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The other night i was having trouble getting into a trace state. But then i remember reading somewhere that amethyst improve mental concentration. So i got out my peice of amehtyst and put it right where my third eye chakra is, and it started to feel tingly in my forehead then about 5 to 8 minutes later i entered the trace state no problem, i got scared becuase my dad came up the stairs to say goodnight, and i couldn't get relaxed agian (my heart was pounding), but has anyone else had an experiance like this with a certian stone?

Derek

I really don't know how to describe it but i'll do my best, It all started about 6 to 7 months back. Its hard to remember but at some point somthing got inside me and i haven't been able to get it out sence. Its been afecting my mind in the weirdest ways, it doesn't want me to get stronger and when i fight it and think what it doesn't want me to and try to do energy trianing, the 'darkness' goes from being manipulative to stoping my energy.
 To describe it, its a ball of negitive energy, it's located right beneath my throat, right where your collar bone connects. It stays there and whenever i try to move energy from my chest chakra (my main chakra i use for energy purposes) it starts acking, not to hurt me just to make me loose focus, and whenever i draw energy from the earth or from my other chakra's it takes it, and when it does take it ,i don't think it uses it against me what i think it does is, 'asorbs' it, like light going into a black hole, it goes somewhere but i don't know where. Its frustrating, becuase it made me loose touch with my friend (and gardian) Temm, and not only that but i can't do anything. I know it doesn't sound like much, but everytime i 'kill' it, it comes back twice as resistant (not strong).
 I dunno thats all i can really say, i've tried to even use a 'furry' attack, my gardian taught me how, its like your body gets filled with energy and time slows down a bit, you mind works faster and you can do amazing things, i even got rid of a some negitive energy in my friend when something attacked her, thats what amazes me about this negitive energy, its not like i don't know what i'm doing. It only comes around when i'm doing energy work. i dunno any suggestions would be great (although i think i tryed everything lol) kk, please message me, i need the advice.

Thanks,
Lemming

One tech i always use to get in touch with my higher self, is to create a ball of energy in your head, and have on the end of this energy a 'connection cable', then send the ball to your higher self, with the message for it to send it back. I'm not sure if this is anything but just simply tricking myself, but it works for me.

Hope that helps,
Derek