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Ah well. It seems like this act of balancing will be 'hitting' soon. I'm not so scared of it, rather I see at as an awakening.

Let me just ask, of those who are concerned with this issue - imagine how things would be in 10, 15, 20 years, without such a great act of balancing.

The fun is yet to come []

I think that unfortunately, humanity has manifested what I can describe as almost being a 'plastic wrapping' around it's consciousness. Imagine throwing small pebbles at it - this signifys an awakening - but the little pebbles just bounce off, until something big enough comes along to punch a hole through it.

Rejoice, for the moment is almost at hand [] and God will be soon coming to a town near you (and boy, won't it be spe-tacular).

Hmmm. Playboy bunnies. YUM.

Nah, I thought I'd just be as open-ended as possible, because I'm talking about events of quite quite big energetic proportions. So, lets just say... how soon 'til the energetic changes that have been  building up for quite a long time, hit, basically?

I'm talking about the waves of energy soon to come. Any idea on the timeframe? I think it's .. oh, just around the corner... peek-a-boo!

So what do you guys think? How soon?

Hmm. Plot thickens.

http://www.cassiopaea.org/signs/signs.htm

Seems that 'Aussie Bloke' could well be full of sh*t. Seems that he is not Grant Gartrell as claimed. Man. This is tinkling me off. I just wish I could get some straight answers without all this BS flying around.

Something is going to happen soon though. I've got a strong feeling it will be this month.

[Therefore shall her plagues come in one day]

Whoa, wicked pic man! []

Lemme pull this out:

Revelations 18:

1 And after these things I saw another angel come down from heaven, having great power; and the earth was lightened with his glory.
2 And he cried mightily with a strong voice, saying, Babylon the great is fallen, is fallen
...
7 How much she hath glorified herself, and lived deliciously, so much torment and sorrow give her: for she saith in her heart, I sit a queen, and am no widow, and shall see no sorrow.
8 Therefore shall her plagues come in one day, death, and mourning, and famine; and she shall be utterly burned with fire: for strong is the Lord God who judgeth her.

I pulled this from one of Oazaki's many posts. It doesn't prove anything really, but I think it basically suggests it's going to be VERY quick. Quite sudden. And this is based on my own view, my own conclusions. Primarily, it is based on a dream I had, and the way I feel about what is to come. And it makes sense for it to be sudden, too (at least to me).

Anyway, I don't think anyone on this forum is going anytime soon. I bet we're here for the afterwards [] ... but ultimately... we just have to see eh? I have definitely not set anything down in stone yet, but to be honest... this is the strongest connection I've felt to any of the suggested 'end of days' scenario, for lack of a better term. Transition is probably much better []

But yeah... I've got a feeling it's going to be reallll quick, when it does happen. And I think it's going to happen sooner than most expect... but only God knows!

Well Blackbox, I found your posts quite enjoyable. It's not so much the specifics, but rather the viewpoint, the perspective, that I find so noroushing. I wish more people would speak CONSCIOUSLY from their perspective and be open about it, rather then try to be correct or find the 'truest' viewpoint. I can tell that you've taken these thoughts inside yourself, and come up with your own perspective. So, I actually consider your thoughts quite original in this regard.

I mean, I've read things before along similar lines, but your presentation, perspective is unique, and what makes it so fresh.

You're certainly passionate PuffAddr. This is good, because passion comes from the heart, and will overcome barriers set forth by the ego and the mind. []

Interesting how NASA muzzled it's staff. [:O]

This gets more compelling each day...

It's funny looking back and seeing signs that you haven't previously recognised in your dreams, but now you can because of new thoughts you've been having, eh?

I had a very similar thing with one of my dreams - it was a dream that I saw as telling me that what was to come, would happen very quickly, and with very little warning. And that the danger would go from nothing, to tremendous in very little time. And now, after reading all this stuff recently about comets, I've realised that the symbolism has been WAY too similar for it to be meaningless.

