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In short you need to stop doing the thing you feel guilt about and then process the guilt.

The fact that you feel shame and guilt suggests that deep down you dont really want to be doing this stuff. So the desire to is just coming from your mind associating it with the physical pleasure of getting off on it. The longer you go without doing these things the less you'll be tempted to because your mind wont have the pleasure to associate with them it will only have the unpleasant sensation of shame.

Once the association with pleasure is gone(it will probably take a while) you can work on developing compassion. You do this by meditating on suffering. Put yourself in a medatative state and bring to mind suffering of others. Pick something that you cant help but empathise with and that makes you feel their pain. Hold this feeling of compassion for as long as you can. If you start to lose it, bring back to mind the thought of suffering.

Eventually you're going to want to medatate on the things you've done. Feel the guilt and feel the shame. Wallow in them for a bit. These are strong emotions that you've probably been repressing a bit. To proccess them you need to fully experience them.

Meditate on why you started doing these things. To disassociate yourself from your actions you need to understand what led you to them, that it's not just because you're a bad person.

Once you've stopped the behaviour, processed the emotions and understand how the behaviour came about in the first place you can let go of the old you and begin to mould your character into one you can proud of.

You might also want to do some things to atone for your misdeeds. Maybe volunteer at an animal rescue centre. It might have an effect on your subconscious.

I dont profess to be an expert in these thing or anything but it's how I've gone about dealing with guilt.

Hmmm... Maybe this is the bit that confuses me. I'm not sure when I'm actually "seeing" something in my mind's eye.

When you imagine what someone would look like naked, thats using your minds eye. The more you practice visualisation, the more it seems like you're actually "seeing" things.

Do I have to do the cross-eye thing? Because I can't seem to get them to rest that way. 

Anything that keeps your attention on the brow centre area for a period of time should do it. I think thats why Hindus wear that dot on their foreheads. Try imagining the feeling of a dry paintbrush against your skin drawing circles that go from between your eyebrows to half way up your forehread. If it goes well you should start to feel unmistakable energy sensations.

I skimmed a book on it once. Tried some of the things is spoke of. Thought it was nonsense. Doesnt mean it is. Might just have been a bad book.

Man, I was just playing with the cat and it's ball disapeared under the couch. It's late so I couldnt be bothered lifting it up to get it out. Less than a minute later the ball came rolling out into the middle of the room towards the cat...

Do you reckon if you used the frequencies for opening higher chakra's on an animal it might help them along at all in their evolution of cosciousness?

I'm generally dead against experimenting on animals but I cant decide whether this would be cruel or not. Anyone know if the hemi-sync tones have been tested on animals to see if they go into focus 10 or not?

Ten years or so ago I looked out my window and saw stars flashing different colours. I asked my mate if he could see it too and he said yes. I got my binoculars out and even in close up they were flashing different colours. I came to the conclusion it was because we'd been watching TV for ages; the colours we were seeing were the same colours that a TV picture is made up from. I thought it must have done something to our eyes.

It's funny to see this thread just now because I saw flashing coloured stars again a few weeks ago for the first time since all those years ago. I hadnt been watching TV this time so it's nice to find out what's really going on.

I went round to the shop for my mum tonight. When I got back and came out of the stairwell my mum was already standing with the door ajar and a freaked out look on her face. Apparently, just  moments before I got there, there were four slow, loud knocks on the door. If a person had knocked they couldnt have gotten away without being heard; both the elevator and the door to the stairwell make a loud noise.

Why would a ghost knock the front door? Could it not get in unless the door was opened for it?

I'm pretty freaked out now. Some nights when I stay here I get creeped out a bit thinking I can feel a prescence in the room where I sleep but I've always just passed that off as my innate fear of mirrors in silent rooms(weird I know).

To make matters worse she's now just told me about the time her bedroom door opened by itself(it cant move by accident, theres a very thick carpet under it).

I had a terrifying experience as a kid once when spending the night in a haunted room so I get pretty freaked out when there are signs of ghosts.

