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Maoli's Message

October 29, 2002

    Many of you have read my thoughts before on Maoli chan. I did not see her suffer during this ordeal and I wondered what the message might be. I feel she came to experience events of her choice, but hepatoblastoma was not one of them. I believe that in addition to the several pre-programmed exit points, there may be a bonus point established for children. Then again, she may have chosen a two-year time on Earth and opted not to take one of several other exit points that may have presented themselves along the way (i.e. initial hepatic surgery followed by pulmonary surgery x 2 and several intensive courses of chemotherapy). I have no idea of the actual situation at this point.

For me, I will distill the events of the past year as follows:

                       Inch Time Foot Gem

    A lord asked Takuan, a Zen teacher, to suggest how he might pass the time. He felt his days very long attending his office and sitting stiffly to receive the homage of others.
    Takuan wrote eight Chinese characters and gave them to the man:

   Not twice this day
   Inch time foot gem.

   This day will not come again.
   Each minute is worth a priceless gem.



Dr. T

This is Paul Tallett, from Hilo Hawaii

It has been  just over a week since being with you three.  Since returning home, from my month stay there in Japan, with Maoli, Koji and Eriko, my life has changed. The experience of being with you three, and seeing Maoli go on to heaven, will be something that I will never forget.  I thank you Koji and Eriko, for allowing me to spend this time with Maoli and you two. I admire the strength and courage you had, and  the care you gave to Maoli. To spend one year, day and night with her, always by her bedside, has shown me what real love is all about. Maoli could not of chosen better parents. I will play ukelele for her one day in heaven.

May God's peace be with you both.  My love to you , Paul

Re: Maoli    This is Evonne, who had the pleasure and the saddness, of being with Maoli, Koji and Eriko, the last five weeks of Maoli's life. I live in Hawaii, and have been friends with the family for several years.I would like to say, that Maoli brought joy to all of us, and even though her life was a short one, she was here for a purpose. My life will never be the same, having gone through the good days, and the bad days, of Maoli's life. She was a child that brought love and blessings, to anyone that was around her.We wanted a miracle, and for her to live, and as a Christian, we all prayed for that.There were several weeks, when I was there with her, that I thought we would have that miracle. Now I know, that miracle is that Maoli will live inside us forever, and that she is in heaven with God. I would like to add, that Koji and Eriko were the most devoted parents that I have ever seen, and never left the side of Maoli, that entire year, and were there with her, as she passed into heaven. I would like everyone to know, what wonderful and devoted parents they were, and how much I myself, learned from them, watching there faith and courage, as they lost there only child.However, she is not lost, she is in heaven, and they will see her one day again, well, happy and strong.Lets all learn a leason, to love each other, our family and friends, on this earth too. To Koji and Eriko, I thank you both for letting me share this past five weeks with you, for letting me take the photos of our precious Maoli, and for letting me be part of her last time on this earth.Those days and weeks, will stay forever in my heart. I loved Maoli, with all my heart and soul, and I love you both, dear Eriko and Koji. I pray that God will give you peace, knowing that Maoli is in a safe place now, where there is no pain or suffering. She will certainly become the favorite of God's angels, as she was one of the most precious souls on this earth. I love you Eriko and Koji,  Evonne

October 29, 2002

Yesterday's decrease in blood oxygen and chest x-ray results were signs of her lungs loosing remaing function.

I am sorry to say that Maoli chan peacefully left her physical body at 3 am EST today. The family is deeply appreciative of your concern and your devotion to her cause. She made a valiant effort to fight the rare disease of hepatoblastoma but succumbed to widespread intracranial metastasis.

In her memory, I would request that each of you take a moment to visit the new topic, "Maoli's Message." Your comments left here will be of great value to the family.
I will begin the topic with what I feel was delivered to me.

Again, many thanks to each of you.

Your involvement during the past six weeks has been a great comfort and in return, may your lives be peaceful and happy.

