OMG! I can't believe what has happned! I've finally left!!
There is no word to explain how happy I am! Ok, first, let me explain what has happened. Well, the last time I tried to project, or even do any energy raising was more then a month or two ago. I completely forgot about it because of school and cross-country, and it was the last thing on my mind. Well last night (10-14-02, never gonna forget the date!), I brushed my teeth, did all that good stuff, got in my boxers, and laid in my bed. All I wanted to do was go to sleep because I had a tough day of running and lifting weights, and I was so unbearibly tired and sore. Then, I was lying on my side for about 10 minutes, and I was thinking about things, trying to have a dream and fall asleep like I normally do. Here's how my dream went...
I don't know where I was, in some business of some sort, and there was an older woman over the counter (mid 30's). Well, considering I'm a teen, 15 years old, I'm easily arroused, so something happened, and she was touching me (like I said, I'm a teen, damn you hormones!). The wierd thing was that I was more then half awake, yet I could feel her touch from my shoulder down to my knee, and every where it went, it got all tingly (I didn't know it then, but I now realize that was my point of awareness moving and stimulating my chakras throughout my body), and all of a sudden my mind went completely blank. Soon my body was tingling all over like it did after my old medidation sessions, but I thought nothing of it. Soon everything was moving fast, WAY to fast for me, I was scared out of my wits, I was confused and frightened, but I knew what was happening, I realized it then. The first thing I did was calm my breathing as slow as I could and just let what was gonna happen happen. This loud noise accompanied the vibrations and it got so fast and loud that it finally ended with a bang, like a semi truck horn on your freaken face. All that was left was a ringing in my head, then silence, dead silence, it was so quite it scared me. I felt extremely wierd, and I couldn't see a thing. I felt like I wasn't on my bed anymore, because nothing was under me, and I was getting flashes of blurry vision ahead of me. I realized I was near the foot of my bed about waist height and crooked. I was here for what seemed about 2 min or less, and I kept trying to move, but I moved forward a bit, but it was like no friction, and I moved after I stopped trying too. This had to be the scariest thing that has ever happened to me, so I forced myself back, and I was back in my body, I knew it, because I could feel the bed again, when the vibrations started again, and just before it popped again, I forced my eyes open, and got up. My face had tears down it, and I knew I was crying for how scared I had been. I got up wrote EVERYTHING that happened down, and was afraid to go back to sleep, so I sat and thought about it the rest of the night. I know I shouldn't be afraid, but I was, and I won't be next time. And thanks to everyone here at Astral Pulse, I've been following everything you've all been posting, and it's helped a lot. I never thought I'd get here.
It was so incredible! I'm trying again in a few days with my AP buddy!
(Sorry this was so long, I got so excited just talking about it, I just went on and on).
"Kill what you'd die for, and truley become yourself." (Lose all greed and desire, and learn true unity and enlightenment.)
There is no word to explain how happy I am! Ok, first, let me explain what has happened. Well, the last time I tried to project, or even do any energy raising was more then a month or two ago. I completely forgot about it because of school and cross-country, and it was the last thing on my mind. Well last night (10-14-02, never gonna forget the date!), I brushed my teeth, did all that good stuff, got in my boxers, and laid in my bed. All I wanted to do was go to sleep because I had a tough day of running and lifting weights, and I was so unbearibly tired and sore. Then, I was lying on my side for about 10 minutes, and I was thinking about things, trying to have a dream and fall asleep like I normally do. Here's how my dream went...
I don't know where I was, in some business of some sort, and there was an older woman over the counter (mid 30's). Well, considering I'm a teen, 15 years old, I'm easily arroused, so something happened, and she was touching me (like I said, I'm a teen, damn you hormones!). The wierd thing was that I was more then half awake, yet I could feel her touch from my shoulder down to my knee, and every where it went, it got all tingly (I didn't know it then, but I now realize that was my point of awareness moving and stimulating my chakras throughout my body), and all of a sudden my mind went completely blank. Soon my body was tingling all over like it did after my old medidation sessions, but I thought nothing of it. Soon everything was moving fast, WAY to fast for me, I was scared out of my wits, I was confused and frightened, but I knew what was happening, I realized it then. The first thing I did was calm my breathing as slow as I could and just let what was gonna happen happen. This loud noise accompanied the vibrations and it got so fast and loud that it finally ended with a bang, like a semi truck horn on your freaken face. All that was left was a ringing in my head, then silence, dead silence, it was so quite it scared me. I felt extremely wierd, and I couldn't see a thing. I felt like I wasn't on my bed anymore, because nothing was under me, and I was getting flashes of blurry vision ahead of me. I realized I was near the foot of my bed about waist height and crooked. I was here for what seemed about 2 min or less, and I kept trying to move, but I moved forward a bit, but it was like no friction, and I moved after I stopped trying too. This had to be the scariest thing that has ever happened to me, so I forced myself back, and I was back in my body, I knew it, because I could feel the bed again, when the vibrations started again, and just before it popped again, I forced my eyes open, and got up. My face had tears down it, and I knew I was crying for how scared I had been. I got up wrote EVERYTHING that happened down, and was afraid to go back to sleep, so I sat and thought about it the rest of the night. I know I shouldn't be afraid, but I was, and I won't be next time. And thanks to everyone here at Astral Pulse, I've been following everything you've all been posting, and it's helped a lot. I never thought I'd get here.
It was so incredible! I'm trying again in a few days with my AP buddy!
(Sorry this was so long, I got so excited just talking about it, I just went on and on).
"Kill what you'd die for, and truley become yourself." (Lose all greed and desire, and learn true unity and enlightenment.)