Hey, ive been reading and learning the astral scene for about a year now, without much accual persuit other than reading and weird un-sure non-successful atempts, and odd & brief waking dreams.
Ive been reading alot more recently and about 10 minutes ago I gave it a fully attentive attempt. So, while its fresh im my mind I will try to explain it if anyone is at all interested. I havent really liked laying flat on my back, so I went out into my living room on this nice plush recliner. Then, proceded to just basically, relax, and keep my mind focused on just remaining awake and not getting antsy, just going with the flow of it. What happend next was my body became more and more relaxed, that is to say, my neck down.
I seemed to have trouble keeping my eyes shut, as if my body was completly asleep but I could at an instant open my eyes and look around if I wanted to, and it was hard to ignore the sound of a fan. and im sure if the fan was off, I would hear how loud silence can be at times [
]. Anyhow I figured that my acustic and visual senses would follow my sense of touch eventually (which it seemed to be fully asleep and numb). After my mind was fairly clear and not much jumped into my head other than proceeding. Then I tried what Ive read about where you try to visualize yourself moving, or falling through the bed/chair, Which lead me to the main experence.
I began feeling my body sway and move about like weird swaying at an un-known tidelike feeling. But the thing is its almost as if you broke down projecting into 3 parts like sight, hearing and touch, (nevermind those lousy smell and taste senses []) I would say that my body/touch was way more ready to go and it was this off balance of overly-tactile asleep body, and lack of visual and hearing (mind too awake lol) that was a weird part of this whole experence. Perhapse I have drank too much pop today because im kinda wired even now [
].
but what happend next kinda took a turn for the worse, and im having trouble remimbering and finding explination for what happend. It is as if I started off not fully realizing what extactly it is to project, and just trying it out just because it interests me, like waiting in line for a roller coaster ride as a child. once its your turn (I dont know what your first roller coaster ride expereinces are like but I think its a good example) it can be very very frightening. and as I felt my body squirming and alot of touch-sensory stuff, I paniced. my heart pounded, and I still remained very calm and assesed and rationalized what I was feeling. and over all it wasn't very pleasent, and I asked myself "do I really want to go out?" and just like my first rollercoast ride, as I got closer to the sounds of people yelling/screaming (fun-screams! []) and the loud carts barling around on the tracks, I chickend out (Just like when I was younger and aproached the ride). After it sort of peaked my heart pounded harder and I sort of came back to my waking senses, and I started to feel pretty sick, and shaken up sort of like being near an accident or some alarming thing. (probably because my body would naturaly associate what I was doing with death) not to say it will stop me, but it gives me a good idea of what will needs to be overcome if I want to try again.
This whole topic has been much longer than I Intended, and im not sure if this is even the proper thread or if anyone is interested. But I guess the thing is when it came down to it I was very divided as to if it is right to project, or if I want to...
-thanks for reading [
]
Ive been reading alot more recently and about 10 minutes ago I gave it a fully attentive attempt. So, while its fresh im my mind I will try to explain it if anyone is at all interested. I havent really liked laying flat on my back, so I went out into my living room on this nice plush recliner. Then, proceded to just basically, relax, and keep my mind focused on just remaining awake and not getting antsy, just going with the flow of it. What happend next was my body became more and more relaxed, that is to say, my neck down.
I seemed to have trouble keeping my eyes shut, as if my body was completly asleep but I could at an instant open my eyes and look around if I wanted to, and it was hard to ignore the sound of a fan. and im sure if the fan was off, I would hear how loud silence can be at times [
]. Anyhow I figured that my acustic and visual senses would follow my sense of touch eventually (which it seemed to be fully asleep and numb). After my mind was fairly clear and not much jumped into my head other than proceeding. Then I tried what Ive read about where you try to visualize yourself moving, or falling through the bed/chair, Which lead me to the main experence.I began feeling my body sway and move about like weird swaying at an un-known tidelike feeling. But the thing is its almost as if you broke down projecting into 3 parts like sight, hearing and touch, (nevermind those lousy smell and taste senses [
]) I would say that my body/touch was way more ready to go and it was this off balance of overly-tactile asleep body, and lack of visual and hearing (mind too awake lol) that was a weird part of this whole experence. Perhapse I have drank too much pop today because im kinda wired even now [].but what happend next kinda took a turn for the worse, and im having trouble remimbering and finding explination for what happend. It is as if I started off not fully realizing what extactly it is to project, and just trying it out just because it interests me, like waiting in line for a roller coaster ride as a child. once its your turn (I dont know what your first roller coaster ride expereinces are like but I think its a good example) it can be very very frightening. and as I felt my body squirming and alot of touch-sensory stuff, I paniced. my heart pounded, and I still remained very calm and assesed and rationalized what I was feeling. and over all it wasn't very pleasent, and I asked myself "do I really want to go out?" and just like my first rollercoast ride, as I got closer to the sounds of people yelling/screaming (fun-screams! [
]) and the loud carts barling around on the tracks, I chickend out (Just like when I was younger and aproached the ride). After it sort of peaked my heart pounded harder and I sort of came back to my waking senses, and I started to feel pretty sick, and shaken up sort of like being near an accident or some alarming thing. (probably because my body would naturaly associate what I was doing with death) not to say it will stop me, but it gives me a good idea of what will needs to be overcome if I want to try again.This whole topic has been much longer than I Intended, and im not sure if this is even the proper thread or if anyone is interested. But I guess the thing is when it came down to it I was very divided as to if it is right to project, or if I want to...
-thanks for reading [
]