On another note (I've been trying to find as many sources as I can for this, to eliminate the chance of it actually being a hoax, but I've got a feeling it's not...), have a look at this link:

http://www.safehaven.com/article-1597.htm

It's just a financial site, not a new-age one or whatever... but it says:

quote:
Let me just say from the outset that the Federal Reserve has confirmed our Stock Market Crash forecast by raising the Money Supply (M-3) by crisis proportions, up another 46.8 billion this past week. What awful calamity do they see? Something is up. This is unprecedented, unheard-of pre-catastrophe M-3 expansion. M-3 is up an amount that we've never seen before without a crisis - $155 billion over the past 4 weeks, a $2.0 trillion annualized pace, a 22.2 percent annualized rate of growth!!! There must be a crisis of historic proportions coming, and the Federal Reserve Bank of the United States is making sure that there is enough liquidity in place to protect our nation's fragile financial system. The amazing thing is, the Fed's actions mean they know what is about to happen. They are aware of a terrible, horrific imminent event. What could it be?

Go to the site and read it for yourself, but I mean... um... pieces of the puzzle falling into place or what?!? [?]

Edit: And another site... don't know how long this will be valid for, but check it out anyway. About half the page pertains to this.

http://www.urbansurvival.com/week.htm

Edit 2: 'nother site!

http://www.surfingtheapocalypse.net/cgi-bin/forum.cgi?read=3558

So.. anyone got anything more on this? Anyone had any dreams about this at all? Or visions, thoughts, premonitions, etc?

Oh, and Bobll - what is Aussie Bloke's homepage URL?

quote:Originally posted by BlackBox

Well this is the thing.

The world as it is NOW, has a way of showing objective-observers which way truly is the path of truth, and which is filled with crumbs of truth engulfed with propaganda and lies, for the purpose of control via distraction. Imagine a fire which represents truth and massive logs that are put ontop of it, sufficating the fire in order to produce MAXIMUM levels of smoke. The smoke symbolizes our media including politics and mostly the entertainment industry. In short, smoke = distraction. The word that serves it best is the german-word, "kitsch". An example of kitsch in the 20th century would be millions of reproductions of brilliant pieces of art, like the Mona Lisa. This is to allow every average person to be able to have a great piece of art in their home, so that they feel THEY are in CONTROL, whereas it is just a form of distraction through the art of diverting the ego, which is our most blinding characteristic.

So...if you look at everything that is promoted such as monotheistic religions, CNN, tycoon celebrities, much of it is just a form of control through subtle or blunt approaches.

The sad thing about this is in a world such like this, the only forces that stand up to it are basically metaphysical, 'new-age', or validated channels like the Cassiopaeans, Ra, Q'uo, and Pleidians. They are heavily discredited, and there's the key word, "discredit". So in a world such like this, what is discredited by the majority, should be heavily focused on by the objective-observer. Why is it discredited? What are they saying about it? Are they attacking the source, the material, or the people bringing it up? (abusive ad hominem)

I'm not saying you look into channelings WITHOUT a skeptical mind, but that these specific ones are HEAVILY discredited, which to me is like the powers-that-be pointing a big red-flag for all those who want to know who's making actual progress with truth-seeking.

From all of my readings that I persistently cross and lateral reference with other materials and my intuition, this planet had an original purpose that is currently manipulated. Not just that, but the planet is in 'quarantine' from the majority of the outer-universe. This is why we are so harshly engulfed in 'reality'...where we don't believe in magic, we don't believe in dragons, we don't believe in the past. Myths are discredited as folk-tales, yet where is the root of the myth? History transitions into legend and legend transitions into myth in under 400 years (or so). That's all it takes for truth to be distorted into a fable.

