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Hello everyone.

I am new here.

I really need to talk about something and I am so glad that I
found this forum.

To make a long story short,I have had a VERY strong,telepathic
and astral relationship with a man(on the physical plane) for 12
years now.

He is a psychic and a very powerful one at that.
He is quite known around the world for his deep trances.

I met him 12 years ago when I went for a consultation.
I ended up going to a few of his meditation classes so
I got to know him.

I could tell that he was instantly attracted to me.
Me ,him and his freind would go out for a couple of
beers after the class and he could not take his eyes off me.
He constantly winked at me and had that admiring smile.
He complimented me often.

To make a long story short ,,one day we were having a couple
of beers and he said something stupid which annoyed me.
This was at a table with me and three others.
His *focus* was still all on me.
There were other attractivre women around by he only
looked at me.
He is a capricorn.



It was nothing mean or evil just a stupid comment.
Its not Important.

Anyway,after the classes we all HUG each other.
When it came to me he lifted me up and kissed me on'the cheek.
His way of saying Im sorry and that I like you.

I did not go back for a while after that because I felt
uncomfortable.
Yet I never forgot him and I did like him and I seen him as
a father figure.
Kind,understanding, and supportive.
He is 16 years older than me.
I was much younger then and I had problems.
Emotional and other.

I started to have many vivid dreams of him.
(I am VERY Intuitive)
AT first they were healing,then one day it
turned sexual.
And it has been that way ever since.

Unlike some of you here who do not know who your
astral lovers are *I* do.
He is VERY Real.He is on the physical plane.

We have been connected all these years.

I have had different psychics tell me the same thing.
Year after year.
There is a man in your aura.
He has stayed with you.
Your aura is blue.
He is with you.



My other freind read the tarot cards (which I was doing at the time)
and he was ALWAYS there.
The Chariot(astral)
KIng of pentacles(He is a capricorn)
The lovers and two of cups.
Sometimes the lovers with the devil which means obsession.

I became     good freinds with HIS best freind for a long time.
But I kept this to myself.
It is private between me and my astral lover.
But I gave him a couple of letters to give to him.
I could not just go up to his office to see him
because he shut down his office at that time.

I have been told that we were going to  be together one day.
But it has never happened.

He DID contact me once about 10 years ago but I was not here
to get the call.

This man is ALWAYS on my mind and I am on his.

I have NEVER,ever felt such a DEEP *physical* attraction and'
closness as I do for him.

I am not an ugly person.
I can get dates.LOL
But when I TRY to move on and like someone there he is.
Always.

I have also felt some jealousy on his part when I was
out late.
Not MEAN or violent but he wanted to know who I was with.
I can FEEL it.
I have sensed him watching me on the astral plane day and
night and so has my friend.

One of my male freinds(who is very psychic too) was at
mt house  for New Years Eve and as we were sitting there at
my table he said to me,Your freind does not want me here!.
That was about the time when I sensed him visiting me!
I see BLUE when he is there and a CLOSENESS that is unreal!.
Like his arms are around me.
I did not tell my freind that he was there(astrally)
He sensed it.


You see he is married(not happily) and from what I know his
wife is not well.
She is dying I was told by his best freind.

He also has a handicapped daughter.

He has not had it easy.He has worked very hard to support
his family and he has had many knocks.

When he did not reply to my letters I told my freind(his best freind)
that I was upset.
Then he told him that he contacts me EVERY day in his own WAY
and when the TIME is right he will CONTACT me.
The time is not right yet.

Thats was 12 years ago.

I just need to get this out and talk to people
who understand that thsi stuff is real.

Some have told me that he is abusing his power.
Others have said that he truly deeply cares about'
me but he is in a situation  that is hard to leave.

I just need a understanding ear (if you can understand) what
I am going through.

Please do not judge me as I have NEVER pursued this man.
He has done all the pursueing and very consistantly
at that.

He is a capricorn.

I cannot help how I feel.

I have now found myself *connected* to him emotionally,
physically and mentally  for 12 long years.
And I FEEL his passion for me.

I was told by a very good psychic that   we have *sympathetic* natures.
We are emotionally and telepathically connected.

