Thank you GodsProxy, Ryan and everyone here for your kind messages, I appreciate it very much and it is good to know that even online people are here to help you when you really need it. I have been heavely depressed for months now and I sleep so much every day that I'm almost guaranteed to experience OBEs and I can't tell you how badly I want to live in this "other world"
I feel like it is useless to experience all this pain here on Earth and even though some people are here to help you, WHY do we come here with no idea of where we come from and what we are suppose to accomplish, I think it is so stupid and that's why this world is so evil, we are left alone with all our problems and no one tries to make sense of anything, there is just a deep sense of chaos and real sadness.
I want to be happy, that's my only goal, my only wish, the only thing I'm pursuing every single day, but sadly, I think that there is no way to be happy on Earth, there are too much people, too much trouble, not enough space for everyone to realise each single dream. In the astral realms, just a single thought will change your world while here, a single thought is doing nothing and you have to lick people's as* for years to get what you want, it is so stupid, so unfair. On this earth you have to be mean to get what you want, you need to step over people and be a backstabber but quite franclky I dont want to deal with that and don't feel like I need to raise my voice to be heard or do anything else that requires too much effort on my part...it is just so ...stupid and evil!
I feel like it is useless to experience all this pain here on Earth and even though some people are here to help you, WHY do we come here with no idea of where we come from and what we are suppose to accomplish, I think it is so stupid and that's why this world is so evil, we are left alone with all our problems and no one tries to make sense of anything, there is just a deep sense of chaos and real sadness.
I want to be happy, that's my only goal, my only wish, the only thing I'm pursuing every single day, but sadly, I think that there is no way to be happy on Earth, there are too much people, too much trouble, not enough space for everyone to realise each single dream. In the astral realms, just a single thought will change your world while here, a single thought is doing nothing and you have to lick people's as* for years to get what you want, it is so stupid, so unfair. On this earth you have to be mean to get what you want, you need to step over people and be a backstabber but quite franclky I dont want to deal with that and don't feel like I need to raise my voice to be heard or do anything else that requires too much effort on my part...it is just so ...stupid and evil!