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I am down at the moment.the problem is that my psychic attack is so bad and all encompassing(physical and mental)that the usual techniques are not working.

 Within 20 minutes of trying to study my energy is completely taken and I feel faint and have to lie down,as if I'm going to pass out.The same happens if I'm even thinking of meditating.

 Blasting my head with white light(where I get drilling)doesn't seem to work.

 Do you know anyone who has cured themselves of attack.What if you come from a family who have done some magic(my relatives are muslim and nasty people who go and see priests all the time when they are jealous of someone and want to sabotage),can even curses be broken?

  I have had psychic attack for the last 14 years and just before it began was "cursed"by a relative who was very angry at her own life-she said she hoped that I suffered as much as she did.Then soon afer I felt energy going through my body head to toe and from then(1989)until today my lfe has been a living death.

I was dowsed  and am apparently a "second time round"soul,someone who has had all their incarnations on earth but has chosen to come back,apparently to help people,though I am so low at the moment and am being so attacked that I cna't even think straight.

  My dowser was very surprised that whatever he was doing wasn't enough as the spirits just come back,he hasn't met anyone like me.I can't even sit for 5 minutes without drilling on my back,neck and head draining my life.

It's strange,I can't be hypnotised at all,perhaps something to do with thepsychic attack or ufo interference(I have a 6 inch scar which appeared overnight prompting my doctor to ask if i had had an operation).i can't remember my dreams and the 0.1% that I can remember i see vast lands and skies,really scary and huge.I have always had night terrors.I have always felt different as a child and stare at the sky constantly.

i went to see someone else who told me that i am actually incarnating in human form but spent many lifetimes on other planets where i accumulated alot of energy devices which were now causing havoc in my life.
 
  why is this happening to me.I have suffered so much i can't cope with the idea that i have to stay on this planet how many more decades.I can't bear it.i am just existing.

I have tried alot of things and seen good people but so far nobody has been able to help.I was put in touch with "spirit release"people who using dowsing told me that there was up to 200 entities,they would be cleared and then come back a day later!I am not too surprised as I sometimes feel as if somebody has grabbed my kidneys and ovaries with both hands and is pulling them apart.I get stabbing pains under my shoulder blades(especially the left)and tingling on my hairline over the last few months which has left a bulbous and bulging forehead,yet another distortion.I can't look in the mirror and people have noticed what has happened to me -everyone!On the underground or out and about(but i rarely leave the house)I feel myself falling to one side as if the very life in me is being dragged out.I saw a shamen sometime back whom, when she went into trance had to come back out because of the demonic forces which were surrounding me.The dowser also suggested UFO involvement so I am in serious stuff.
  My Dear Friends,I believe in past life karma,I guess I have alot of rebalancing to do and fair enough but I ask you all for your help and advice-i can't do this alone.These are without doubtdemonic forces,but i can clear them with your help and you will be blessed by God for your efforts to help this lost soul.Whatever happens i mustn't end this life,who knows this may be the most important one of all.all i know is that i am truly ready for change.

Hello,

 I am a 29 year old female living in london.About 14 years ago my mother went to visit my uncle's wife who had been badly treated by my uncle to try and see if she could help save their marriage.Unfortunately she took me with her.My aunt was so angry at my uncle and even though my mother or I had nothing to do with my evil uncle this aunt turned to me and with screamed "I hope that you suffer as much as I did at the hands of your uncle!".I forgot about it -I was only 14 years old after all.Soon after I remember a "force field"or presence go slowly though my body head to toe,I dismissed that too.It really started for me in march 1989 when I was 15,my lovely thick hair started to fall out-I don't mean stress related ,a small amount,but now I've lost 95% of it.I'd lost more than half within months.I used to be stared at by girls at school just before this as they were always going on about my hair being so thick and beautiful,they were so jealous!I used to be followed sometimes by guys because I was beautiful,then suddenly I lost it.At the same time I started to feel so very uneasy but jittery also so very sad.I lost interest in things my concentration went as well.
   Anyway 14 years on,things have gotten worse.The doctors couldn't find anything wrong with me(they tried thyroxine ,antidepressants ,iron,everything).For the last four years things have become unbearable because of the extra"bad luck" that has happened to me -people used to compliment me on my pretty face,then suddenly the left side of my face became distorted and assymmetrical overnight,my eyes were complimented constantly then suddenly my left eye developed a deep dark baggy socket underneath and so now at 29 I avoid mirrors whereas before I really loved(and was grateful to God for and never showed off about)the way that I looked.My face and hands suddenly darkened as well.My weight keeps falling-no matter what I eat.In the last year I've been getting drilling on my head and neck(the drilling on my head has led to bald spots),I smell "vomit" on my head.I had a six inch scar appear from my belly button downwards overnight,I close my eyes and can see moving figures,I feel breezes on my face,I've even shrunk 2 inches,now I've started choking at night,for the last two months I've been getting horrible sexual interference around the genital area.What more, God!  Derek Acorah,a wonderful British Medium confirmed to me that all of this was due to me being open to negative earth bound spirits but his prayer doesn't work.My relatives hate my mum brother father and I and we know they are involved in religious magic.Another psychic,Judy bloom confirmed that a couple of curses had been put on my family which have backfired on me.Apparently,I am psychic,I am constantly told.
 All I want to know,my dear friends, before I end this out of desperation is can I get better,can i get the old me back?I'm so very tired.I miss me so much,my spirit,I am a decent person.Please help me,Dear Robert,dear compassionate friends,I can't do this alone.
      hope1973

