like we know it... it's more like a sort of energetic pain. Anyway, have you ever felt pain during the stage of vibrations? What could be causing it and how could I get pass this problem? It doesn't discourage me, but it is really painfull! Since I am making a thread about the vibrations, I would like to share something else. Once I was lying on my back (a position I do not like to fall asleep) and I started to get vibes... but only in my feet! Did it ever happened to anyone else?

Unless I am very tired, it happens at night when I go to bed at 11pm. I haven't done it a lot and it only happened once in the morning and I was not successful at APing yet when taking a nap at noon in a chair... thought I remember this summer, I saw a little red card going by my field of vision as I was napping at work... that was funny. I think if I practice more, I will be able to do it night, morning, anytime!

If anything it is the other way around.  It is my "higher self" that is learning from me, which is why I'm here. 

Hum I like your perspective!

Well this thread is a good idea to form concrete intentions. Personally, I do not want sex in the astral or even in dreams! It annoys me a lot because sometimes the girl doesn't want to have sex with me and I feel I am a nocturne raper!  :lol:The orgasm is always powerful though but then I wake up cheesy! I met a teacher a few months ago in a lucid dream. I asked him how I could stay longer in this state. He told me to avoid doing anything stupid... guess what just a moment later I found a gorgeous woman, had sex with her and woke up cheesy!  I think astral sex is very real but it is very different from real sex... it's more like a powerful arousal upon when you touch the other. Well that's my experience. I had another sex dream during which I just could not come because I had took pain medication in the evening... which make it very hard to have an orgasm. That allowed me stay in the lucid dream and I found myself exploring a forest and I found a strange mechanism I started to unlock. At this point, I heard two voices discussing. "Oh he made it far!", "But it's time for him to go back"... I asked a delay but was took out of the state. I want to go deeper and that's why I want to avoid sex.

Personally, I want to meet my guide! I want to ask him what is the reason of my present incarnation. I feel like I already have the answer, but I just need confirmations. Then I want him to teach me or show me whatever he wants to. Once in my life, I have seen a being of light in my dreams... I was so scared I ran away from it! Now I feel ready for it, it can take it's body of light form and come to me anytime! I also want to visit the Akashic Records for personal insight and visit other planets and lifeforms. I have met a typical gray big head big round eyes little alien... but he was black with even darker eyes... that was scary though, very scary! My main goal is: healing. I have been a drug addicts for 8 years and I never want to go back to that hellish lifestyle!

Hello Astral Pulsers! This is my first time posting around here... I have been looking for people who share the same interest as me in OBEs and lucid dreaming. I have tried to share my experience with relatives, friends, coworkers, facebook friends... some people do seem to have an interest in these things, but most just think this is insane, that I have been doing too much drugs!... The thing is I have been a poly-drugs user for over eight years... this all started when I wanted to explore reality back when I was 18. I had my first sleep paralysis experience a few days after I tried psilocybin mushrooms and started to lucid dream pretty much at the same time. Over the years I went through an hell that I just can't start to describe. Against my will, I have often found myself seeing things from the low astral. When I was addicted to methamphetamine, I took a video of myself undergoing extreme pain... when I checked it, still being in an altered state, I was shocked to see there was a cloud of self-transforming red flammes with an evil expression anchored over my head. It was raging and enjoying the more and the more as I struggled... I came to understand that it was the spirit associated to methamphetamine. You can read my theory about drugs and spirits here: http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/630893-I-signed-a-pact-with-the-Devil I experienced many many horrible but also very beautiful things. Then I just had enough and decided to get off. I have nothing more to be taught by drugs! I went through months of withdrawals from benzodiazepines and opiates. When I started to feel normal again... I went to bed and it happened, the vibrations filled me and I just knew it was my chance to go out-of-body even though I knew nothing about the inner vibes. It is a huge motivation for me to stay drugs free - why would I use drugs when I trip sober? I have been successfull at projecting about 5-6 times. On a few occasions, I could not make out of the vibes; some beings pushed me back in my body or I felt minor or intense pain at trying to do so. Here's my first experience:

Voyage to Velis

I wasn't really tired, but I decided to go to bed to respect my sleeping schedule. I fell asleep quite fast, but then all of a sudden I was filled with a sensation of inner vibrations, a sort of intense buzzing went through all my body. I have no idea why, but I understood that it was my chance to attempt astral projection. It wasn't easy, it was tough, but I was able to free myself from my physical vessel attraction. I found myself next to my bed, but there was nobody to be seen. I floated a little bit around and I went back to the vibrations stage. While making my research about astral projection, I found out that it may be impossible to see your physical body because of the astral frequency on which my consciousness goes when projecting. I also learned that I need to get away from my body as fast as possible to avoid being sucked back by my body magnetism.

