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How about removing the pain from having a filling in a back tooth.
Impressed my dentist when I said "go for it".
I'd not really try it today. Not practiced this in a long time.

I had my wisdom teeth removed just last year and I'm really against taking meds so I refused a prescription for pain medication. Needless to say if not for the holes in my gums I would have wonder if they ever even removed my teeth in the first place. I felt nothing, nor when I had to get most of my molars drilled and filled.

I used to play soccer too and we girls were scrimmaging against the boys. One of them went to drive the ball into the goal with all his might and I moved in the way at the wrong time and got smacked in the head and knocked to the ground pretty hard. But every time I got injured in soccer I always had this midset "I don't have time to worry about pain I got to keep going" So when i sprang back to my feet and started after the ball I noticed every one had stopped and were asking if I was ok.

Its just since I was a young kid for some reason I got some idea in my head that medicine was bad and that it caused more damage than helped and that my body was stronger than any flu or sickness and I could deal with pain. I find pain easier to deal with when i annoy other people about hurt

8/14/2014

There were a row of what looks like retro 50's refrigerator doors and I knew what purpose they served. Each one was about the size of double doors and led to these little square rooms that were the sizes of large closets. Half of the fridge was shelved off, you couldn't see the shelves from the outside but once inside you could tell they were filled with all kinds or items, mostly foods. The other side of the fridge served as an entrance to the room. These small units were homes, homes of the poor in a society that was collapsing but still trying to maintain a little of normalcy.

I walked into my small home with an arm full of canned foods and placed them on my shelves before leaving. This was life for me, going out and seeing what I could get with what little money I had and if I didn't have enough well, then I would get it by other means. While walking down the streets I saw a familiar face, a woman I was on good terms with. She was unlocking the gate to her work. I asked her if she was in today and she replied with a no. Then something on the ground caught my eye. It was a weird looking chip. "Is that the key to the building" I asked. She bent over and picked it up and tried opening the building door and to our surprise it came open.

She knew what I was doing when I entered the building to which she adverted her eyes and waited for me to come out, but I came out empty handed not finding anything I wanted. We continued together down the street until with came to a convince store. I looked around  and went to check out. I had about 3 bills to spend and got some sweets to eat. When I got to the counter the man spoke "Would you like to buy these too, they are really popular." I asked him how much to which he replied "300, there's only a few left and they are very rare."

"No thanks" I said and snatched it while he wasn't looking. I had plans to sell it because 300 was way more than I had  and would be very useful. I rushed out of the store with the woman. (At this point Im thinking I've been a man the whole time in the dream : P) We stop by her house and she talking to me about her son, who is in the yard playing. Saying things about how she cant believe how she ended up with him. I got a glimpse of myself in the mirror and turns out im a guy

8/12/2014
Break up

I was talking to my boyfriend either over the phone or through the computer and I made a really bad and semi mean joke, something to with breaking up with him. Then after that I headed to bed thinking nothing about it and the next day after eating lunch in a college/school setting I went up to him and kissed him. He pulled away from me a said. "What are you doing, we aren't in a relationship anymore."

Shocked and confused I asked "What do you mean, are you serious?"

He looked angry. "Your the one who broke it off, after what you said yesterday."

I was a bit upset and never intended for things to turn out that way. Being no good at jokes mine can come off as mean sometimes. I replied "I didn't mean it that way. I was just trying to be funny."

He turned away from me "It's too late for that."

I started to cry a little and wonder what I was going to do. Thinking to myself on how I was going to fix it. Later I found him sitting by a tree with two friends with him. I was weary of approaching him with other people around and felt very anxious of having to talk in front of strangers, but I went up to him anyway. Nervously I asked. "Can I talk to you privately." I felt he would know about my discomfort in talking around other people.

He looked at me coldly. "Say what you have to say here or go away."

I fought back tears in confusion and couldn't figure out why he was acting so far out of character. Did what I say really do that much damage. When I was alone I started crying again. My heart ached and I didn't want to give up on us. There was a party later and I went to it in hopes of seeing him again and I did. When I went up to talk to him he didn't seem as angry as before.