And then there's 'disjecta membra' which basically means when a multi-dimensional catacylsm occurs:

1.) Macrocosmic cataclysm - Comets, etc.
2.) Microcosmic catacylsm - civil wars, world-wars, mass annihilation

Then the survivors are scattered for many years before they can even ATTEMPT to restructure what was destroyed. This would naturally take a huge turn in progression and after a few thousand years, society would have forgotten their past and labeled it 'myth'. T.V.'s would be called 'shining-light-projecters' and etc...things would be definately confusing for a child of the new millenia to ever be informed of what their past truly was.

So I believe there have been many many past civilizations. The cycle of winter (cataclysm) occurs with dawning a new spring (beginning of a new cycle).

In reference to channeled transcripts, the Atlanteans, 13,000 years ago, were on the earth with the Ramans and the Osirians (I guess the major nations equivalent to the U.S., Russia, britain, etc) in which the population was approximately 6-billion. That is the time when the multi-dimensional catacylsms ocured. The survivors of the Atlanteans created the pyramids (designed for weather-control), and the descendants (Egyptians) once again forgot everything factual and replaced it with what the powers-that-be felt comfortable spreading thinly to their children, until thousands of years later in the year 2004, the majority of the planet is consumed with so much distraction, so much kitsch, that IF a person came and told us the truth via mass-communication, he would be mauled, mocked, laughed at, and probably either discredited to a mental-asylum, executed, or he would vanish! If one day a guy comes and tell us the world is not flat, but round, what side would you pick if all you ever knew was just put into a trash-bin?

There's some of my thoughts...hehe []

Quite delicious.

Hmm, no don't cut yourself down BlackBox. Yours is the most interesting post I've read in this thread. Please, carry on. Share your views with us []

So tell me more about these guides of yours...

And what do you think of Nancy from zetatalk?

Kerrblur, I thought that you were quick to make some judgements about the people here. Me, like probably everyone else posting here, can feel that we are certainly only around the corner from some rather large events, and I am simply on a bit of a search to find what is coming. I really do not know anything about a 'demon' war... it's just that I can feel a great fight going on right now, and I wish to try and get the bottom of that feeling, and where I fit in to the picture.

On another note, I noticed your post about the asteroids, and I've been following that up... if this is true... and I've got a strong feeling it is.. *really* strong.. then we are in for a hell of a ride, eh?

Kerrblur, just curious, but how many of those judgements were leveled at me? I wish to know this before I can answer sufficiently.

So Kerblurr... who are your guides? What do they say? I'd like to hear more from you on this.

There isn't any predictions from them of any 'bad' stuff happening? You know, destruction and death and chaos, etc? Just curious...

These entities you say are wondering around in human form - care to elaborate more? That's very interesting...

Well, seems like i caused a litle stir. Good!

"The Hindu trinity of Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva symbolize the forces of Creation, Sustenance and Destruction. We see these forces at play in our every day life. There is birth (Janam), life (Jivan) and death (Mrityu). This applies to all forms of life. This phenomenon is always in motion and forever changing."

A quote taken from: http://www.indianest.com/hinduism/007.htm

That kind of sums up how I feel about the role the forces of destruction plays in this world. That it is part and parcel of the universe, and necessary for our fulfillment. I'm sure in your spiritual journey you have needed to let go of parts of yourself that were no longer needed? That you had to shed parts of yourself? That parts of you had to die away, so new growth could come? Could we not term this destruction?

What is the point of ignoring destruction in our day to day lives? In our growth as a whole? Would this world be better off with those that some label the 'illuminati'? Or without?

Myself, it's not even so much the people. It's the consciouness, and the thought forms that are the real 'enemies' here. There are certain ways of thinking that need to be destroyed. And I champion their destruction, because I think they have outlived their usefulness.

Best to start finding where destruction fits in with your being... accept or deny it, it is a part of our being we need to face one day.

Ah goody. Someone else who can see past the bullsh*t too.

Yes, I'm looking forward to these coming events, Founder. To be honest... it seems like my life is really just about preparing for what is to come. I sometimes envy those around me who can just live a 'normal' life! They seem to be a lot happier you know, not f***ing being challenged all the time, being pushed to let go of stuff, and grow stronger. And ... it's not even like I can get to a point and take a break. I get challenged, move on, and then yup! It happens again.

