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Hello
I'll be brief since I already had my moment in the spotlight with my introductory post lol.
Hmm...My name is Alexa, 23, currently residing in the beautiful Washington State and of course enjoying all of it's greenery .
Any who, I wouldn't exactly say I'm new to all these concepts, because they are things I have been thinking and wondering and questioning my entire life. But I suppose I would say that I'm new in the sense that I have just recently found all the missing pieces and put them together.
Anyway I'm so stoked to have finally found a whole community of like-minded people who share the same interests in views as me! Hell yah to ending the loner phase for good! Haha.

Is that what that is? Elaborate please?

Have you ever just all of a sudden realize  that you are lying wide awake in your bed but you have no memory of waking up and you have no idea how long you've been awake or what woke you up? All you do know is that for some reason you feel its safe to say that you've been awake for atleast a little while because you are wide awake and in deep thought. It feels almost like a  black out when your drunk and you just all of a sudden come to. I'm not sure what this means if anything at all. But would love to know if anyone else has experienced this and what it was like and/or if they think it means anything significant. Thanks!

So for the past year I have been using a pretty heavy drug, probably what most would say is the worst one you could do, and while high I experience all the same symptoms described when you become "enlightened" or your third eye "awakens". This isn't the first or only time in my life I've experienced these, infact I've experienced them my entire life. But I only just recently discovered all this information and made sense of it all. But since the drug use, it seems as if the symptoms are now, I guess, permanently "turned on". Even after not having used in 5 days (my using cycle is typically a 4 day binger followed by 4 or 5 days off). I've also noticed that since I am now aware of my spiritual journey and am actively and naturally doing things to progress it, my cravings for the drug have significantly subsided and my come-down phase, which was once the lowest I could possibly be mentally, is now non-existant.
So my question is this, If we had the power to not over due drugs and let them control our lives, could they possibly be a good tool?
I am in absolutely no way advocating drug use by the way, because unfortunately most of us do not have the power to control them instead of the opposite way around. I'm just wondering that if I were to quit the drugs now and never look back (because I honestly havent experienced any of the negative effects of drugs...yet) would it be safe to say that it aided me in my enlightenment process?

So total buzzkill to my mood showcased in my previous post...
My boyfriend read my journal last night, which is about as close as you can get to being inside my brain...and literally thinks I'm "losing it". His exact words.
Proof that my spiritual journey really is going to be a lonely one.

Regarding the "timeline split"...

So this literally just made me freak the hell out and I'm kind of shaking as I'm typing this. It didn't hit me until I saw your post just now that, I too, thought Nelson Mandela died in prison a while ago! I remember a specific episode of America's Next Top Model from quite a few seasons ago where they took the girls to Africa. They took them to the prison he was in and I distinctly remember them discussing how he died in prison. I really didn't know who he was at the time so none of that registered. It's whatever season Eva was in and won. Let me know if anyone else remembers this! I swear I couldn't make this excrement up if I tried, and I have a life so I wouldn't if I could anyway. Haha..

Is it possible for your third eye to have been open your entire life (this life anyway) but you are just now becoming aware of it due to previous lack of knowledge?

Hey everyone!
First let me start off by introducing myself. My name is Alexa, I'm a 23 year old licensed hair dresser, and for as long as I can remember I have always felt "different".
It's a feeling that I've never really been able to describe, not to myself, or anyone else for that matter. I've always felt as if my thought process and the way I view the world was not only incomprehensible for others, but also myself. At times it even felt as if I wasn't even a part of the same reality that everyone else seemed to describe. My dreams have always been extremely vivid and when closing my eyes or just "spacing out" I see extremely vibrant and visible images that I am not able to put into words or even make sense of. Most are just random images that, for as far as I know right now, are meaningless, but some are very dark and disturbing. I consider myself to be quite intelligent (not in an arrogant "I'm smarter than everyone else kind of way) but when I speak it can seem quite the contrary. I have always struggled with stuttering, stumbling over my words, being able to hear exactly what I want to say inside my head but when I open my mouth gibberish or nothing at all coming out. It's extremely frustrating and has caused a lot of conflict throughout my life due to people misunderstanding or misconstruing what I say. I've also always, even before I really had any reason to be, been extremely depressed, lonely and at times hopeless. I have always just felt this unexplainable void and am constantly trying to fill it and seek out some kind of meaning or purpose to my life.
There are plenty of other examples but I don't want to keep rambling, so my overall point is this, after 23 years of feeling like a lonely, lost, little weird girl (haha), I have finally landed on an abundance of information that has not only made sense of it all, but has showed me that I'm not alone and I am on the correct path! I have never in my life felt more confident and at peace. Can't wait to get involved in all the amazing discussions going on here, stay true friends!

<3 Alexa