I went back to the stage of vibrations about five or seven times. On one occasion, I saw myself lying in bed, but I looked younger and I was wearing my glasses. I seemed like a teenager. I read that it could possibly be my etheric body or something like that, which can take on a very different appearance from my physical body. Every time I had a lot of difficulty in keeping my eyes open. I was often blind and I had to force on my eyes with my hands to see... apparently it is another effect of the attraction of my physical vessel. Next time, I will simply go away from my bedroom as fast as possible. It's exactly what I did next... I went through the roof and found myself outside where I met someone with who I work, but he seemed different, he always had a huge smile. I often meet familiar people with huge smiles in my lucid dreams and they always smile back at me when I tell them they are inside my dreams. "You are wrong, we aren't inside your dream!". I believe they are the higher selfs of my relatives. In any case, I was with this person in what seemed a different landscape in front of my house. They were trees and a lot of things made out of wood. I asked my coworker David how this place was called and he told me I was in "Velis" or something like that. It is a Latin word meaning "you"... but it's also the word used in the "Dievturība", a Neopagan religious movement, which mean (!) astral body. I found this information on Wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dievtur%C4%ABba This sure is a strange coincidence, isn't it? While being with my always and ever smiling friend, I also tried to fly upward, as high as I could, but when I wanted to go higher than the roof of the house in front of me, I became scared. Next time, I will let go because there's no need to be afraid! Fear can only be an obstacle that will enchain me to the low astral.

Returning to the stage of vibrations, I then went out by a sort of panel made out of wood that was in place of the patio glass door behind my house. Once outside, I heard my neightbor little girl shooting "Mama! Mama! Mama!". I decided to call the young girl: "Marie!" and then she started shooting "Mama! Mama! No! He found us!" I thought that she was afraid of me, but then I met a strange creature lurking around. The creature was humanoid, gray in colour with purple lines like some kind of tattoos. It looked a bit like Gollum or Dampé in the Zelda games: http://zeldawiki.org/Damp%C3%A9 It was hairless, skinny and had long arms and legs and seemed strong. It was also tall, maybe about seven feets. I asked him a question and as he was answering, I was took out of my astral projection. I cannot remember the words we exchanged, but I think the young girl was afraid of this creature who looked a lot like the wendigo or some sort of orc. I think he was off to go working, to curve stone maybe because he seemed to be holding a sculpture tool. Also, my neightbor girl is very often shooting out when playing outside, and she is often calling for her mother. I wonder what's going on there...? Otherwise, I remember contemplating the nocturne sky from which I gazed upon a very shiny constellation. It is certain that I will reiterate this experience very soon! And so I did the next night after I started a onieric diary (which was one suggestion I got from a class teacher in a lucid dream) and passed the day reading about astral projection... and that projection was even more profound and beautiful! Listening to astral music is incredible! It sounds so similar to listening to music while on psychedelics drugs... which lead me to think that while in a psychedelic state, the various dimensions of the multiverse overlap within our consciouness.

Well that was my first experience... By the way, every time I come back from the astral, when I turn on the light to take some notes, I can see what I came to call the "rainbow lights", the full specter of the light around light bulbs. I also started to speak with myself in a strange way in the following days... in my mind my tone of voice seems more wise and it tells what's going to happen or what to do (stop smoking cigarettes for example). I love this, it's like I am in touch with my higher self! Lately, I have been trying to meet my guide, to teleport with my thoughts... so far I have been able to fly so high I could see the planet curving. With time I will get the hang of it I know. It's just too bad I relapsed into opiates in the last few months... it totally kill my abilities! I decided to quit because it's killing me to use this stuff... after two weeks, I am almost done with withdrawals. I want to acquire healing into the astral, how is it possible, what should I do? I pray a lot for this to happen. Any comments, tips, anything really would be cool! I really needed to share but I will make sure to read a lot here before anything else! Good evening and safe traveling! By the way, by any chance, anyone here is from Québec and speak French?

Oh God I'm glad I looked up this section of the message board! I had the same problem... it surely wasn't the best time, it ticked me off quite a bit... I created a gmail and now I am very happy to join the Astral Pulse Forums!