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Thank you , there are more to say about some things on my side ... I m a darker person , but i have a constant fear like a feeling , like i know that something of great power dark power is waiting for me , when I last tried to astral I went to hospital one full month and god I m not kidding , and I had 4 months great headaches , sometimes i feel going mad af , like when I tried astral I keep remembering something like "Come now !" "Don't waste time! " "You re astral family will die if you stay there"
Idk what to think anymore , from that point something changed spiritual and my life , my body

So I need some advices /tips on how to remove my fear , I always been a spiritual person , sense things and not good ones , like dark vibes , I always had this thought of me fighting bad spirits and even command them, that s why i m kinda scared to go into astral , I can astral I did it one time when I was younger and I had a freaky one ....

So ... When I was a child I experienced the paralysed state when I died in one dream which was my fear of heights then resurrect die in the same mode again then teleported me in another dream where I was falling with my head down in a fountain , as I was falling I start to realise that was just a dream then I felt my psychical body , the image of me falling disappeared and I was just sitting there unable to move but feeling vulnerable and scared af , I tried so much to move , I was seeing my walls my room , then when something was coming upclose me I struggled again harder and I woke up , See I had a similar experience when a friend died and I knew he would die and I tried to stop him go somewhere but I had this feeling in my soul, any ways he left he died then I dreamed him and the last night I dreamed him like a scary beast then this light bean flashed my eyes and I woke up in paralyse state again , all of these happened like a interval of 2 weeks at most , I was young , but with good instincts and a mind of my own so I could say , When I was pure I felt like this is just in my mind this life and many other parts
Recently 2 years ago I went astral mode when my life was almost to the end because of a decision I made , like a saviour this friend of mine with degrees in psychology told me about this astral thing , I was sitting my butt at my PC playing Moba games like a lunatic for days and my brain was a bonking mess vibrations and all that , so as I was sitting in the morning to get a sleep after 3 days of zombie mode ( BTW sleeping for me was a pain ) I was there , then I closed my eyes imagined my room involuntary suddenly everything crashed and total blackness like you fall asleep , then I "wake up " from my bed and guess what ? I was floating with the most amazing feeling in the world detached and all that , I went in my hole way , There where 4 rooms , my kitchen bathroom and 2 dorms , something just snatched me like a boomerang and there he was this entity with enormous power sitting on some King dorm or something like that , I felt so many things that my mind can't recreate them , I feel them deep in my soul when I think relapse on that memory experience , that entity just inspires me everyday gives me knowledge spontaneously when I think of him , I always consider my self a non believer and if god and hell existed , I would just don't give a bonk , felt like my place my soul is somewhere else .
Now I tried a few times to reconsider entering the astral world , but my soul is pale , tired and with that fear comes itself , I almost proceed in astral 1 week ago I saw my room and all that but something pushed me friendly back ... Idk what to think any more I feel empty lost and useless lately