"I wanted to say I am really sorry, it was a terrible joke. I don't want our relationship to end. Without you I'm just..." I trailed off from speaking

"I'm done with this" he replied "We can be friends but that's it."

I woke up after that and was like... "Well that was horrible" and fell back to sleep and then had a dream about going to concert with him! LOL

It's nice that I'm starting to notice their presence. I actually had intentions to LD before going to sleep last night and I am surprised that It actually happen, usually my intentions don't happen.

No, I definitely wasn't redoing it myself. I was more frustrated with starting over in the same location, because I wanted to explore and it felt like I wasn't getting very far. Now that I think about it, every time i got distracted with these "bags of junk" I got too consumed in seeing what was inside that I forgot what I was initially wanting to do. So, I guess in reality the restarts happened as a result of messing with things I wasn't suppose to mess with and when I stopped doing that I got to continue off where I left off.

There were three people with me during this dream and I had a feeling of... having a guide with me. If I had to guess one or two of those people weren't even real to begin with. It reminds me of a previous LD, where I asked to see my guides and one appeared as a toy car and the other I couldn't tell what it was, or make out what it looked like. It was the same with this dream.. I couldn't actually tell what the one that quietly followed along looked like. It almost feels like if it is my guide that they don't like showing themselves and use manifestations instead, but I don't know I'm just guessing.

I'm not quite sure if this was a LD, a Dream, or something else.

I wast walking along a wooded road excited about exploring. I was with two or three people, one who followed along quietly, a girl who was quiet playful and mischievous and guy who talked from time to time.

I woke up briefly and rolled over hazily thinking about getting back to where I was.

Back at the original location of the wooded road I started running. I wanted to quickly get an idea of where I wanted to go before I was pulled out of the scene again. Along the way I would get distracted with bags of junk on the ground and repeatedly wake up and restart running down the road.

I checked the phone this time when I woke up it was 11:43 pm

When I fell back to sleep I decided upon running into the woods at full blast because I got tired of seeing the same road over and over again. At the back of my mind the people were still with me, but I guess they were sort of just waiting for me to get over what ever rush I was in.

Again I woke up.

I was back on the road and finally had calmed down. They were walking beside me again and i pointed over towards a beautiful lake I hadn't seen before. It was surrounded by trees with reds, oranges and yellows. They took of with out me leaving me in a sort of "hey I can't get there that fast." state. I ran after them

When i got there I saw this weird  ATM machine. I went to the back of it and began to read it. Then I started laughing. "I can't believe I can actually read this guys! It makes no sense but the individual words are readable." I continued  looking at the weird machine out of place in this natural environment "what is this doing here"

One of the people asked me to come over to them, so I did. staring out at the lake. There was still those bags full of junk laying around, but they no longer served as a distraction. I wasn't too worried about not being able to return to explore. I felt sleepy and laid down this time to rest.

I woke up again. DX

The last time I was in the dream I got to mess with the machine. It had a selection of fruits the it despised. I woke up for the last time and I almost went back to sleep, but it was almost 1 pm and about that time to wake up.

The subjects presented in this thread are things that I have ponder as early as a young child. I would contemplate how and when existence began very seriously, but end up growling in frustration when my mind would be left with no answer. All anyone can really do is ask questions and speculate to why or how consciousness began. I would like to offer a somewhat fresh perspective or theory on the idea. As humans we usually mark our beginning as the day we are born. We didn't just come out of nowhere, but we had two people come together to bring us into this world. What if consciousness is also like us in that prospect and was offspring of two things coming together to create something new. What would be those things that came together to create an awareness.

Perhaps consciousnesses having a beginning is like one of those picture illusions. Looking at from one perspective you can see a clear start and end but as you change it those starting and ending points are actually connected in a continuing spiral.

8/6/2014
Runaways

We ran down a long street. We were running away from something, not really in the sense that we were being chased, but in the sense of someone running away from home or a place. I looked at the girl beside me, my sister, and grabbed her hand as we continued running. It was getting dark and soon we wouldn't be able to see at all. I pulled her into the yard of one of the houses along the street. We sat down against the house and snuggled closely up to one another with plans to continue running when the sun came up.