I would appreciate ALL replies but adspecially from
some of the more experienced astral travellers out there
and those who understand   these type of STRONG CONNECTIONS.

Thank you for listening.

I look forward to your replies.

Marilyn

Ooops!!

Sorry my last post was directed to ENDERWIGGEN not Peacfulwarrior.

Sorry about that peaceful.  []

And thank you for the info peaceful!(links)

Marilyn

PeacefulWarrior,,,You dont have to tell me to think of his
wife.

Read my previous posts.


I have not contacted him all this time *BECAUSE* he *IS* married!.

And thank you for your post! []

Have a good day!

Marilyn[8D]

Hello Jenadots.

Thanks for your post.

So you are a Capricorn.
You see *every* single capricorn that I have known all
have incredible *patience* AND an excellent memory.
They seem to hold on to the past and they can be sooooooooo
patient if in the end they will get what they want.

His best freind is also a capricorn and he has waited 10
years to get back with his wife.
Unfortunately it did not work out and he is now divorced.
She  has many emotional problems.
But the point is he set his sights on it happening for
a long long time and had the most unbelievable *persistance*!.

AS far as the capricorn,psychic that visits me he is he
same way.
Patient to a fault but very very cautious and careful to
the extreme.(That makes astral travel SAFE!)(For him)
This is something that one can easily deny!

Although he has never done that.
He has admitted to his freind and even ME all those
years ago that he has sent me *healing* energy and that
he is in my dreams.
He has made it no secret that he likee me a LOT as he put it.

FRom everything I read capricorns are the most STABLE
and FAITHFUL of the signs.
I looked up to him as a father figure when I was going there
for readings,etc and at the time I was alomost engaged so
I had no other thoughts of him other than a STRONG SUPPORTER
which I needed (and still do) in my life.


You see all those years ago his best freind told me(who
is also my freind) that his wife is dying.
That was long ago.
Apprently everyone in her family died in their early 50,s.
She would be 53 or 53 now,and I know that she is not well at all.

Perhaps this kept me hoping on a subconcious level?
Please ,I hope that does not sound mean.
I have NEVER contacted him because he IS married.
I dont need or deserve that kind of pain.
Also, I never wished for her death!
I am just telling you what some very good psychics seen in my
readings regarding him.

You are a capricorn.So capricorns on the NEGATIVE can be
controlling and self centered?

Twelve years is a LONG time to be doing this.
That must be the *patience* part of his capricorness.

Some days I am left feeling very angry.
I am saying to him in my thoughts *Either contact me or
leave me alone!*
I,ve had enough pain in my life!.
There are mornings that I wake up(after a contact) and even though
that close bond is there I feel used on some level.

Im glad that I found this forum.
Atleast here I can get some of this weight and burden
off my chest.

I cant tell folks who dont believe in this stuff(my  freinds)
or they will call the men in the white jackets! LOL
(If I dont end up there anyway!)[]

Thanks again for your post Jenadots.
Please dont hold back any more advice or suggestions
if you have more to say.
Post here on the forum or use the private e-mail option
here.

Have a wonderful day.
Marilyn[]

Thanks Yoki![]

Have a great day!

Marilyn

Hi Yoki

How do you cut the cords?

A little more about me,,,,You see when I met this man 12 years ago
I was doing tarot for a living and I was very good at dreams.
My abilities were at the top so I was much more adept at LUCID DREAMING
etc,,.
I was actually doing it for a living and I hooked up with some very
wonderful psychics who helped me.But,,
I quit all that because of the INTENSITY of the connection with this man.
The  first two years had me in tears many times.
He was everywhere with me.Day and night and Like I said before
unless someone has been though this they cannot *imagine* how STRONG and POWERFUL this is.
It is much more powerful than just the physical realm.
Soooooooo,I got out of all of it so I would be LESS receptive.

So,,Its not AS intense as it use to be but it is still there and
from time to time (like last Saturday night) he visited me again.
The whole day I had that close feeling of him and the subtle blue aura that accompanies these visits.

Im still a very intuitive person.I always have been but I have not
kept up on my lucid dreaming.
So If you have any suggestions please let me know.
Im open.