To get over my fear I'm considering trying to make contact it with it.  Any tips on how I could go about it? I've projected to the RTZ from here and never seen anything. Do earth-bound ghosts reside in some specific focus level? Any techniques for getting there?

I suppose working on your brow chakra might help. Its the only thing I can think of other than practice.

The Wheel Of Time series has, among other cool concepts, dreamwalkers and the world of dreams. I didnt know it when I got into the books but the author must have been into AP. The world of dreams(Tel'aran'rhiod) is basically the RTZ. The dreamwalkers can also drop out of dreams into the void or the starfield where each point of light is a different person's dream.

They're my favourite series of books and I dont usually like fantasy. I'd recomend them to anyone. The first book is more traditioal fantasy but after that are some of my favourite books ever. You need to read them in order though as it's one continuous story.


I've got a terrible memory for films but that one where robin williams goes to rescue his dead wife from her personal hell springs to mind. Cant remember if he's also dead or projecting though.

Whenever I've exited into to RTZ things have stayed pretty true to life until I get a few hundred metres from my body. I then encounter differences. Often the place will resemble how it may have done in the past or future. I always just assumed the RTZ was changable like that but I was reading a post a while ago that was saying that if it's different then it's not the RTZ.

I know I'm definately "exiting" my body as I remain fully conscious throughout and its a very different experience to the WILDs I've had. The transition between an accurate environment and different one seems seemless. Maybe i'm unwittingly phasing out of the RTZ and into a self created environment. Maybe I'm going into a different time. Maybe I am still in the RTZ but I'm just percieving it in a different way. I dont know.

All I can be sure of is that it's some sort of "out of body" experience. If you experience a shift in consciousness from physical to non physical it's an OBE. If you want to know where you are at all times I suppose you'd need to go down the hemi-sync route and learn to move between all the different focus levels. Even then, I dont think they cover the RTZ.

Whatever way you look at it I'd say you definately had an OBE. Maybe the bellhops are just the way you subconsciously see hotel workers.

Man that technique you came up with is pretty deep.

Congrats.

lol

I've been doing it a lot lately in my chakra meditations.

The book on kundalini yoga I've been working from says your brow chakra(ajna) is actually inside your head. It says the eybrow centre(bhrumadhya) is the kshetram of ajna, a sort of trigger point for the actual chakra itself.

If you can find the right spot(its small) and hold your attention on it you can feel it pulsing.

There's one in Lancashire in February.

You might want to check if you get a cd to take away with you included in the price. It wouldnt surprise me if they try and sell you a full price set of Gateway cds at the end of the course.

I like the sound of it. Will give it a go.

Old thread but the problem hasnt been fixed yet and has been annoying me for ages.

I just found out how to get around it without messing with my resolution.

In IE8 theres a button to the right of the address bar that looks like a torn piece of paper. It puts the browser into compatability mode. Fixes the problem.

Hmm. Feels nothing like the vibrations to me. Vibrations tend to go the length of my body back and forth. This was going through my body from above to below in a continual stream. Much higher freqency than the vibrations also.

Monroe's first book is the only one I havent read. The library doesnt have it. I've got a dodgy copy on this computer but I get so little PC time I never get around to reading books. I'll have to skim it for relevant bits now.

I was lying in bed last week listening to the ringing in my ears. I wasnt trying to project although I was intending to later that night. Wasnt even in a trance really, just relaxing before sleep.

Suddenly an intense beam/wave of energy started coming at me from above. My first reaction was that I was under attack. It was unlike anything I've experienced before. It felt like I was being pushed out phase with relality or something. It wasnt like the energy you draw on when you do enrgy work. It felt  like some beam out of star trek or like lying under a huge waterfall of some foreign energy.

If I had chosen to I could still have got up out of bed and stopped it but I decided to go with it and mentally said "you have my permission to do this". The energy kept going through me and it fet like I was coming apart. I remember thinking at one point that this could be the end of me and I might have made an awful mistake in letting it continue.