The back door to the left of us flung open and light flooded out to the backyard. A woman's voice called out "who's there." Her eyes met ours and we looked back at each other, contemplating on whether or not we should run. "What are two girls doing out here in the middle of the night"

I spoke up. "Please mam, can we stay here. We need somewhere safe to stay." She motioned for use to come inside.

"Alright, you can stay shortly." We walked into the elderly woman's house and stood awkwardly there. "I don't know what you two are doing, I don't really want to know. Just don't cause any trouble and make yourself at home for the time being."

After a while a knock came to the door. We both looked up and became very tense as the woman opened the door.  There at the doorway was a man, who was searching for us two. My sister got up and pulled a knife and lunged herself at the man. I screamed. "NO, Jessica what are you doing!" I ran beside her and to the corpse of the man. "He's dead, this is bad, what are we going to do."

The woman fussed at us. "I told you two not to cause any trouble" even though she had no idea of our story she seemed to understand our situation. "I'm going to have to call the authorities, I can't get mixed up in this. You two better get out of here fast." We sat there staring in a state of shock and confusion as she got off the phone. "What are you still doing here, go!"

As we headed out the house the sound of sirens could be heard and we knew we weren't going to be able to run. I pointed to the  woman's van and we checked to see if the trunk would open. We hurried and closed the door behind us and hid under some blankets as the police pulled into the yard. We could here them searching and occasionally see a beam of a flashlight. Then one of the beams of the light went into the vehicle and the trunk door swung open. They drug my sister out of the van and I screamed calling out her name.

All of this seems very interesting and although my experience isn't what you guys are describing I was however able to recall it because of reading this. It was during a time that I stopped going to public school to be home schooled and did my work on a computer program. I wasn't very responsible and spent late nights playing games so in the morning when I woke up to do my work and sat down to start reading the lessons I would doze off. I never realized that I had fallen asleep to begin with so I went through my dream, continuing to read my lesson. Reading through sentences and continuing learning... what I thought was my science lessons, or English lesson, but then I would jerk awake and continue reading only to be confused because the content of the lesson would be completely different which would bring me to further confusion when I realized that I couldn't remember what I had read to begin with.

It was very frustrating because I desperately wonder what I had read, but all I could recall was that it made complete sense and felt like I was actually learning something.

8/4/2014
Broken Jaw

I was in a scene where there were people training for the Olympics, all on them seemed to be teenagers or young adults. They were wearing red jackets with and sweat pants with white stripes on the side. I didn't really interact with  anyone in the dream but sort of hazily walked around the training building. Eventually I found my sound in a bathroom, staring into a mirror. I opened and closed my mouth and moved it into weird positions, just messing around looking at my reflection. My jaw locked up in a really awkward position and I tried to move it to shut my mouth, but it remained stuck. I was starting to panic because I couldn't move my jaw, but at the same time if felt extremely loose, like it would fall off any moment. Tears poured down my check and I started to become hysterical, staring at this awful looking distorted image of my mouth. It looked like I had be hit across the face really hard and it felt unpleasant. I ran through the building and ran into the coach, who stared at me with wide eyes. He yelled out "Someone call 911"

Ellury-

It seems to me you are putting together a picture of how developed your NP personality is. It seems quite limited at first, but that is apparently normal; I felt the same way. Becoming aware of it is the first step, then work to nurture its development. It can show pretty quickly.

This post has helped me out a lot. I kind of questioned my actions in my LD. You know, kind of doubting if I was really lucid because of how I acted was just far off from my personality right now. It is a relief to know that the NP personality can be different.

Here's another thing I noticed that will probably confuse some people here. You don't necessarily have to realize that you are actually Dreaming in the Dream to become Lucid in it. You can become Lucid/aware of "your" actions. I find that sometimes just being Lucid in it and controlling your actions is enough. You can still learn things and now you are under the mindset that this is a "real time/physical existence". Which means that you are still are governed by the physical ruleset as well. Well, to a degree. Until something out of the ordinary occurs and you come to really "know" you aren't in Kansas anymore, lol.  

It is a bit confusing, but I think I have had an experience like that. I think.