Also,Like I said before,I am not delusional or self-absorbed and
I have always been a very GROUNDED person.My brain rules me more than emotion and everyone who kows me knows that.
But again,this is powerful stuff.

Any suggestions as to how to *finally* overcome this would be
much appreciated.

Have a great day!
Marilyn

Thank you Eeb  for an understanding ear.

And Hephaestus(whew,spelling!) lol I hear what you are saying
because I have been told that by others.
But seeing as how I have such a strong will and I AM a very
stong person this is why it amazes me that this has gone on
so long with ME.
The I-Ching said that he send me subtle commands and that sometimes
people CAN slip past their guides.
I shielded myself for a while and it worked for about a month.
Then it came back.

To Goingslowly,well SOME men(and women) do want their cake
and eat it to! Yes.
He also likes his home and *security*
Some people see him as selfish and one psychic(whow knows him
personally) says that he is into power and uses it wrongly.

My astral pal doe a lot of philanthropic deeds,is calm,understanding
and forgiving yet he has this crafty side.

He is a master astral projection and telepathic communication.
He follows Edgar Cayce,s teachings for deep trances and is
accurate 99% of the time.

Anyway,Hephaestus,you have a point and 12 years is really not
THAT long.
We eat ,work got to sleep and mere MONTHS pass by.

Thank you for your responses.

Marilyn

I was not the only one who made a comment to Fred
about argueing.

Why do people want to argue?

Life is too short.

I,ve gone to too many funerals in my short life including my
own brother last year.
I have no time for fights and meanness.
If you want to argue you,ll have to find someone else for
that.

But nice try Goingslowly!


Wishing you peace.

Pass along a SMILE today![]

Marilyn

Also,,Goingslow,,I NEVER ever said the word LOVE in my post!

Im not pining away my life for this!

But again you are so wrong.

There are too many times where we both KNOW that we are close!.

For instance,he lives on the other side of the city.
A few months ago I sensed him so STRONG as if he was in my
driveway!

Guess what???


Two days later his best freind calls me up and told me
that he was with him only ONE block away from me at a
auto-shop!!!
That was the day I felt him VERY strongly!

Guess its not all in my head eh?

He(my astral freind) has also known when *I* was near HIM!
But Im not going to post it all here!  LOL

You dont believe me and that its all in my
head thats cool with me.

I know otherwise.

Have a beautiful day![]
Marilyn

Goingslow!

You have NO idea what you are talking about!

None!

You have NEVER,ever experienced this on the astral plane
and lucid dream world with someone!
Thats obvious.

I dont THINK that we are connected and that he visits me
I KNOW and I could not care less if you believe it or not!.

I got a letter from him two years ago!.
There is so much more but Im not going to go into the whole
story here!

I was just looking for advice,or someone to hear me as this IS
an ASTRAL forum is it not?

Also,I did not tell those psychics ANYTHING at all!
Not even a hint!
But that is ALWAYS the first thing that THEY see!

I have some abilities myself.
I KNOW what is happening.
And I am not delusional or obsessed and I do not
hallucinate!

You dont believe it thats cool with me!

Your entitled to your opinion (even if your way off) but
be nice.
Dont respond nasty to me .
I,ll just ignore you.

Also,,



If you are such a non believer WHY are you here?

Going slow

You obviously have never experienced something this POWERFUL or
you would understand how I feel.

I havetried and tried to get over it.

Many many times.

And this is the FIRST time that I have talked about it in two years!

And Im obssesed I guess so is HE for it is HIM that keeps coming
to ME!


You dont know what it is like to be visited on the astral plane
from someone for 12 years.
You have NO idea the emotional attachment.
You just cant understand.

Have a great day

Marilyn

What a childish post.[)]

There is nothing wrong with a  good intelligent,respectful
DEBATE.
But argueing?

Fun?[?]

If thats what you want to do there are plenty
of
chat rooms in Yahoo or MSN where you could argue your head
off and stay hidden and anynomous behind the computor screen.

Personally I have better things to do.

Like making freinds.[]
Enjoying conversation.

Life is too short.

Marilyn