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it's been a long while since I've been on here but i never really forgot abut this place. it's been a while since my first OBE experience and honestly, i was scared away from it for a while my first experience was well... quite the experience. a person who was my guide was able to help me transition, although she does have attitude i know she means well. i then transitioned appearing in the middle of my room i tried to wake up, but was attacked by something. i for some reason ran under my covers and rushed myself to wake up. the being started gnawing at my body and taunting me, the pain that i felt was very real. it then threw me out of my bed, they had the appearance of any stereotypical monster.

when i turned to get up beside me was a giant pitch black chasm that wasn't there previously in the center of my room everything then faded out. i remember pulling something from my chest that looked alot like a rapier (i had informed myself about astral weapons while awake) everything faded, the entire fight was a blur. the next thing that i remember i had one arm behind the monsters and stabbed it in the chest. it's hard to explain but it wasn't really a monster anymore, it was a rather handsome man with slick blond hair, i then woke up feeling like absolute garbage. occasionally while dreaming i would have this feeling of being held down, i think i might have in fact fallen into the hole.

the second to last was the most strange. i had woken up in what was some sort of cellar and with a man entirely in black who had just made his way up a set of stairs. i was surrounded by bright violet auras that obviously looked human. one of them was distressed and kept pointing to the staircase and talked to me as if i had something that they didn't and could make use of it. i don't remember the specific wording but it was something like "go up there" i think i might have been misplaced or maybe he wanted me to confront the man but i don't remember much after that.

and the last time i had a OBE was rather ineventful, i was fatigued laying back on my dresser with this weird creature both arms around my head sucking on my face. it was pitch black and the size of an infant, and had a definite humanoid shape. it was more pitiful than threatening so i simply pulled it off. ever since then i have been able to visualize things more vividly and even able to feel things that aren't there. i feel more aligned with my body. on occasion my guide will pop in, never making me aware of her appearance but i can feel her there.

my next goal would be to actually speak to her in someway. i have some questions i want to ask and i actually want her there with me on my next OBE, since i can't even leave my bedroom without trouble. could i possibly get some options

so last night i attempted to contact my guardian angel, the night before i thought i had met her for the first time. on that day i was trying to transition to the astral plane and i was having trouble, my heart was pounding and i began to panic. and then i heard a woman coaching me. she had a rather mature voice and i think i was beginning to go in and out of my body because i remember seeing her face, it was average for a human but she was wearing a perculiar head dress but right before everything went to normal, i saw a pair of eyes. they were quite aged and looked like they have seen horrible things. in the middle of the day i had thought of a name. jazebel so i thought my guardian angels name was jezebel. the next day i attempted to contact her. and as i was inviting her, i heard in a snobby voice you would expect to hear from a teenage girl "are you done?" i replied yes as my heart was racing and because of that i repeated my answer several times. so then i asked her "guardian angel... is your name jezebel" i had heard in a softer voice say simply no. and then i understood. the name michelle came to mind. i asked several times if her name was michelle. there was no answer. later that night i made transitioned for the first time, everything in my room was the exact same but with a slight tint of grey. my body did not appear where i thought it would. i attempted to comeback and just laid in my bed again then everything blacked out, when i opened my eyes i realized i was not in the physical world. i could feel a dark presence, it felt like i was being stalked by a serial killer. i threw my blanket over my head as if i was a child. a man came in taunting me saying "i'm going to devour you alive" and other threats while biting and cutting at my bed, the pain i felt was very real, i was terrified. and then i remembered the demons feed off of fear. i relaxed my body and attempted to return to the physical world. the next thing i know i was thrown to the floor and he had taken a more demon like form. as i went to stand back up, i saw that my room had expanded. there was also a dark abyss that seemed never ending. i then realized that he wanted to take me down that hole. i blacked out again and the next thing i remember is that there was something protruding from my chest. i pulled it out and a grey mist leaked from my body, i fully pulled it out. It was a rapier. the next thing i know i was holding the demon in my arm while the other arm i was holding my rapier that had pierced his heart. the man was blond with pale skin. he was also what people would consider rather hansome. he looked like somesort of movie star. i had then woken up and later i remembered that i actually felt two presences. i'm a bit worried about sleeping tonight. i have a feeling that jezebel isn't going to be happy, i would go as far as to say so might be angry.