The few lucid dreams I have had all seem to be triggered at random.
My very first one was during my high school days and I had woken up and missed the bus by 10 seconds and had begun to chase after it, at some point after realizing I would never chase after a bus I realized I was dreaming and began to explore until I lost lucidity and woke up (almost actually missing my bus)
The more recent LD. One, I woke up into the dream and was a bit panicked because I thought I had woken up in the past. Another my lucidity was brought on by being chased and lastly I became aware while talking to people in my dream about why I was in a place I would normally not go.

My NP personality doesn't seem to really think things through. I wake up thinking, instead of acting how I wanted why didn't I interact with the people trying to talk to me. Why would I ignore them like they weren't real. >-< Its like, the intent I develop is all I am focused on and everything else doesn't matter.

Oh! I should start logging my DT too, I wonder if it will help any. I dream every night even though I don't log them.

8/3/2014
Objects of Desire


They had found us, the authorities. Reluctantly, we had to let them in to search our house. They were after and object we had in our possession. I don't really know what it was but I knew we had hid it in one of the light fixtures. I gave off a signal using this gun that interrupts electricity when no one was looking. The lights began to flash one after another all the way up stairs. I thought it would go unnoticed because of the storm outside, but one of the officers caught the signal method and they started to storm up stairs.

I ran after them, we had to get the object first. A man that was upstairs had already shot the light fixture and the a small round object fell from it. The officers were surrounding him. He yelled to me. "Get to the car. I'll be there waiting." I ran downstairs and rushed the other people outside. Two woman and a small baby.

The storm was picking up really bad and the ground was starting to flood. We ran to the car where he was waiting, having escaped somehow from the second story. Quickly we got in the car and rushed down the road. The flood waters were getting higher, huge water sprouts were forming everywhere and cars were starting to be swept away by the water. It became apparent that we were no longer able to drive and we got out of the vehicle.

Over the course of use walking the scene had change and I was left with only one of the women. She asked if I had some sort of power and I hesitated before answering with a yea. When we had reached our destination we had to sneak around undetected, because the object from earlier was in our possession. We peeked into a open door way and saw a bunch of officers sitting at tables, enjoying their breaks. "We have to go this way, this is where our powers are going to come in handy, don't let any of them escape"

I started to panic a little, when would she figure out that I didn't have any power. Then it all made sense. The power she was talking about came from those small round objects. While she was intent on fighting, I thought, there has to be some here since the authorities were bent on collecting  them. I sneak away from here to find one and I did. I saw it brightly glowing a bluish green. It pulsed as it glowed. I started my way towards it and was about to pick it up when I was knocked down, hitting the object and making it fly off to the corner of the room. I turned around just as the man transformed into a beast.

I ran dodging his attacks and trying to make my way towards the object. I slide across the floor and dived to get my and touching its glassy surface. When I turned to face the beast he had stopped trying to attack me.

8/2/2014
Shape Shifter

There was feeling of urgency as a man and I swung a bluish truck with a stripe on each side into the yard of an unknown house. The back of the truck had a cage around it with a blue and gold macaw inside of it. In that moment I knew there was another bird that I needed to get and perhaps that is why we came to this house. For a moment my vision shoots toward the inside of the home, past the front door to the living room. I see two girls and a masked man with a large machete. He is talking to the girls with the front door behind his back and while they sit on the floor in terror. "who should go first." He looks at the girl with brown hair intently while she begs for her life. "Pleaaasse, please don't kill me." Her voice is choked up in fear.

We burst through the door and stop frozen in place at the scene. The man with the machete turns to us a little shocked, but doesn't attempt to attack us. Instead he points his weapon at us and direct us to a room, locking us inside. "I'll come back to deal with you two." While he is gone we take a look around the room. There was never any fear between the two of us. I sat looking through the belongings of whoever owned the room. On the shelf my attention was caught by some coins. "I'm going to take these." I said "I collect coins from different countries." he replied back "You're really going to steal at a time like this." there was no weight to his words, I could tell he didn't really care what I did. His attention was focused on something else. He had an object in his hand that looked like a dog.