Dear Celeste,


  What is your gut feeling about me?I feel that a curse which i've mentioned before froman angry relative resulte in a transfer of energy from negs which had haunted her due to the suffering at the hands of my uncle to me.Her threats/curse formed an invisible dagger in the ether which struck a few months later when I was a bit down at school(therefore vulnerable to them)i can even remember the dates-her curse was summer 88 and I was stressed at school spring 89 which is when I felt the energy(the possession, i now believe)go through my body.It has been one long night sincespring 1989.

  And as I was only 14 when she cursed, a child,I was sensitive.Also i am sensitive as a person.Worse,I have relatives who practice witchcraft and as this is happening,my door is wide open.


   Today i thinking that all of this happened because I was at the wrong place at the wrong time. My evil uncle went on to marry again and is sooooo happy,so why did a 14 year old child who wasn't even aware of their doomed marriage suffer?I was innocent.

  They are so clever,the negs,that they knew they would kill me spiritually by taking my looks -I have never heard of this happen.their drillin on my head has given me bald spots on my head(I'm in my 20s)and i've lost well over 90% thickness wise.In the morning I can smell the room which smells like vomit-they make my head smell of vomit.Maybe this is my lot,if so then let me die in my sleep,I am so tired.

Hi Shawn,

 Thank you for your kind words,I am surrounded by constant negativity and so it's nice to know that there is an alternative!


    Best Wishes you old soul,    
      Hope

Dear Crim,


 I feel for you.You have been through hell like me.


 I think that meditation,belief and heartfely prayer is what is going to save us,the other things help but the greatest weapon is our mind.

 I think that you are possibly right about my family,this is a negs' game,now we are wise to it.


  I have been in victim metality for so long-14 years.I've only had it confirmed to me recently that the source of all my torment,mental and physical,has been neg related-it's like out of a movie.

  They exist in the ether and so any thought that we can create turns into reality for them as it is made of the same stuff.

  So we can fight using mind power.I understand what you are going through.I don't work and have no quality of life,no relationships and they have targeted my spirit by altering my looks.BUT The little    sh*ts now have a fight on their hands...

 

Hi shawn,


 No you aren't rambling at all,your sentiments are pure and encouraging me.You really are a young bright spark and I hope you always keep that gift.

 I have read (most of)RB's book and he too has really suffered,if he can cure himself maybe I can too.

Dear shawn,

 Thank you for such lovely words.You are wise for somebody so young!I truly appreciate all the thoughts and prayers coming from evryone connected to this site.I am on an absent healing list in london too.

  I've made a promise to god that if i get through this i won't forget any of the lessons learned or the compassion shown to me and will repay it by helping others.

 Even a few months ago,i didn't know for sure why what was happening was happening.Now i know it is psychic attack I can make my own psyche stronger .

Dear Nita,

 You are right,I know that Imust build myself up,rather like spiritual body building,the small things are easier to bring into my life,like the pryares and music.

  I am getting the fountain and will see if i can get some holy water form a church.Hopefully the water will last a while.

 I know that I am completely drawn by my mother and the tales of abuse that she tells me coming from my relatives.The best thing is for me to keep away from the kitchen when she is there!I can feel myself getting faint around her and especially on crowded places.

 It is so good to know that I am supported and believed.