My life really, is about reconnecting with my spirit on a day to day basis. It's like I can't bother with things that just don't mean anything to my spirit... you know? And my energy at the moment is all about letting those things go.

But to be honest, I'm keen to do some butt-kicking mate. I don't know WHY all these new-agers seem to dislike destruction so much - I mean, COME ON, these guys (one label is the illuminati) are going to be wiped off the face of the earth, one way or another. And I'm very happy about this. This destruction has been a long time coming, and I'm going to be very happy about the space it will leave for our growth and fulfillment. Much joy to be had!

Got any idea as the timeline for the events? Like a specific year? My spirit itches [}:)]

Edit - By the way, I saw on your forum that you mentioned something about the messiah. There's a chap called Oazaki who hasn't posted around here in a while (he should be back in mid-july), but he believes that he is the coming messiah. If you read the 'The year 2004: Prediction' thread, it should explain it all... pretty long but. I certainly think there is more substance to Oazaki's words than many people seem to think.

Bah, I wouldn't trust ZetaTalk. I think they're full of sh*t.
I've inquired a little bit into who runs the site (because I got a little suspicious of some the stuff posted) and it seems that some crazy old lady runs the site, and from IRC sessions I've read, I think she's got a little bit of an ego inflation problem.

Adam

I think what is happening is a deep cleansing of the earth. About six-nine months ago, I was asking a lot of question of myself about the future, the New World Order, terrorism, etc. and I had two dreams that answered some of my questions (well, my personal relation to these issues).

The first was, I was standing on a balcony - and I was looking down on the earth. It was a deep red, and I could not see the continents. There was this incredibly deep and powerful feeling that was present, like a very deep feeling of anger, but impersonal. Now, this was the earth, but it I was also like I was looking down on myself.

Then my vision 'zoomed' into one part of the earth (which was myself as well) and I could see an oil rig being destroyed - there were explosions ripping through it, and people lost their lives, but that didn't seem to be important. It was like a parasite was being eradicated (which was happening to me as well).

This dream communicated to me that the earth is being cleansed on a very deep level at the moment, and I feel that I am very strongly affected by this cleansing (obviously, because I'm being cleansed as well). I feel that in my life, I am undergoing a transformation, but I cannot put my finger on it - it's happening to every part of my being.

The second dream, I think, communicated to me a warning - that danger will enter my life when I don't expect it - the only warning will be a feeling of, 'ohh... that doesn't look too good..'.  Like the first dream, it was very symbolic, there wasn't that vividness that a lot people here talk about in their visions.

I think a lot of crazy things will come to pass in the next 10 years, but this conflict in the world at the moment must deepen before we progress. I personally see terrorists as a blessing - because I think they will destroy parts of this world that need to be destroyed, otherwise the path we go down would be into complete darkness, fear and control.

My view of technology is that it doesn't matter what level of technology we have access to, but rather the spitirual advancement of the people whom have access to it.

Adam

Well, what are your feelings towards her? Your post seems very dry, very lacking in emotion. I am wondering, are there feelings you have towards her, maybe you do not want to feel?

I haven't really been in any relationships of this nature before, so I don't think I can be of much help with that side of it. But - I don't think anyone here will or can give you the answer. It's inside yourself; we are only here for you to 'bounce' things off us and vicea versa. Even if someone DID write the answer down, if you weren't willing to see it, it wouldn't matter

It sounds as if there is a deep connection between the two of you. I think it is important to keep that in mind. What are your feelings? How do you feel about her, about the past mistakes, about the relationship? Ask yourself how you really feel about things, explore - it's about getting to know yourself a bit better

Adam

Oh BTW, I thought I might just attach some links to some reading material []. It took me a while to find these (probably more so that I wasn't ready to take it in).