The man with the machete came back into the room and looked prepared to kill us this time, but the guy with me spoke up. "wait you don't want to kill us." He said with the small figurine of the dog held up. "I'm your dog." I wasn't confused by what he said at all, though normally it would have made no sense. I just had a feeling that he had made sense of some of the random objects found in this room. The machete man looked unamused and said. "I'm not dumb" and started moving towards us. "I can prove it" my companion said.

He stopped and waited for us. "Go ahead and try." The guy looked at me and said to me mentally. "Im going to shape shift us into dogs." I looked at him back "I can't shape shift!" he smiled. "But I can shift you" Next thing I know the world around me became bigger as I was shrunk into the form of a bulldog. The man with the machete stared in awe. "No way.. is that really you?" We shifted back as the machete guy just disappeared.

The guy with me turned to me. "You can shape shift too." I stared at him hard "I can?" I said in disbelief "yeah" he replied "you just have to learn how to control it. After that we parted ways and I found the bird that I was looking for in a different room of the house. It was brightly colored reds, oranges and yellow. I ended up bringing the birds to my mom and then yelling at her to come take care of them because I hate birds and didn't want anything further to do with them.  

07/1/2014
Lucid Dream : D (these are becoming more frequent)

My first dream took place at a football field, which absolutely didn't look like one. I met up with my teammates who began to talk to me. "I haven't seen you here before." a girl with black hair said. I was a bit confused to why I was there. I said "I don't even like or play football, why am i here." We began to walk towards a the tunnel that leads to the locker rooms. I was thinking really hard. "I'm dreaming." the girl looked at me. "no you aren't" I retorted "No, I'm definitely dreaming." and she said again. "you aren't!" I ignored her. "I wanna get out of this dream. Take me somewhere else." the girl was saying "Wait, wait." but I just assumed she was apart of the dream and, started to crawl through this tunnel that had appeared in the wall. As I went deeper into the tunnel I began to lose my vision and next thing I knew I was opening my eyes to my room. When I woke up I was like "NOOOOO, I didn't mean to wake back up." I fell back to sleep immediately with the sounds of my family getting ready to go to work in the background.

I had a dream about werewolves after this lucid dream.

  A simple bathroom break won't impede your progress. You can still go back to bed after that. That's just a "speed bump", lol! 

May be a good idea.. get some stretches out and got back to being relaxed.

07/10/2014
Guardian of a Dying World

We crawled down into a massive hole in the ground and saw the remains of a people who had been massacred centuries ago. I was filled with sorrow for the people and felt it wasn't right for them to have died like this. The god/guardian of the world I was in felt my sadness for the people and brought me to it's realm.  Its form resembled a wolf. The wolf guardian spoke to me and told me I could take these people to a dying world to become the god/guardian of it and try to save it and give these people a chance at the life they didn't get to have. I agreed and the old god/guardian of the world I would take care of came and got me and brought me to his realm. The people were also there and they looked happy and excited and were talking among themselves.

I woke up in my bed a little confused and trying to remember my dream. I went to flip the lights on and they didn't come on. I called to my mom telling her the power was out. she called back to me "Did you forget, there is no more power... all the power grids on earth failed." I panicked a little and checked my phone for signal and attempted to send a message, but it failed. How am i suppose to get in contact with him. I ran out side and looked at the cars lined on the streets. "Power grids down right, it doesn't matter if I take one of these cars, everyone's going to be in a panic soon anyway." I searched a white car for keys and found them then started to drive down the street. If the world was going into chaos I wanted to be with my boyfriend. A few minutes  into the drive my memory of the dream came back "I was made the god/guardian of a dying world.. Is this real. What am I suppose to do." I looked into the sky and saw the stars form into an image that resembled the previous god/guardian before disappearing.



: P I woke up just as the power went off in the house. It was a little funny considering what I just dreamt.

I used to do this with binaural beats years ago. The whole staying still on my back thing. I'm not a person who can fall asleep staying still or laying on my back, but after using those for a while, I'd find myself waking up 30 mins to 1 hour 30 mins later. I would be completely unaware that I drifted off until I looked at the clock. Often times when I awoke the vibrations would still be there.

