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I've got a similar problem.  Well two problems, one more similar than the other. I'd never thought of the empath thing. Sounds plausible as a contributing factor.

In my case I think my problems are a combination of emotional blockages and PTSD.

Lately I've been meditating on my earliest childhood memories. I try and feel the emotions that I was feeling at the time. I let the emotions flow and end up crying a lot. I then work my way through my life finding emotional turmoil that is basically the same thing as my earlier memories. I feel and process the emotions as fully as I can.

I've noticed that when I got to a certain age I stopped consciously feeling these upsetting emotions and developed behavioural coping mechanisms that repressed them. My adult life has been greatly affected by them. I've discovered most of my fears/phobias and emotional problems stem from childhood experiences. A few traumatic events in my adult life have slightly dislodged these emotional blocks and I've started having panic attacks in a PTSD type way.

It's as if that child still exists within me and I feel it's emotional reactions to situations similar to those that upset it. I'm starting to think that maybe I need to do some sort of retrieval on it to integrate it with myself. Havent figured out how yet.

Is it between your eyebrows or right between your eyes?

Between the eyebrows and above is the brow chakra.

If it's right between the eyes it could be your upper dantian or energy storage centre or whatever you want to call it. If you want to fill it up you could try and move the sensation a bit further into your head, up to about an inch. Roobert Bruce advises against this but doesnt go into detail of why.

Do you work on your brow chakra? The chakra sensation and dantian sensation feel distinctly different to me.

I've done this for extended periods a few times and on of them I started to see golden light emanating from my body. At first I thought maybe my eyes had opened a bit and it was just light creeping in so I opened them and could still see the light. It was a pretty awesome experience.

The prison lets me spend every fourth week on home leave at my mums house to help my transition back into the outside world.

On my first night or two here it's common for me to have LD's and spontaneous OBE's. Same goes when I get back to the prison but to a lesser extent. I have a different sleeping pattern for both places and eat at different times too - dont know if that could have anything to to with it.

On dream recall - I've always associated it to be associated with disruption of sleep. I think it has to do with how much we wake up between dreams. A night of broken sleep will always leave me with more memories of dreams. If I actually get up between dreams every night to write in my journal I start to remember much larger portions of them.

I agree about vibrations not actually making anything happen.

But to me though, the OP's idea seems more like a reminder to your dreaming self to have a projection. We all know if you remember your body in the right way from an LD with the intention of projecting to the RTZ it can happen. Vibrating your feet seems worth a try if you associate vibrations with projecting.

Do you have a cell phone? You could set the alarm on it to vibrate and then strap it to your foot. Might be a bit too strong though and just wake you up.

Failing that I suppose you could get a vibrating controller for a game console and remove the vibrator. Then get an alarm clock that gets louder the longer the alarm goes on for. Remove the speaker from the alarm clock and connect the vibrator to the wire the speaker was connected to. You might also want to get a dimmer switch and put it between the alarm clock and the speaker so you can set how strongly it will vibrate.

I seriously struggle to consciously project these days. I hardly even try anymore. I still get fairly regular LD's though so I'm ok.

I've interpreted the reason as being that my other practices are a more important use of my energy for now. I've been putting more time into getting ready for raising my kundalini.

I got out of my last big dry spell by asking my higher self for a spontaneous obe. This is how I went about it
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_out_of_body_experiences/lucidology_on_vibrations-t32102.0.html;prev_next=next

Focus 12 as a crossroad. Makes sense.

In my own personal experience, when I experience waking sleep paralysis, I am already separated from my body. It's taken 20 odd years of sporadic sp to realise this.

I think the feeling of paralysis comes from the expectation that I should be anchored to my body. In the last year I've discovered that if I just close my eyes it instantly breaks the tie to my body and I can feel my way around in the dark until I'm far enough away from my body to get astral sight. I wish I'd figured this out when I was a kid.

Interesting read.

Yeah, everyone I've spoken to who's used them reports having "weird" dreams as well.

I can see how taking a stimulant while you're actually sleeping could cause lucidity.

Your belief that you need the other two is what's holding you back. You dont need them.

My dad said he was in contact with a woman named mary via a ouija board for over a year. The first time a few of them used the board but after that it was just him.

You just need to believe. Let go of any doubt that it will work.

If you're interested in other ways of contacting spirits you might want to look into EVP (Electronic Voice Phenomenon). I keep meaning to find out how to make a device but I always seem to have more pressing things to research.

I was in a Lucid dream around three weeks ago asking to speak to my guide but there was no one around. I kept asking to speak to anyone who could help. I even asked for Frank at one point lol.

I suddenly saw my grandfather doing some gardening(he's still alive). So I went up to him and asked why I havent been able to enter the void lately and why I've been struggling to phase recently(I need to remember to ask just one question at a time).

He replied that I need to speak to Anne Lemon.

Whether thats a real person or it means something else I dont know. I considered phoning all the A. Lemon's in the phone book and asking if they know anything about AP but I figure it's pretty unlikely to be a real person. I've been trying to think of anything relevant that a lemon could represent but without luck.

It's such a specific answer I reckon it's got to mean something.

Any ideas?

If Higher self already knows all the games inside out, then why the heck is he sending me down here to the physical world?? 

