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haha i guess i use the demon term loosely.

i was more turning towards my questions of .. so .. when i wake up, if ive had a dream where someones poking me, or grabbing me etc. why is it when i wake up i can still feel where they were grabbing me ?

also, why is it that sometimes i feel like there is an invisible barrier not allowing me to move a certain way ? is there anyway i can get past that ?

and .. id like to add another question,

i projected today, and when i do project, i'll have maybe 5 or 6 experiences in a row since i pull myself back in everytime i go into sleep paralysis.  why sometimes is it that i can feel myself having an OBE, but i can't exactly see very easily ? usuallyu around the 4th or 5th  experience i'll feel myself tapping where people have told me my "third eye"(?) is to try and get my eyes to open.  i dont understand how things are blurry during certain experiences and crystal clear in others ...

i had a projection last night

- stood up, wanted to go outside - thats what i normally do, i like to explore haha, something wouldnt let me turn towards the door so i looked to the right, seen my stepdad sitting on the couch, told him i was bored and wanted to go out and have sex, he looked scary.
my mom looked creepy too, sitting next to him on a chair. creepin me out, so i asked her if she wanted a foot massage. i started to give her one but her legs started stretching out and pushing into my stomach, it old her i wanted to have sex too .. lol ( i dunno what was with me, haha )

i looked into the kitchen seen my brother but he fell down or something and my stepdad came out of the kitchen and started attacking me and grabbed my side of my stomach, i was holding him bac k, his face was the face of a demon , didnt like the sight of those damn teeth and ugly face so while i was holding him back i was just thinking, screw this so i woke up and went to sleep on the other chair ahaha

* so .. when i wake up, if ive had a dream where someones poking me, or grabbing me etc. why is it when i wake up i can still feel where they were grabbing me ?

also, why is it that sometimes i feel like there is an invisible barrier not allowing me to move a certain way ? is there anyway i can get past that ?

whenever i feel scared, sometimes ill pull myself back to real life i guess i could say

sometimes you just gotta tell them to fACK offff and leave you alone, have a free spirited good attitude about it and theyll go away usually sometimes theyre really persistant and i dont feel like i wanna deal with them so i just wake up .. haha

another thing i do, is if im scared i change my emotions.  ill make myself feel happy and say " i LOVE you !! " and theyll change to something nice, haha

i dont really understand it myself, but keeping a good carefree attitude about it makes it easy and fun to deal with