I have yet to project when I'm actually attempting to, but my most exciting experience happened when I was trying to do nothing at all. Yes, it would be amazing to project at will, but I am just happy to finally have a projection with full awareness, even if it took place inside my own subconscious reality. It was just the most amazing experience, even in it's simplicity. Progress is progress, no matter if you meant to get there or just happened there by accident. : ) I have been trying to AP off and on for 5 years since I first heard about it. In those five years I have only 4 lucid dreams. The 4th one I managed to get into full awareness and finally ask to see my guides, whom I got to see briefly! : ) It's my most cherished experience now <3

Actually, there is some good anecdotal evidence that suggests when you "awaken" in sleep paralysis that the experience is ENTIRELY a projection.  That you don't REALLY awaken at all and you remain in a non-physical environment instead.  That being the case, stop "trying" to get up and just GET UP. 

However, if you believe you're a spirit inside a body that needs to "get out" first... then you've added a layer of complexity to your troubles.  Beliefs...

Man i wish i knew about this as a kid, the whole sleep paralysis thing scared me to death, and i would do everything to try and wake up my body. Usually I could see anything above , like the ceiling fan. I think there was one time I woke up to sleep paralysis and heard a dog barking and there wasn't a ceiling fan (I have always had ceiling fans growing up) When I had got myself up form that. I was more confused about  where the dog went instead of the fact that I didn't have a dog.

Freeze Tag!
7/4/2014

Every one was getting into partners and quickly all the faster people were getting taken. I looked around to see who was left trying to find the right person, some younger boys came to me and asked to be my partner for the game. I declined, because they didn't seem right for me, a blonde hair girl came up to next and I knew right away she was the one. We headed out and the game of partnered freeze tag began. The objective of the game, be the last duo standing. Your partner was allowed to unfreeze you and no one else. I began dodging people and lunging after them trying to get the first touch off to freeze them. My partner was frozen so i quickly ran past and unfroze her and she did the same when I was frozen. The numbers were dwindling quickly and soon there was 7 duos left. Suddenly my partner comes running towards me and I think nothing of it.. wait a minute, there's two of her. One of them tags the other. It was my partner that came out  unfrozen, but she was caught off guard and quickly frozen. I exclaimed. "You have a twin? Why didn't you say something" I averted my attention back to the enemy. She stood between me and my partner. I debated whether to freeze her or try to unfreeze my partner. I decided to go for her, but stumbled and she got the first touch off. We lost the game and I woke.

When I get into that void like state, Its like I can't really think about anything and I really only notice that I've been there after waking up. I wake and remember having a dream and then blackness after the dream sometimes, but never during while it happens.

Yeah I've been thinking what it could have meant other than a joke.. being brought to the store. I haven't come up with anything yet. Maybe they were just letting me get a feel for what its like to have total awareness in the non physical. The original dream scene was dark the whole time, up until the store which was bright and neat, shelves lined with candy. There was a cashier, she had blond hair, but I didn't look at her face, I avoided eye contact. I didn't just open up the candy either, i went to the counter first.. and didn't actually pay anything for it nor was it scanned, I mean the lady was just standing there not doing anything. She undoubtedly wasn't a real person and seeing that she didn't react to me I just ate the candy. From the moment I became completely aware, all the dream characters had  stopped I guess.

Yup, a point comes when it doesn't matter how skilled you are, you WILL wake up, and it will end up just like that.  It's like you're "there", you shift and might perceive some kind of blackness (void, 3d blackness, etc), then you'll open your physical eyes and be in your bed.  It's that fast.

There was a post recently where we talked about what I called the "eyes closed/body still" technique.  This is what you do at that point when you find yourself waking up and you can't stop it.  You "wake up", yet you keep your eyes closed and your body completely still.  If you open your eyes, you'll lose that void you're in and likewise if you physically move...
Hold that for roughly 10 - 20 seconds and you should shift back into the non-physical at around the same place you just left.   

This may be difficult for me, most of time when I wake up my back is either killing me for sleeping too long or I have to use the bathroom too bad XD. I think I'll have to learn to recognize that void before I wake up, or my eyes are just going to open instantly.