These are a little bit old, but still very informative, imo.

http://www.apfn.org/apfn/phil.htm

http://www.think-aboutit.com/dulce.htm

http://www.totse.com/en/fringe/flying_saucers_from_andromeda/ucdulce.html

The think-about-it.com site is quite worth exploring. It's got many interesting articles.

I don't know if *any* of this is true...so make your own mind up I personally think that there is more truth here than meets the eye.

Adam

[know]

Hey y'all

Glad you took the time to read my post What Tha Phak....no-one else seemed to notice it :/

It seems this topic has kinda gotten, well, off-topic. I think we need to refocus [}:)]

Well...to answer your question, no, I don't conciously AP. I got drawn to it heavily about 2 years ago (I guess thats when my spiritual awareness started expanding), but I never got anywhere with it. I get the strong feeling that thats not the right path for me. As much as I would like to be conciously exploring other realms of existence, I'm being 'held' in this realm. -- I think that this is basically because I've got a lot to do here, in the physical realm, especially with this coming of a New Age. I'm not totally sure what my purpose will be - all I know is that I've got an important part to play. I feel like that this is why I have come here. To assist and be a part of this transition.

I think that AP is probably a distraction for me at this time, because the realm that I need to focus on the most, is the one right here, in front of me. So it would probably serve to detract from my work here - because I know I am here on the Earth to do some serious work. I've felt for a while that I want to leave my mark on history, to acheive something big. lol  I try not to take it too seriously tho [!]

Well anyway, to the question at hand. Basically, I think dark forces are at work behind the U.S. government. It is no longer a democracy, after the election of Bush. Al Gore should have won - but the Supreme Court insisted Bush won.  I don't actually think that this war is about oil. I think it is about creating more fear in the world. Spreading the fear of terrorism, and war, because these forces control by fear.

I believe that the Iraq war will take a turn that no-one (at least, the mass concioussness) expects. I think the Middle East will explode in anger, and a great energy of destruction will move through our world. In fact, this energy of destruction has already begun it's work.

I think that is war is necessary. Not that I like it or it's consequences. But rather to begin the process of the destruction of the old world, so we can bring the new world into being, or birth if you like. Obviously there are some people who will not agree with me - I understand that. But this is what I believe. I think that it's something we need to get over and done with, the sooner the better.
There needs to be a great clearing out in this world. I think the grip on the mass concioussness that these dark forces have, need to be broken before it is too late. I think humanity needs to be plunged into darkness before it can come to the light. So, I'm sorta looking forward to the next 10 years...they're gonna be tough...but they'll be worth it.

On the other posts concerning Truth and all that. []
Everyone is an individual - every person has their own way of seeing things. I think that Truth is, well, brought to each person in a unique form. That the Truth comes in many shades of a vibrant colour.
I sometimes find it hard to express what I feel about this - but I feel just that basically everyone is equal, and that a person's viewpoint is just as equal as the next. It's up to each person to find out what resonates with them. And this is why I have searched and studied through these things, and the things I have taken are what have resonated inside me.

But anyway - lets try and stay on topic eh? []

Adam



PS. You don't need AP to find out the truth...(altho I'm sure it wouldn't hurt [])

PPS. David Icke is pretty good - he's got a website (www.davidicke.com) chock-a-block full of articles worth taking the time to read.

Gee..it's been a while since I've posted to these forums. I've been reading them on and off for a while tho...mainly the Prophecies one.

Anyway - I've have got SOOOOO many things that I want to say about this, and not just the war either, the US government, the state of the world, the future...I've been on this *huge* information gathering drive for like the past 2 years - I've had an almost unquenchable desire to read up on things with a conspiritorial edge to them.

Now, I don't know how anyone else here sees the US gvt., but I've been filled with a burning desire, to know the *truth* about what is happening behind the scenes, because when I see Bush on TV or one of his "colleagues", I get the *distinct* feeling that I'm missing out on a biiiiig bit of the picture. That essentially, they are telling a very small, very *sterilised* version of the story.

[?]