Please remember to post your comments in the new topic "Maoli's Message"

With head deeply bowed in respect for your time and energy,


Dr. T

October 28

My last report from Tokyo as I am leaving tomorrow. Koji will keep us posted. Today I saw a tremendous reduction in the edema about Maoli's face and neck. Her blood oxygen level had dropped and they were preparing to take a chest x-ray in order to track it down.
I must say that the nursing staff and the physicians have been first rate in taking care of little Maoli. Compared to my experience in American hospitals, I have reached the conclusion the care appears better in Japan. There is also much more respect and attention to the spiritual aspect of things. I think it would be good experience for more foreign doctors to see how things are done here. It took me some time to understand but with observation and time, I have reached the conclusion that things run smoothly here in the medical arena.

Maoli: Sure, even with the tremendous odds against her, she still has a chance. All of you know that quite well. Let's pray that things work out in the best possible manner for the higher selves of all involved with Maoli Kasai.

Aloha,



Dr. T

October 26

Aloha everyone,

Maoli continues to have a low platelet count, some abdominal ascites (fluid) but the interesting news is that the AFP level has dropped from the high value of 154,000 to a value of 9,000. One would hope this implies retardation and destruction of the intracranial tumors and that may be the case. Also, it may be possible that the tumors are showing no further growth. The key to her improving will be signs of spontaneous respiration.

I have only a few more first-hand reports to give as I will return to Hawaii on 10/29.

I hope your continued efforts are responsible for this decline in the tumor marker AFP.

Thank you!



Dr. T

October 25, 2002

Maoli?fs condition has not shown any improvement. She has edema of her trunk and extremities that has slowly increased in spite of adequate urine output. She remains respirator dependent and if we are to see a miracle, I would think it would first be with her showing signs of spontaneous respirations. The edematous condition is ascribed to lack of control due to the intracranial tumors and associated effects.
Let us hope that tomorrow brings a positive change in her water balance and neurological status.


Dr. T

October 23, 2002  
8:30 PM Tokyo

Sorry for the lack of updates but I have been away from Tokyo for three days. I have been in phone contact with Koji and Eriko and there is no change other than for the past two days her platelet count has been down and after repeated transfusions is starting to climb. She shows no signs of bleeding intracranially or elsewhere. Her physicians think it is related to some type of intracranial mechanism that is preventing bleeding. I have no clue. Maoli remains in coma but for all outward appearances she appears to be in a deep sleep with respirator assistance. Your healing efforts are greatly appreciated. We are all hoping for a positive outcome for Maoli. I will definitely keep you updated during the next week. I return to Hawaii on 10/29 and after that, I will post the info that Koji relays to me by email.

Usually, when platelets drop, the cause is bleeding and the consumption is in efforts to bring it to a halt. There appears to be no gastrointestinal, urinary, intrapulmonary or intra-abdominal bleeding and if there is significant intracranial bleeding, I would have expected her physical coma to deteriorate quickly. At this time, I cannot explain the platelet drop. A result of chemotherapy? Chinese medical therapy? Healing? We hope for the best.

Aloha,



Dr. T

October 21, 2002
Special Report

Today is Maoli?fs birthday marking one year exactly the date the tumor was discovered. The AFP level drawn this week returned. It shows a decrease when compared to previous constantly increasing levels. She has not been on the chemotherapy but has continued to receive your healing, Qi Gong and Chinese herbal medicine. Although she remains in a coma, let us hope this decline in AFP is indicative of some positive change in the intracranial lesions.

Please focus your best today, Maoli-chan?fs birthday!

Thank you,



Dr. T

October 19, 2002
Maoli?fs condition has changed very little. She spent most of the day seated in a chair, still peacefully comatose. A drop in her hemoglobin level required additional blood transfusion today. She is afebrile but the CRP (C-reactive protein) level is increased. At this point, it can only be ascribed to something going on intracranially. I remain amazed as her BP, although on the low side, has not shown the increase (along with pulse decrease) that would be expected with high intracranial pressure and brain herniation.
Could it be that all of the positive healing energy is allowing her to hold fast and allowing alternative medicine to work on the tumor problem? I hope so. Her birthday is on Monday; please direct as much healing energy as you can to her between now and then. I remain hopeful!




