I would say that you was ready to receive some part of your HIgher self or you could say part of yourself that is more inteligent and not only based on the animal/culture informations.
When this happened to me first time the first problem i had was 'This reality sucks' i dont want to be here anymore,and i basicly spent a lot of time doing meditation and other things i was doing this for 4-6 hours a day,i wanted to find a way to get out of this world.
But later i had some experiencies about 'Duality',i was not able to understand why 'bad things' exist,but after learning the means of the duality that makes the universe of hot/cold,good/bad,Tall/small i was able to stop resisting reality after understanding that there is no way to exist without duality.
Now i am happy to live on this world,and everything that happens i can easily acess my 'higher self' and get the meaning of what happened.
When this happened to me first time the first problem i had was 'This reality sucks' i dont want to be here anymore,and i basicly spent a lot of time doing meditation and other things i was doing this for 4-6 hours a day,i wanted to find a way to get out of this world.
But later i had some experiencies about 'Duality',i was not able to understand why 'bad things' exist,but after learning the means of the duality that makes the universe of hot/cold,good/bad,Tall/small i was able to stop resisting reality after understanding that there is no way to exist without duality.
Now i am happy to live on this world,and everything that happens i can easily acess my 'higher self' and get the meaning of what happened.