I DONT TRUST POLITICIANS. Full stop. Next time one of them (good example is Bush) gives a press conference or speech, instead of listening to their actual words (you could even turn the volume down), listen to their ENERGY. What does their energy tell you? Do they speak from the heart, are they passionate, honest? Or is it ego-driven, hidden behind a wall of deception, that is well hidden - do they feign concern for the interests of the world, environment, peace, education....when really...they seem to be using it as a smoke-screen for hiding something? Not that you could tell, by listening to the words - REMEMBER - these are written by proffesionals.

So, I could see that, starting 2, 3 years back (I'm 20 atm). The sense that these guys had something to hide from me, from us, the public. So - I wanted to know - what exactly ARE these guys *hiding from us??* I wanted to KNOW. So, I started searching. Conspiracies were my main interest for a while, as well as the huge dominating force of companies and corporations hell bent on making profits and their connections and involvment with the US gvt., then channelings about the state of the world, then alien involvment and manipulation in/of our world, the supposed existence of deep underground bases that begun being constructed in the 50's by a group called MJ-12, the associations and deals made between 'Greys' (your typical alien) and the US gvt. in the 40's, the supposed existence of underground facilities-release-labratories jointly shared between these 'Greys' and elements of the US gvt.......I could go on and on and on...

Lemme stop here for a tic. It's kinda hard to keep my focus here, there is so much info stored away in this lil brain of mine it can be hard to pull out into a form that someone else can understand.

I've got somes sites I'll list at the end of this post, if you want to indulge in some further reading (highly suggested, as I'm very muddled-headed atm).
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Anyway - as you can see so far, there seems to be a lot of focus on the US - why?. I've tried to answer this question, and quite frankly, I believe that the US is a very very important area of focus right now. Our future path is strongly determined by the path the people (or the gvt) chooses to take. It's a very powerful place, with shifts in conciousness there affecting the rest of the globe, more than almost anywhere else. It's almost like theres a spotlight shining down on the entire US, waiting, watching.

It's amazing really, when you consider that this country has risen out of the ground over just the last 200 years. It has sprung up as the dominant world superpower. It's been called the land of liberty, the land of free speech and endless possibilities. It's got the Constitution. The systems of Democracy and Capitalism have fused to form one of THE most successful countries in the world. But it seems that the corporations have taken over. Big Government is really just Big Business these days.  --Did you know that the US accounts for half of the WORLD'S total of military budget spending? That's right - More than North Korea, China, Russia, Israel, Iran...and of course, Iraq, put together.

The Cabinet positions seems to be held by people from military, defence, and corporate backgrounds only, these days. Go read up on the history of people like Donald Rumsfeld, Colin Powell, Condoleezza Rice...you'll find the same thread throughout - EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN A POSITION OF POWER HAS BEEN HEAVILY INVOLVED IN BIG BUSINESS. I bet you already knew willy Cheney was a former oil company CEO in the 90's right? That Condoleezza Rice had an oil takner named after her?
(I suggest the excellent book, "Stupid White Men" by Michael Moore.)

Hey people! WAKE UP! The US government has been taken over HOOK, LINE and SINKER, and no-one seems to care....or even notice! The people giving those speeches of stirring appeals to the heart of the nation, aren't really interested in the heart of the nation. Pah! They would SELL it if could make a profit.

Why do people working with defence contractors...in big corporations....sitting on the boards of the largest companies in the world...seem to rotate in and out of government positions?? Do you really think that the war in Iraq is about "Pre-emtive strikes"? About securing peace? Weapons of Mass Destruction? Regime change? Saddam?

I don't. I don't know if oil has anything to do with it - but hey! Iraq has the second largest oil reserves in the WORLD, and it seems that the US will be the ones setting up this new democracy in Iraq, which means, they'll decide how the oil will be handled. Hmmm...
They have also offered lucrative contracts to companies willing to help in the restoration of Iraq after the war...including of course, it's oilfields!