Dr. T

Blossom,

Your description of sensing the energy fields and subsequent distribution is interesting. It brings to mind the final words of the Stevie Wonder song ?gIf it7s Magic?h  (i.e. ?gThere?fs enough for everyone?h). I am glad you are doing what I tried to suggest be an appropriate manner in which to handle the incoming energy, which you have requested.

Now on a topic also close to you: Maoli?fs Birthday will be on Monday.

Enjoy the light, you deserve it Jennifer!


Dr. T

Blossom,
You give so much, please be able to receive. Your strength is also directly (and tightly) connected to Maoli chan. There is enough to go around so please don't worry. We can all get through this in the best possible way.
We need a shift to the parallel universe where Maoli, her family, you and the rest who have requested helaing, are healed. I firmly believe that this is possible. Maoli's message for you may be that in order to give, you need to be able to receive.
Be well, . . .


Dr. T

October 18

Update on Maoli:

What I had thought would be the end of posts turned out not to be the case. Maoli has remained in what I have termed a "peaceful coma." It is the first time I have used that term "peaceful" to describe a patient in a comatose condition. The pictues do not do justice to the actual situation. She is beautiful and utterly calm in repose. There have been a few signs of increased intracranial pressure such as the BP and pulse variations, but no drastic and sudden turns. The doctors, nurses and parents are professional and attentive as usual.Perhaps we have more time to work on a miracle than I had previously thought.

Can it be that Sapien's comments (see Ongoing pics. . .) will ring true?

"When doctors have done all they can, distance healing - by whatever means - has a clear field.

Also, coma can be nature's way of getting a strong unit of conscousness (jiva) temporarily out of the way so it, nature, can have an unobstructed crack at a cure."

This is why we all are involved, to see such an event take place, and your continued support to this end is greatly appreciated.

I will keep you posted.





Dr. T

Blossom,

What goes around comes around. I have seen you give from yourheart and soul. Now it is time to take the healing we can offer to you.

Have a good day!






Dr. T

October 14

Maoli remains in what appears to be a painless coma.
The parents have elected to continue the respirator, anticonvulsant medication and, to combat the increased intracranial pressure, the steroids.
This leaves a chance for the Chinese herbal therapy, Jorei, Qi Gong and the at-a-distance healing that all of you constantly direct to Maoli, to take effect.

Other than cardiac rate and temperature swings, the past two days have been stable.

Thank you for your continued watchfulness and hope!


Dr. T

Note:

Maoli's parents are leaving the door open for that possible miracle Sapian, they have elected not to discontinue the respirator or the steroids. The were informed by the Chinese medicine specialist that the therapy is not very effective while chemotherapeutic agents are given. Now, perhaps, the herbal treatment may offer something positive as can the at-a-distance healing that you speak of.

However, as per my previous thoughts outlined here, Maoli may choose not to continue in her present body and afflictions/physical disability.

I am not discounting the possiblity that we could see a miracle, and I hope as much as you do, that we will! We have seen the unconditional love sent to Maoli by her family and by all of those who have sent positive energy her way. That, in itself, is a form of a miracle. Maoli's situation will have long-reaching effects, as she has touched many of us in a special way. I feel she has tought us that the best day is always the one that you are in.




Dr. T

BoZ,
I am in for what I can add to direct him home!


Dr. T

October 11

Maoli: The child is in a comfortable coma today.

Parents: Appear to have a good grasp of the situation and are doing well, in spite of the heaviness of the situation. They see the spiritual aspect of their daughter's illness and in her eventual departure from this plane of existance.





Dr. T

October 10, 2002
                                       Penultimate post

In spite of a moderate increase in AFB, the reason for her drowsiness and semi coma has been revealed on this morning?fs CT scan. The left sided-lesion, which was the largest of the 5 has increased in size and caused a considerable amount of left-to-right shift of the midline brain structures. Additional lesions can now be seen within the brain and what was hoped to be a right-frontal hemorrhage now appears to be tumor.

