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hmm I had thought about it maybe being a kundalini-thingie, but I doubt it.

I dunno it feels like becoming some kind of human vibrator there for a second  - it's a shame we can't really compare each other's experiences, because it's such a subjective feeling.

well, I'm gonna keep experimenting!

see ya

Stefan

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and when the day arrives
i'll become the sky
and i'll become the sea

and the sea will come to kiss me
for i am going
home

nothing can stop me now

this is even more comprehensive!

http://www.new-mind.com/Monroe_Institute_Gateway_Experience-Series/hemi_sync_gateway_experience_voy.htm

click on the waves to receive some good information on it!
aggh me want!!! one more month, then gogogogo!!!

by the way, anybody ever try "opening the heart", "becoming a lifelong learner" or "lucid dreaming"? well, it doesn't matte because I'M getting them tomorrow muahhhahaha!!

auf wiedersehen!

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and when the day arrives
i'll become the sky
and i'll become the sea

and the sea will come to kiss me
for i am going
home

nothing can stop me now

well I did go back to sleep ... whoa that was freaky
thinking about it now, the experience just hammered into me how afraid I am of myself! I mean, nothing bad actually happened ....
you know, you can pray to all the angels, archangels, devas and muses for support, but they still won't be able to protect you from yourself! You can be huge and muscular,  but nothing but yourself is going to save you from your own thoughts!
just goes to show that I'll have to work on that a little more ...
bless you people http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/images/icon_Smile_big.gif" border=0>

stefan

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all i've undergone
i will keep on

underneath it all
we feel so small
the heavens fall
but still we crawl

all i've undergone
i will keep on

BUMP!

and when the day arrives
i'll become the sky
and i'll become the sea

and the sea will come to kiss me
for i am going
home

nothing can stop me now

oh oh !!!
hey I hope Robert still gets my message!
when will your other books be out? I'd be very interested in reading yout more comprehensive guide on N.E.W. and about the master circuit and so on!
any dates?

and when the day arrives
i'll become the sky
and i'll become the sea

and the sea will come to kiss me
for i am going
home

nothing can stop me now

Fenris,

maybe you are the werewolf!

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and when the day arrives
i'll become the sky
and i'll become the sea

and the sea will come to kiss me
for i am going
home

nothing can stop me now

Oh yeah I forgot to mention this .. maybe it helps:

- my thoughts are not suicidal (thank god)

- I have had only 1 nightmare in the last couple of months, and my dreams are on average pretty .. average (not too good, not too bad).

- NO I DO NOT watch buffy or charmed!!

- to clear things up, it's not just the past couple of days ... I've just noticed then, it's been like that for years (maybe I'm just a pessimist?)

- another example: when I got interested in astral projection and lucid dreams (haven't had either one yet ) the first time I felt something REMOTELY like vibrations I got all excited and thought about the worst kinds of auditory hallicunations I could make out and the biggest, baddest, meanest, blackest monsters that would lie in wait for me on the "other side"!! Talk about negative conditioning!
Also just a couple of days ago I spent the whole day relity-checking in earnest and I awoke that night from the lights of a car passing by (I live in the country and there's maybe 3 car lights per night coming by) and I thought "damn, maybe this is a lucid dream!" and I got seriously afraid, and after reality-checking and making sure it wasn't a dream, I peacefully went back to sleep.

- phew ... maybe I can give you more

- maybe it's just normal, I mean fear of the unexpected or something, but hey, please give me your comments! thanks!




and when the day arrives
i'll become the sky
and i'll become the sea

and the sea will come to kiss me
for i am going
home

nothing can stop me now

Aah .. thanks for the link

that's interesting ... what I came up with from the link is that it might be my subconscious mind noticing that I am going into sleep paralysis and sort of fight against it ...
cool ...
thanks



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and when the day arrives
i'll become the sky
and i'll become the sea

and the sea will come to kiss me
for i am going
home

nothing can stop me now