 I've made a promise to God that if i get better,I too would like to help others.But i know that he can't do it for me,just as long as I'm not alone.

   

Hi ,

 I really like Westminster Cathedral,a church in London,is this ok as a Holy Place or should I try a place of nature?

It's funny,

 I can't be "bothered" to meditate,i can't be "bothered"to finish RB's book and i can't be "bothered" to pray-  now i know it is them,


  Part of my psychic attack is that I have terrible bad luck(lost looks,no life,no anything)now my email have gone funny even though it should have been working from today....

Dear Crim,

  I have had alot of drilling on my chin and over the last year have developed a painful raised area on my gum(just where the tip of your tongue rests at the bottom)it's quite large(an inch width and 2 or 3 inches across).but as it's a gum i can't draw anything on it.I have a small lump 3 inches below the right eye and it has been there for as long as my problems,I tried the marking in RB's book yesterday and will try it every night for the next few weeks to see if anything happens.As I get localised drilling there i wouldn't be at all surprised if it is a point of attachment.

 I get boil things which come and go on my earlobes and the surrounding neck area.I thought it was odd as I don't get acne.I think that is entity attachment too.

 I also have a mole on my back which i noticed during puberty.I think I need to do something about that too,somehow draw RB's mark on it.

Dear Nita,

  Yesterday I found a couple of sachets of lavender and sage herb that I forgot about so I will sprinkle them under my matress.

  I will get a water fountain-how should I pray over it?My family are not too supportive and so I don't have anyone to help me with the running water under my bed although i would love to have that as well.

 I have some nice classical music-Ave Maria by Schubert is one of my favourites.This calms both me and temporarily calms the negs.Also jumping to pop music helps.

  The problem is that Robert talks about Core Images.My core image is wrapped up in the way I look now,the streets that I used to walk around happily when I was free from all this.


 I guess that my vibrations are so low I can't "be bothered"to meditate or finish RB's book,I guess the drilling on the neck(it woke me up)has something to do with willpower.I know now (something that /i have been totally unaware of in the last 14 years)that I am not 100% me.I try and imagine a white neck brace of light around my neck,but it doesn't work.

  It's a shame that just as big a concern of mine is my family.I am unsupported but this is my battle and it's fight or die time.

Dear tom,

 Thank you for your reply.I amscared and  thinking of doing something stupid because this is suffocating me(quite literally because I have woken up many times in the night with my windpipe completely blocked and basically being suffocated).

 Most people are this site are lucky because they haven't gone near anything as awful as me.I can't even get clues from my dreams as I don't remember them ,nor does hypnosis work on me so i can't find out what evil person i was to warrant such torment.

I appreciate all advice and help,thank you

Crim,

 It's funny but whenever I've told someone about the psychic attack,I've said that I can't remember whether the energy went head to toe or the other way around.It's because it happened 14 years ago that I can't remember-maybe it happened the same way as yours toe to head.I wouldn't be surprised-you and I have suffered persecution and it probably started in the same way too.

Dear Crim,

 We can empathise with each other because we have suffered.I am feeling overwhelmed.It has been 14 years.People write about when their attacks occur but mine are constant.They have ruined my looks,my education(i messed up my degree at oxford university because of the overwhelming fatigue,sadness,uneasiness,obsessive thoughts),I am single,have no job,no life.

 I have constant burning and drilling on  myhead and neck,can't be bothered with anything.I am 29.

Hi everyone ,

 Thanks for all your help.What i have been trying to do is breathe into my heart chakra a couple of times a day.I close my eyes and slowly imagine breath going into my heart and that with each breath IN,I imagine that I'm letting go of all the negativity and fear and returning to God,I don't focus on the out breaths,just the IN ones.Eventually,the fear falls away,then a bit later i feel nothingness then a bit later i feel calm,then love and eventually i feel overwhelmed with the power of God-and this is the aim.I have been told this exercise by someone who like Robert has been through hell and come through the other side.He "cured"himself doing this-but over a long period of time.Apparantly the negs can't touch the heart chakra.
  Anyway do this meditation for as long as you can as often as you can (I do about 5 mins a couple of times a day)and to leave ,imagine your breath going OUT into your brain so you have now finished the mediation.
   This chakra meditation actually works by closing down all your centres so those of us who are too open are more and more protected.
I find that the negs go balistic when I do this!They start twisting my arm, giving me headaches,all usually on the right hand side.
  I'm taking everything all of you have offered to me on board and look forward to getting through this...[]