Koji and Eriko realize that it is important now to keep Maoli comfortable and indeed, she does not appear to be physically suffering. To this end, the Decadron (steroid) has been increased to relieve the intracranial pressure a bit. Yesterday afternoon, a bradycardia (decrease in heart rate) was a sign of brainstem compression, which is confirmed by today?fs CT scan.

The parents understand that the doctors, friends, family and new friends via this forum, have done all that could have been done to aid Maoli in her battle against the rare but formidable hepatoblastoma. I am certain that Maoli thanks you too; I have seen that transmitted when gazing into her eyes.

In looking back over the entire situation, the thoughts of Maoli being a messenger and, as some have suggested in this forum, that she must be quite an advanced soul to have affected so many visitors to the Healing Place and inspire such tremendous compassion, an appropriate thought appeared this morning. Perhaps you will see the connection of Shozan?fs Phrase with Maoli?fs recent illness and perhaps the message she came to deliver:

                                           Shozan's Phrase

A monk once asked Shozan, "Is there any phrase that is neither right nor wrong?"

Shozan answered, "A piece of white cloud does not show any ugliness."




Many thanks to all for the aloha you have shown for Maoli!

I think it is always important to keep hope alive.






Dr. T

October 9, 2002

First, let me again thank all of you for following Maoli's case and for your healing efforts.

A glimmer of hope today – the AFP level was 150,000 units, up only 39,000 units in the past week. Prior to this it had been doubling or tripling with each blood sample. This may indicate that the oral chemotherapy held the tumor(s) at bay. It is expected that a CT scan of the brain will be done to determine the status of the lesions and if any neurosurgical treatment can be offered.

In spite of blood and platelet transfusions, her counts remain below normal, her temperature continues to fluxuate.

We are in hopes that this tenuous situation will continue to show signs of a reversal and of healing.

Many thanks,



Dr. T

Hephaestus,

I am sure you speak for all of us and for all inhabitants of this planet.

Your request has been granted as evidenced by those who have read the posts on healing and especially by those who have responded either in writing or in spirit.

I, like you, hope that more will actively join in where needed.

Aloha,



Dr. T

TErich,

More information is needed regarding her case. Her age, her medical/family history, the type of pain (burning, stabbing, throbbing, etc.), location of pain, what brings it on or gives relief, medical treatment history, reports and opinions of physicians, reports/results of medical tests, etc.

The more information that you can supply, the better chance there will be of someone being able to help.

Can you kindly supply more information?

Thank you,



Dr. T

October 8

I am pleased to report that Maoli's WBC count has increased to 1300 and the CRP has decreased to 6. Her temperature is near normal.

By this time tomorrow, her AFP (the blood marker for tumor) result from Monday's draw should be back. If it is unchanged or lower than before, a brain CT will be done. If it is increased from the previous level, it may be assumed that the tumor growth is increasing and the scan will be postponed.
She slept through the day today, but when awake, she appeared alert.

The important AFP result and furthers plans will be known tomorrow.

Thank you,



Dr. T

Hello everyone,

October 7 Progress Report on Maoli chan:

Maoli appears exhausted, she sleeps most of the day. Her temperature is down as is her WBC (white blood count) to a value of 9,000. The small area of her right lung is unchanged and most probably represents the region of pneumonia, unchanged on x-ray but not great in extent.

The marker for infection, CRP (C-reactive protein) peaked at 27 and now is declining. Her combination antibiotic therapy appears to be working.

When she does awake, she appears responsive as before. She must conquer the pneumonia now, then try to tolerate elimination of the tracheostomy tube prior to any thoughts of intravenous chemotherapy. The next few days will be crucial.

Thank you for your continued efforts, I will keep you posted!





Dr. T

October 5

Maoli is on two antibiotics now for pneumonia but she should recover as it affects her partially-resected right lung and appears as a moderate spot on the chest x-ray. It explains her temperature swings that were observed over the past few days. The oral chemotherapy has been temporarily stopped to allow her to recover. Irwin was quite correct in saying that she is in need of sleep.

We will continue to see her and update you as indicated. I expect the next big hurdle is in two weeks when thoughts will be directed to removing the tracheotomy tube.

Again, we thank you for your assistance and concern.



Dr. T