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To answer a few of the questions/concerns above...

Again I must reiterate that I do not consider any spiritual energies as being "evil", in the commonly-understood sense of the term that "lay-people" may have about it.  I mean they are bad, and only in the idea that they are malevolent energies with regard to harmony and peace.  They are, in a word, "wilders".  Not meaning to cause a particular harm, but rather just harmful to the finer sensitivities of those who do not desire or condone conflict.

I am far behind the curve when it comes to the current vernacular regarding levels of awareness in other-than-waking states of consciousness, and thusly I am in the dark when it comes to discussions of "focus levels".  On the other hand, I do not need to know the meaning behind those terms when I can tell you that what I experience is NOT simply a recurring dream or an aspect of a subconsciousness, as someone above postulated.  And this genre of experience is not just a mall, but an entire cityscape with much more than just the "mall".  Basically, the mall is usually where I find myself in the beginning of the experience, before branching off and exploring other parts of this place.  It is not the entire experience, but the main constant.

I have come to learn through my subjective experiences that dreams and dreaming, at least for me, are far removed from being "symbolic" or allegorical or metaphoric.  They ARE true journeys outside of my sleeping husk of a body, if you will.  Experiences that can be and have been MORE vivid and "real" than what I experience in this waking state.  Ergo, I am not experiencing a "recurring dream", but am constantly going back to this same place many times per month, and sometimes there are slight variations to the environment as compared to the previous experience.  Some might call them OBE's, some others may call it AP, and yet some others may say a dream where an AP is dreamt, kind of like a dream where the dreamer dreams that he is dreaming and during that dreamer's dream he dreams that he is projecting.

There are so many points I wish to make on this one single aspect of this subject alone, but I have neither the time nor the mental dexterity to attempt that at this moment. 

I just wanted to clarify a few things as I read those responses above.

One other point I wish to reiterate here is that I never suggested that the API was a negative place, and I do not feel that speaking of this subject would "send negative vibrations" to the Island.  In my original post I was only stating that the journey itself could lead folks astray and into territories with which they may not be prepared or expect, as what happened to me.  Although, now that I see that there is a collective effort to reach an island with a particular geography and purpose, I will try to reach it!  Would be fun to actually succeed at something like this without falling off the jogger's path, as it were.

That's it for now. 

Hoo.   

 

Hi all, this is HooVooLoo.  It has been some years since I last logged onto AP. 

I just wanted to put out a word of caution regarding this API project.

When I first joined the site, I had been posting a diary of my dreams.  Soon thereafter, I had come up with an idea for people to try to start attempting to meet on an island of sorts, as they were dreaming.  In my mind, and as I had posted it, I had asked folks to visualize simply an island like the ones you see in the comics pages...A lone island with one or two palm trees, and just sand all around.

Shortly thereafter, I lost touch with the AP forums.  In the meanwhile, my "experiment" took on a life of it's own.  I found myself in a common place, but it was not an island...It was, and still is, a "mall" of sorts, with shops, parking areas, a local university/school a few blocks from the shopping area, an airport, etc.  I have never seen an area like this in my waking state.

Since that first day (or night, as it were), I have been unintentionally visiting this "island" of sorts at least 3 times per week.  But this "experiment" has gone awry.  I keep meeting the same people, encountering the same "psychological gestalts", going through the same experiences in my altered state no matter how I try to "lay me down".

There is a part of me that keeps trying to intimate that it is a variation of Los Angeles, which is odd.  I have never been there in "real life".  But the streets, the shops, the elevators, the people, they are all so REAL!.  I KNOW I am there, but in or on a different "level of focus."

While it is exciting to experience this island of sorts, I must admit a fear that has developed after experiencing this particular reality over and over again...I cannot "turn it off".  I cannot control when or how I find myself there.  And there are characters there, in this mall/city, that I have not invited.  Some of these characters are very bad folks.  I mean, BAD.  I will not go as far as saying that they are "evil entities" trying some sort of skullduggery with my mind and spirit, for they are not.  I will say, however, that they are true, real energies/personalities/spirits/what-have-you, that are now constantly in my altered state of existence.  I can neither "make them go away" nor control them in any manner.  They are just always there, participating in my altered state.  I have actually gone to battle with a few of them in some sort of mental or spiritual sense, yet the outcome could not possibly be explained in physical terms.

I am not sure if Adrian et al. were the ones to start the API experiment afresh, or if my old idea was possibly an impetus for it.  The bottom line that I wish to make quite clear to everyone who reads this is... Please make darn sure that you go into any mental experiment like this with a cavalcade of strength and a steely resolve.  Please do not end up like me and get stuck in a side-reality freak-show of bad entities that you cannot escape from.  If you take some spiritual armor with you, you won't get hurt. 

I am now slowly reinforcing my own particular armor needed for this "spiritual war" that I am engaged in, and am fairing better each day (night).  But believe me when I say...if you get stuck in any part of a spiritual war off-guard, such as what may happen if you meet the wrong sort on the API, you won't have a happy time of it.

Please, think about this as you attempt to project to your tropical pyramid.

Hoo