Wow! These people, with huge corporate, defence and military backgrounds, have now, seen the light. It's time to bestow peace and prosperity on the world, starting with the Iraqi people. Well, we'll nab this guy, because he's OBVIOUSLY helping terrorists (even though they haven't proved any links between Al Qaeda and Saddam's regime) and has mass caches of Weapons of Mass Destruction (even though the US simply hasn't brought out it's smoking gun - which they claimed they had, of course! they just um, didn't want to...well....next quesiton!).

Yet they are bosom buddies with the Saudis - who, just coincidentally have the largest oil reserves in the world. Oh, and um, they have PROVEN and CONSISTENT links with the Al-Qaeda terrorist network? That when traced, it seems that well, you know, umm...well, most of Al-Qaeda's funding came from the Saudi royal family? But hey! The Saudi's are our FRIENDS! They harbour AND fund terrorists but, I mean, hey, people make mistakes, and well, I'm sure they didn't really mean it.

Did you know that Saddam got the building blocks for his biological weapons programs in the 80's from - GUESS WHO? THE ONE AND ONLY, US GOVERNMENT! In fact one of the people that met Saddam in that time, was good ole' Donald "Rummy" Rumseld. The man with the illustrious defence background. Yep. That's right folks. Saddam would NOT have the capabilities for his Bio programs, if it wasn't for the kind folks in the US government. Of course, Rumsfeld seems to have forgotten this, when he was questioned by the senate recently. Doesn't recall any deals made. Or even that he met Saddam. No wait, he was on video meeting him, so he MUST'VE met him. But that's it, of course...

Bah.

Nothing there of course. I mean, these are all people who want the best for the world. They don't care too much for profits, as long as the people are happy. And peaceful! That's right.
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Well I must end this little tirade here. As you can all see I'm rather passionate and cynical about this. I'm actually pretty pleased with what I've written. I'm suprised, considering the deep haze of confusion I've been living with for a while. *phew* It feels good to get a little bit off my chest. but hey! I could go on.

If people could reply to this, with their thoughts, emotions, feelings, insights, disagreements, whateva! Go for it - I would LOVE to hear people's response to my thoughts (rather my giant truckload of them) on this issue (or issues ).

I'll wait and see the response actually, before I post anymore links for further reading.

So yeah, to recap, I would LOVE hear some replies. I'm sure this will stir up some (if not a lot of) people. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

Adam

PS. The "rabbit hole" does indeed go much deeper than this. But I didn't want to let it all out at once...

I don't put much faith into all this talk about negs. I had problems with a 'neg' recently - I'm seeing the truth behind it now. I thought I had a neg attached to the back of my head....and several other places....draining my energy, waking up feeling depleted as hell.....violent images....you name it.

The whole neg thing was my way of dealing with a part of myself I was afraid of. My energy was going into repressing parts of myself, and that's why I was drained. Now, I'm allowing those parts of myself to surface. The hard part is having the courage to deal with the fear.

See, if your wife does have these problems, she needs to ask herself why she would do this. It's not someone - something - making her do this to herself....it's HER. Maybe, she's externalized these feelings, so she doesn't have to take responsibility for her actions. That's what I was doing, pushing the responsibility away, pretending, but it was there anyway, just out of my control.

The first step is to take responsibility - say "I choose to do this to myself." Because that's what is happening. It's her choice, maybe it was a concious choice, maybe not, maybe she fooled herself  into thinking it wasn't (like me).

Then, go into the feelings that this 'neg' brings up. There'll be fear, most likely fear about letting 'it' have 'control' over you, which is a way of masking the fear. Really, the fear is just fear.

Instead of letting yourself be seduced by the crap your ego spouts, "It's not me, it's this thing....", choose your choices.  CHOOSE to act on these feelings, instead of letting your ego seduce you.
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The most important part, is taking responsibility. With the negs......it's actually the person, not the neg. The neg is simply a part of the learning. A reflection, if you like. It's easy. Just let go!

Adam