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So last night and today I followed the directions of whatever was pulling me. So what ended up happening...best I could explain is it was like my body was trying to "unwind" itself. Removing tension, probably from negative experiences and also restoring flexibility in ways I never thought I could possibly do in my current shape. Granted  I had to flex in ways that looked like something from say Exorcism of Emily Rose... I had to push myself in certain areas that caused discomfort or even pain because it took alot of effort and balance to unwind certain areas. Despite what I felt, I had complete control if I wanted to stop to take a break.  This process took hours and takes a lot out of you...

Although I dont think the process is completely done yet... I feel pretty rejuvenated. Even though I'm sore and kinda tired... overall I just feel... better. Probably the most noticeable is that I can use my pinky toes again. I never really thought about it much but I guess they atrophied and couldn't move them. Now that I can, I feel much more balanced while standing. It doesn't sound like much but I feel much better.

Now the pressure on my head is pretty much completely gone. Which I'm actually thankful for because it was distracting for my everyday life. Yet I still feel like I have a spiritual connection.

So I found out that I believe I was experiencing Kundalini. It got to the point where I pulled as much energy from my crown into pretty much every fiber of my physical body that I could think of. Towards the end I could actually feel something "moving me". I felt like a puppet on strings if I went limp and complied with the energy that was tugging at my head. Needless to say I was very surprised. Its been more than an hour and I'm still grounding down energy. Probably was rather foolish to try to attempt or control something I didn't completely understand. Luckily I have a level head so I didn't become overwhelmed from the energy I was feeling.

I had to put up with it most of the day and didn't find out what it was until near the end of it. So it was quite an ordeal...no doubt when I come "completely down" I'm probably going to feel exhausted. Foolish as it was... at least I have an idea where to put boundaries.

So while practicing grounding since the pressure ontop of my head seems to be constant... Ive discovered something rather interesting. So Ive noticed that my head always wants to face the ceiling from the pressure/pulling sensation that I get. Hard to tell if its either the Crown or Third Eye Chakra...sometimes feels like both. Anyways. I decided to try grounding with my head straight up. The pressure I was feeling soon pressing against my throat Chakra. But the weird thing was it also felt like something was pressing against my mouth as well. I opened it up a little and the pressure increased....so I opened it as wide as I could and it actually felt like something was going down my throat. Like it actually felt like my neck was physically "swallowing" whatever it was. So I kept pushing it further down as much as I could to the Root. Surprisingly the pressure on my head reduced significantly. So I repeated the "process" a few more times....and each time it got harder and harder to move it past my throat. It got to where I physically gagged... it was very strange.
Each time I did this, I could feel my entire body sort of "bulge" from what I was taking in. Interestingly enough I didn't feel the same pressure I felt in my head or neck once it got past the Throat Chakra. Right now it feels like I put on another layer of clothing. The pressure on my head is still there, but it is lighter than before.

Has anyone experienced anything like this?

Okay now I'm starting to get concerned. The pulling sensation just started to pick up in intensity and its even stronger than before. I'm starting to feel strain when I try to resist it....

Trying to ground the best I can but Im not sure what else to do.

So I'm trying to figure out where I'm currently at. Earlier today when I was meditation and trying to well... reach out I guess. I started to get a pulling sensation at the top of my head. And possibly for merely a few moments I think I began to see images. Granted I couldnt make them out at all...mostly just went from a spec of color to purple outlines of something. Not really sure what I was experiencing but I had to cut it short because of work. Pretty much throughout the day my head kept feeling like it was getting pulled upward. Like I could actually just let my head drop and it will tilt all the way to a side and roll over my shoulders until I was facing straight up again if I made no resistance. Needless to say I was a bit spooked. After I got home I decided to try again except this time lying down on my bed. After a good while began to feel numb, not quite sleep paralysis. My body started to warm up all over...granted that could just be me laying there but it didnt feel natural. Once again my head kept getting the pull sensation... I tried focusing on it as much as I could but I dont think I could go any further. There was a few moments on the right side of my neck I felt like something was pressing against it and it felt amazingly good...like pure bliss just in that one spot. However it went away not after long and then I didn't feel like I could really do much else. So I got up.

My body still feels warm, the pulling sensation is more faint than it was earlier. So I'm trying to figure out what I experienced...was I getting close to what we label as OBE?, Projecting? Or perhaps I've attracted something? Any thoughts?

While the concepts of the astral and other assorted subjects are not entirely new to me, it wasn't until a few weeks ago until I actually got to delve into this stuff. Couple years back, some friends of mine introduced me to the subject. Although at the time I never really could completely grasp it.. I was perhaps even a little skeptical. One of them told me that I was practically a well of energy.... but no matter how much I tried, even with the help of my friends I could never really "tap into it." So as time went on, I lost interest in it.

So recently in my life Ive had a lot of positive changes, but sometimes could be stressful. So for a while I would just meditate to keep myself relaxed so I could manage the day. The more I kept doing it, I began to notice colors occasionally when my eyes were closed. For a while I didn't really think much of it. I mean I knew it had to do with something maybe with the astral or something along those lines. So one night I decided to lay in bed and see if I could maybe expand my reach? I think I probably spent a good 30 minutes just laying there concentrating. I didn't really know what I was looking for... but eventually it felt like my brain(or my consciousness I suppose)  was pressing against a wall or a ceiling. So I tried to push passed it... the pressure on my head kept increasing the more I pushed. Then suddenly out of nowhere it felt like something was pouring down my entire body. It was the greatest feeling I ever felt, I never felt so alive in my entire life. Like I somehow put myself in a euphoric state.

I quickly had to adjust to these new senses I was feeling and also try to research and understand it. Ive gotten into the basics of chakras and energy manipulation. Its pretty unreal on how much time I spend on "developing" myself. Its only been a few weeks and I feel like I can shift around my energy with ease. The crazy thing is I'm never tired anymore... and whenever I practice I never feel drained. In fact I just feel a continuous flow of energy(I've learned to ground it if I feel like I have to much).

However it seems energy manipulation seems to be the only thing I can do right now. I really want to try and see if I can get into lucid dreaming and projecting. Not to mention making some friends here along the way! 

Anyways, I'm glad to meet you guys!