After a minute or two it stopped and I had astral sight and my arms were out of body. By this point I was assuming it was my guide that had done this but I still didnt get any respense when I asked to speak to them once I'd gotten away from my body.

I think the energy has done something to me. My block on flying above a certain hight has gone. And the next night I somehow managed to phase within 10 minutes without even being in a proper trance first. It was weird, the trance came after I had phased. I was suddenly going along in the sea beside a submarine and when it submerged so did I.

As we quiclky sunk I became partially aware of my body again which was dropping into a deeper and deeper trance with our descent.

I had never been able to get into water in a projection before, there always seemed to be some kind of barrier around the sea.

All this in just two nights is quite exciting for me.

Your mention of it making you giggle and arch your spine makes me think it could be the same thing as I experience when I force energy up the middle of my spine. Not just up the back but the actual inside of my spine.

I would describe it as like being tickled but from inside. I get the tickley feeling in pretty much my whole body. For some reason it always makes me think of when I used to scratch a particular spot on my dogs side and his little legs would start going like he was sratching himself.

I reckon it's just the nerves in my spine being stimulated by the energy.

As for energy sensations diminishing with time, that was my experience at first. But I've found that the more chakra/energy work I do, the more capacity my energy channels get. So sensations start to diminish for a little while but as I become able to move more energy around they get stronger again. I used to be like, "WOW I'm using loads of energy now!", only to discover a month later that I could use even more. I now reckon the potention for channeling energy is pretty much limitless and I'm cusrrently only able to use what is comparitively a very small amount.

Wow, I had no idea they could do that.

You're not really missing much, trust me.

Drugs seem exciting at first just because they're so different from the natural state of consciousness that we're used to but they get old really fast and you realise they're just draining the life out of you and arent actually enjoyable at all. But by that time you're stuck with them for at least a while, maybe a long while or maybe forever.

Another big change in outlook is that God now seems alot farther away than he used to.

Interesting point... I think. What exactly do you mean?

I used to think that when I died, all or at least alot would be revealed. That I'd somehow be more aware of God. I know AP isnt the same as being dead but the proccess hasnt shed any light on the subject of God and I think I'm now starting to get an idea of just how long the path back to the absolute must be.

I still firmly believe in God, I cant say my views on "him" have changed because I never had a preconcieved idea of what "he" was other than the source of everything. But I dont speak/pray to God any more and I used to.

I still really want to know God but I'm starting to think it's going to take a very very long time.

It's given me direction.

I never used to know what I should be doing with myself. The material life of attachment and sense gratification always felt empty but the religious practices that I knew of didnt appeal to me. So I did very little with myself.

AP inspired me to look for other practices I didnt previously know about. Now I have a worthwhile persuit, the unfoldment of consciousness. I have plenty to do with my time now.

Another big change in outlook is that God now seems alot farther away than he used to.

Couldnt listen to any more than half of it. The background noise was freaking me out; dogs barking, cows mooing, children chanting, african tribal music and all the while him going on in that freaky intense voice like he's trying to brainwash me.

It seems relevant to mention that it was acid and weed that made me this easily freaked out.

I totally get where you're coming from with the family thing. Thats why I dont ever want kinds or strong attachments.

So last night I thought I'd try the practice I mentioned for the first time. I meditated for a bit then lay in bed holding my awareness at the upper back of my head and concentrated on the ringing.

After a while it intensified and later started to kind of pulse in my head. Fairly mild but a definate pulsation which is something I've never experience with the ringing before . I started trying to hear if there was anything more subtle underneath the noise but nothing came to me.

After a while I suddenly heard a very real crackling noise that sound like it was just outside my ear. Like it was coming from my ear lobe or something. Nothing for a while and then I hard it again. I also got a strange sensation just to the side of my right pec. So I shifted my awareness there as the book said to do that if you feel anything. After a few moments of doing that the crackling started up by both ears and kept going. The noise was kind of like space dust or popping candy or whatever you call it.

I just sat listening to that for a while examining my state of conssciousness.

The book called the practice yoni mudra btw although that term brings up a few different things in google.