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Okay, I'm alittle discouraged now.   

..........anybody?......

Hi-  I stumbled onto an obe thread at a paranormal forum (just playing, not looking for anything in particular) and my jaw dropped when I started reading and relating to experiences that people were having.  I joined this forum tonight because I would really like to share some occurrences that I've had and would really, really appreciate if someone will take the time to read this and provide any feedback as to what is going on.  I apologize if this is long and these are the same old questions repeatedly asked but I am totally lost and don't know where to begin to figure out what,if anything, this is and if someone could point me it the right direction..... OK..here goes..
When I was 20 or 21 years old, I had the most intense dream.  I felt like I was running from someone, and began to climb a wall made of stones (like in Ireland or Scotland) with the moss growing in between.  I could even smell the dampness on the stones, feel how cold they were, and how slippery.  I woke up in a sweat and to this day swear this was my BEST DREAM EVER, yet I have no idea why.  It was like I had a "rush" for days afterward, and I couldn't get this dream out of my head.
A few years later, I had fallen asleep on the couch or was drifting off, I'm not really sure, but was startled awake by what sounded like a train running through my living room and felt the vibration of it, as well. My cat, who was laying on my abdomen, just stared at me, like he had been watching something going on all along.  It was very odd.   
About 5 or 6 years after that, I worked the night shift (11pm to 7 am) as an RN.  I'd go lay down around 5 or 6 pm before I had to get ready to go into work.  Over a period of maybe a month, something would happen during these naps.  Until now, the thought of OBE hadn't occurred to me.  After drifting off and close to sleep, I'd feel vibrations from the top of my head traveling down to my feet and back up again.  I'd also feel the sleep paralysis, and hear a loud buzzing.  The really weird thing is, as I'm laying on my side with my legs bent, I feel this vibration going down my back and the sensation felt like someone was physically using one of those giant homedics massagers, because when it started over my hips, the force was actually causing me to feel the bones of my knees shift away from each other, while the skin was stuck together.  Does that make sense?  Anyway, at the foot of my bed is a double closet with mirrored doors.  And after trying to pry my eyes open for what seemed to be an eternity, I saw the image of a man I didn't know in the mirror.  (shirtless....I didn't see if he was wearing pants, but I know he wasn't wearing a shirt).  But it wasn't his FULL image, it was only half, like the wooden trim of the closet cut right down the middle-  1/2 of him showing up in the mirror, the other half I guess on the other side.  Like if you were to put the edge of a mirror aligned with your nose, you'd only see half of your face in the reflection, the mirror wouldn't reflect the other half since it's out of view.  OK.  Now, deep breath, I bought this house off my parents when they divorced.  It's the house I grew up in, I'm the youngest of 6 girls.  My mother, my sisters and I have always felt our house was haunted.  My dad thought we were full of bologna.  So needless to say, when I told my sisters of these experiences we thought I was being massaged by a ghost.  I know, it's silly.  But like I said, the possibility that these might be OBE's never occurred to me.   
Now let me jump back, I don't know if this is a connection to all of this or even if there IS any significance to all of this, but when I was about 5 years old my family went on vacation to Myrtle Beach, S.C. (I live in Pittsburgh, PA).  While walking on the beach at night I got separated from my family and ran up and down that beach for what seemed like hours, crying and screaming.  Suddenly, as if out of nowhere, there was a woman wearing all white surrounded by children playing, oblivious to me.  Looking back years later, I came to the realization that the woman I remember seeing looked alot like me as I got older.  I mean, the way I look as an adult and the what I remember her looking like are awfully similar. She said, "You're going to be OK", and before I knew it one of the volunteers helping to look for me picked me up from behind and took me to my mother, family, and everyone else that had been searching for me.  I haven't told very many people about the woman or children that I saw, but one friend I did tell said she thinks the kids were all children who had died on that beach over the years, and maybe the woman, too.  I had a reading done by a psychic a couple of years ago and she thinks it was a spirit guide and she brought the children along so I could identify with them and wouldn't be afraid of her?   I know it seems towards the end Here I went a little off course, but I would like to know if anyone sees a connection, anything, anythoughts would be welcomed.   So, If you've read this far, thank you.  And what do I do from here?  Thanks again.