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I am sorry if I upset you. I am just "waking up" as a person. I am TRYING to distinguish what's real and what's not. That is why I posted what I did. I just wanted to find out more info on what could be going on with me. Some of it is my own emotions and some of it is clearly not. Instead of being negative couldn't you have just pointed some things out to me positively? We are all human in the end. I hope you never end up as scared as I was that night.

Well I read somewhere that our subconscious minds pick up information, images, words, sounds and other things without us even knowing it while we are awake. So it's possible that music could have an effect on the minds of somebody who is not consciously aware of themselves or who is easily manipulated. Kids, teenagers and people with mental health problems are the ones most susceptible I think because they haven't built up any barriers and are not very self aware. It's like the person who watches a scary movie and then goes to bed that night and has nightmares. That's a normal way for a person's subconscious to discard any information that disturbs the person or that the person doesn't need. But if you try to start acting things out when you are awake that means that there is an imbalance between the subconscious and the conscious minds. I would know. I am going through it. I am just "waking up" as a person. I often see things right before I sleep or right after I wake up from a dream. I am TRYING to discern what's real and what's not. Some things may just be my own emotions and fears. Others plainly aren't. Music can work in this way against a person too. The trick is to become aware of who you are as a person and just let go of whatever you don't think matches up to that. Like, you listen to Metal, but don't act on it as a person. That's because you know who you are. A child growing up in a household where the family has poor parenting skills might begin to act violently after listening to such music. Or an adult with a serious mental illness might begin to act violently after listening to violent music.

Actually I did just catch a gnat in my house. I have sprayed the entire place with flying bug killing stuff. I asked about the Astral Moths because I just honestly don't know about this stuff. I know so very little about Astral anything. So my posts my seem stupid or panicked to somebody who knows a lot but I am not meaning to come off that way. I am seeking help for it. Next times somebody who posts something you think would be funny, please try and remember that we are all human. Thanks.

What are the "no see ums?"

I keep finding holes in my favorite shirts. They look like little moth holes but there is no moth in my room to put them there....At least no physical moth from this dimension. I ask because for a while it had stopped and then all of a sudden it appeared again. It seems to happen only when other activity is going down in my apartment such as frequent nightmares and stuff. It seems to be connected somehow. Any ideas as to what it could be?

Okay, there is way too much going on for me to write it all down so I am just going to give you a list of the symptoms I am having.

-Astral Spider Attacks: They are everywhere by there are quite a bit of them in my apartment. They are big, from the size of my closed fist to the size of a golden retriever puppy. The are really super aggressive too. My whole scalp is covered in their bites. I mean, just covered in these nasty red bumps from where they have come down and bitten me. I haven't slept in 42 hours because they won't freakin leave me alone! I am sitting here scatching and flicking them away even as I am typing. I have tried really hard to make them go away. Praying to Micheal for protection, praying to God, imagining myself in my protective shell. Imagining stabbing them with a sword. Doesn't work. I blew on one once and it fell off the wall but that only ticked it off and it rushed at my foot and bit me. (The f**ker!)

-Astral Worms: I put my feet down and they just jump all over me. I might have one in my ear(s) and in my eyes. When I first prayed to Micheal I felt a POP in my ear as something small and quick flew out. It's come back though and has been in both ears. I have something small and wriggly in my left eye. A moment ago when I rubbed it some squishy stuff came out and also some...I don't know what it is. Crud. It looks almost like sand but it's not. It's not the eye sand you normally find in your eyes after waking up either. It's pale  amber colored. I have found it all over my body including lots of it on my chest area.

-Demonic Possession Like Symptoms: I have heard knocking in threes, had dreams of being raped or taken by a partner I didn't know, and woken up in the morning with scratches on my hand and a bruise under that same arm. From where they are placed I would have a hard time putting them there myself. They look like defensive wounds. I went onto Youtube and looked up this stuff and came across a guy who did a prayer for Witch Hex's. He started getting really into it demanding that whatever was in me or bothering me to get out and leave me alone. As he did I clearly felt something moving around in my abdoman area, like pushing up against my stomach. But the guy didn't pray long enough because the video ended and the thing, whatever the f**k is it never left me.

-Possibly A Ghost: Sadly I live across the street from a bunch of Fema houses which are home to a collection of drug addicts. Their dealer comes by and abuses them at different times of the night and day. I guess they owe him money. Me and the entire apartment complex have been trying to get the police to clean the mess up but they typically find a reason not to. They throw him in jail for a night or a few days, afterwords he's back out on the streets and right back at it again. This is really typical for where I live in Florida. At times I have thought I heard a woman wailing "fema" distantly while I am just waking up for sleep. I have also dreamt of a shadow in my kicthen area and may have seen it, or something like it, as a shadow on the wall of my kitchen durring the day.

-Possibly Astral Projection: I have had very eerie dreams of floating outside my body. I try to pick up my arms but they don't respond and so I get incredibly panicked. This actually makes me think more of Sleep Paralysis and at one point I was going to chalk up that but then I started seeing the 4rth dimension while wide awake.

HERE'S WHAT I AM DOING: Praying to Micheal and God every night for protection. Imagining that I am in my protective shell and they can't harm me(that doesn't do anything at all). I will do a salt bath tonight, I have ordered some white sage and will bath in that regularly when it arrives. My issue is HOW DO I SLEEP TONIGHT???  Are there any quick solutions that I could use right now?