Because there're still some bits of the game that he's not experienced yet. This wont be the common stuff though that most people get up to in their lives.

You might only have a few things to achieve before you can stop coming back here. If these things are hard to achieve in this day and age then you might end up "wasting" lots of lives doing the same old same old.

Imagine you're playing an RPG. You can have as many characters as you want. Each character can have lots of different skills, atrributes, access to different areas or whatever. But when you create a new character it has to start from scratch.

Think of the higher self as the actual person playing the game. Even though the character is starting from scratch the higher self already knows most of the game inside out from all the other times its played it. It probably even knows entirely different games.

I hope that analogy helps.

16, 64, 32! 

It's going to be a while before my lungs are up to that.

I've been practicing Kumbhaka for a couple of months at 1, 2, 2 and the best I can comfortably manage is 6, 12, 12.

I suddenly get too hot sometimes too and it knocks me out of my trance.

I still use a blanket though.

So I was in LD and tried falling backwards to enter the void. Recently thats just resulted in me lying on the ground but I keep trying cause it used to work.

This time there was some give in the ground when I landed so I tried to pull myself through it. As I pulled myself through what felt like some sort of barrier, I started to feel an uncomfortable, almost painfull sensation like my energy was incompatible with the place I was going into.

As I popped through into a light gray void, my heart chakra started burning in my back. I fell through this void for a while. Time was strange there. Kind of disjointed.

After a while, the void gave way and I was in a room. It's a bit easier to describe the time thing from there because I properly had a body. If I tried to move my arm it was like the top part of my arm would move, and then a few moments later the middle of my arm would move, but the top part of my arm was still moving during the moments pause. A few moments after the middle part, the end part would move. By the time the rest of my arm had caught up to the original movement of the top part, if I hadnt waited for it to catch up it would start to curl round with the momentum.

That's not exact but it's the closest I can get to describing the way time and movement were disjointed.

There were three people in the room and they seemed to find my attempts to figure out how to move in this environment amusing. They started to imitate the way in which I was walking and we fell into a rather comical shuffling dance around the room.

I could see out of the room and I considered going exploring but I figured it was such a unique experience I shouldnt risk forgetting it so I woke myself up.

I love it when I encounter rain during a projection. Dont know why. I just get a buzz from the feel of it on my face.

What sort of pranayama are you doing before sleep?

I spent half of yesterday in a state of deja-vu. I've only ever had it in small bursts before and that was before I started projecting.

It went on for so long I got to examine it a bit. It was like in the background somewhere I was seeing  something astrally, whether it was a dream or something else I dont know. I couldnt really see what was going on most of the time because I was fully awake and doing stuff. I was getting occasional flashes though where I could make things out.

I couldnt decide if I had seen the things before in a dream and those memories were being triggered by seeing the stuff or if I was simultaneously seeing the same stuff in another "place". It felt like when I'm trying to phase by noticing. Like that stage where you're starting to become aware of a scene, but only vaguely in the back of your mind.

Dont know if thats what you meant about dreaming while we're awake but it's the closest thing I've noticed in myself.

This might be interesting for you guys to read.

http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_metaphysics/zeta_project_zeta_conversations_and_questions-t6924.0.html;msg50045;topicseen#msg50045

Mayatnik, Edi and Fuzzy were the alien experts back in the day.

http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_metaphysics/reptilian_guides_tell_how_it_really_is-t9466.0.html

It's interesting if nothing else.

Man I wish I found these forums years ago. There's so much fascinating stuff in the archives that I'm never likely to stumble across by myself.

Interesting read.

ill have about 2-3 dreams a day of me either trying to project in the "dream"..

Maybe you could try to get into the habit of asking yourself if you're dreaming before you make projection attempts. If it's habitual in the waking you might start to ask the question in the dreams as well.

I like the tune-up explanation. It makes sense.

I put in loads of work in the name of progress. I guess I just expected things to continue at the same old steady pace. The concept of tune-ups is an exiting one It's like your character getting an upgrade in a computer game lol.

Sounds like an awesome experience.

One OBE a night! Even if I could pull it off I dont think I could manage without the sleep.

Best of luck with your goal.

Glad you chose pulse.

I think Lady Gaga's Poker Face contains binaural beats: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ht8ZjuFzlUc

Just listened to it with my headphones and I see what you mean. I can feel a pulse between my ears during the verse. Not the chorus though.

Aliens trying to atrally abtuct me? Yikes! I prefer not to consider that possibility.

I suppose it could be the vibrations in a different form. I cant come up with any good reason why they wouldnt change.

I do a lot of work with energy though and this really felt like "someone" else's energy. Cant explain why.

Hmm..in writing this I've just had a thought. For a while now I've been wanting my guide to show itself to me. It's been helping me, but invisibly so to speak. I was going to mention that the energy felt so strong I thought it was right on, if not pushing, the border of how much I could safely experience.

That thought reminded me of Munroe talking about when he finally got to see his helper. I think it was the light coming from it that he spoke of as being almost too much to handle.

Maybe in my case I was feeling, rather than seeing, the energy and my guide was just giving me a glimpse of a fraction of it's full energy to let me know that I wouldnt be able to handle seeing it in full yet. I think that's the explanation I'm going to go with for now.