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quote:I would like to hear the dream you had with your experience dedeburn.

Sadly I tried to hold onto the experience when I woke up but the dream part faded VERY quickly.  It ceased to make sense, became symbols that I couldn't understand and then faded away...all I have left are a few still image memories and the overwhelming sensation that I was learning a lot and that it was important to my development.  

Some of it was primal imagery, it was dark, others were present.  I was listening to someone.  There were many going one direction, crowded.  I was caged?  I was freed and I saw someone else caged.  I reached out my hand to help them.  At this point I seemed to become self aware, and suddenly I was aware of myself lying on my back in empty space... which leads to the rest of my description.

I feel you were crossing the threshold and agree with Jeff_Mash's statement.  

Last night I woke up in a dream (which instantly dissappeared?) and was aware of only powerful energetic sensations and infinite space around me?  I couldn't see?  It was strange and very exciting.  I was so awake that I had to consiously keep my eyes closed, really it felt like I had to really force them closed, and at the same time I focused on the energy sensations that instantly expanded when my thought arose.  I was really amazed at how the sensations reacted to my thoughts.  I thought of "up"  and I went flying, like a reverse rollercoaster?  Anyway, I don't know if this is complicated or not.  I guess relatively it is, but it seems to come with time, attention, and patience.  I'm not sure what will happen next (as this all happenned for the first time last night) but I am very excited.  

It may be valuable to note that this happened after my fiance helped me to anylze the dream I had the night before.  I have been devoting increasing amounts of time and energy to remember and understand my dreams, which all focus around change it seems?  

Here's a link to it if you're curious or want to share anything.

http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?ARCHIVE=&TOPIC_ID=2546

I believe I had my frst OBE last night, it lasted only maybe 15 seconds and I was not able to really see anything but the sensations were overwhelming.  I am wondering why this would be?  If anyone has the time to check out my story I would really appreciate your honest feedback.  Thank you!

Here is the link.  
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?ARCHIVE=&TOPIC_ID=2546

(keep in mind until yesterday I'm not aware of any lucid dreams or OBEs though I have had close times with both it seems)
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Coming out of a dream that felt very important, felt like I was learning a lot.  I suddenly found myself aware of myself but I was no longer in the dream.  I was lying on my back and there is nothing anywhere, ie I don't see anything at all.  I become vaguely aware that my physical body is lying on it's back?  But I don't see anything or hear anything.  

But I feel, I feel extremely energetic?  Not so much vibratory, I've felt vibrations during meditation and trance states that begin and get stronger but there is a definite pulse to them (or there has been in the past) like there is time between the vibrations.  What I felt here seemed constant but exponentially more powerful than what I had felt in the past.  So I really feel like I am energy, or like I was plugged into something and I am radiating energy, so strong that I can barely handle it.  It's very pleasant but sooo powerful of sensations.   Like I was exploding in a sense, or radiating REALLY powerfully.

So at this point (this all happens rather simultaneously) I am also aware that I am body conscious, and I am very awake and stimulated, very focused?  So I think to raise or increase this state and instantly I feel a powerful expansion, I don't know how else to describe it.  Like I could feel beyond just my previous body, the sensations were very similar but larger and less defined, less noticeable contours – like before I could kind of feel the shape of my body with the energy and now I couldn't in the same way, but I still felt like I was there.  I was aware of a feeling of a rather infinite space around me.  

So I remember to kind of think or imagine away from the body, so I tried three thoughts.  The first was of a ceiling, and this had no effect that I was aware of.  The second I tried to imagine a place away from here but I couldn't really materialize it.  The third I thought just "UP" and whoosh!  Up I went!  It was incredible, the energy become overwhelmingly powerful and I felt kind of like a reverse roller coaster?  Does that make sense?  I felt like I was falling upwards at an incredible pace, like I could feel the momentum.  This process was so powerful that it caused me to scream in my mind and this resulted, I think, in the visualization of a face screaming.  

Now this face, which I think was my own, was not like my normal face, it was like the space that my face creates when it is pressed into a thin sparkling sheet.  Like it was pulled across my face, and it was colorful I think?  And kind of stretched at the ends like it didn't actually go all the way around my head but just sort of became a planar flat shape.

So seeing this face and all I was very startled, and the falling upward stopped and I was just floating.  Now I don't know how else to describe this floating sensation because it was not like floating in a pool, or even the floating you feel when you are in a deep trance state but still aware of your body (that's kind of what I had felt before).  This floating was like an absolute floating?  Absolutely effortless and weightless?  And at this point I didn't seem to be body aware, that is I had no body at all?  I don't know.  I still had a strong sensation but it was not really localized.  And still I am in what feels like an infinite space with nothing visible but my face that appeared but wasn't really looking at me, like I  experienced this and then saw it from the outside?  

So I get scared during this process of flying upward and seeing this face screaming and me screaming in my mind and all and the indescribably powerful sensations that accompanied this...and I realize I'm scared/excited/overwhelmed/in awe and I try to calm myself down but in doing so I am suddenly back and body conscious again – this energy feeling, like radiating vibrating is still really strong in me (not as strong as when I'm flying upward) and I decide that I want to remember or need to remember this, although I think I tried to raise up again.  I sort of lost my focus when I tried to calm myself down.  Anyhow I opened my physical eyes at some point and was completely awake and still feeling really strong sensations, which after a few minutes faded into deep tingling and then I decided to try and move and with a little effort I was able to move my hand then arm and I was kind of in shock – excitement.  So does anyone have an explanation?  

When I shot upwards I really really felt like I was somewhere else, and when I was floating I felt like I was really floating.  Infact I think I tried to kind of tilt downwards to test and see if I could feel the bed and I couldn't – I'm not sure.  But I was extremely stimulated and extremely vivid / awake.  Enough that I could think of raising my energetic state and moving upwards but not enough to realize where I was or where my body was.  

So this whole event must have lasted only 15 seconds?  I don't know it seemed longer but short at the same time, I don't know how to explain.  I would appreciate any insights, comments, feedback, tips, etc from people that have experienced these OBE's so I can sort of cross reference my experience.  Thanks!

Sorry for the length.  I cut out the dream part but I really had to have all of this I think.

So, in direct reference to what you haev mentioined:

"I could feel my body was a little sluggish and shaky"
"...and when I woke up I felt strong vibrations."

I felt this way afterwards too.   I was awake with my eyes open and closing with still very powerful energetic sensations.  But I never really saw anything in this experience other than what I think is my face?

-dave