I know this has been asked here before, although in different ways, so I wanted to see if what I am experiencing is the same as others.
First off, a brief background history, seeing as this is my first post: When I was a child, I used to astral project all the time. So much, in fact, that it was difficult for me to separate reality from the astral realm (although I was always in my home or in areas near my home - I never experienced different planes. At least not consciously).
My problem is consciously astral projecting. I know it happens when I'm asleep and quite often, but I want to be aware of it while it is happening, not just remember bits and pieces when I awake. I want to have control. So I've been working on meditation before sleep. I can usually get to the vibrational state quite easily and I can focus this energy and control it, moving it from my lower body to my upper body and even making it go through my body in waves. After this state, when I am entirely relaxed and my body feels as if it's huge, swollen and heavy, and right when I think I can focus on exiting, I start getting this rush of very uncomfortable energy; my heart beats very quickly and my breathing becomes more rapid. I try to control this and focus on exiting my physical body, but then I just feel my limbs jerking and all this energy is almost jolting me. It becomes so uncomfortable I have to force myself to move and get up.
I've read that this is common and this is the state you are in before you actually exit - that this energy is your astral body getting ready for exit - is this true? And if so, since I'm apparently on the right track, how can I focus on actually leaving my body when I reach this uncomfortable state?
First off, a brief background history, seeing as this is my first post: When I was a child, I used to astral project all the time. So much, in fact, that it was difficult for me to separate reality from the astral realm (although I was always in my home or in areas near my home - I never experienced different planes. At least not consciously).
My problem is consciously astral projecting. I know it happens when I'm asleep and quite often, but I want to be aware of it while it is happening, not just remember bits and pieces when I awake. I want to have control. So I've been working on meditation before sleep. I can usually get to the vibrational state quite easily and I can focus this energy and control it, moving it from my lower body to my upper body and even making it go through my body in waves. After this state, when I am entirely relaxed and my body feels as if it's huge, swollen and heavy, and right when I think I can focus on exiting, I start getting this rush of very uncomfortable energy; my heart beats very quickly and my breathing becomes more rapid. I try to control this and focus on exiting my physical body, but then I just feel my limbs jerking and all this energy is almost jolting me. It becomes so uncomfortable I have to force myself to move and get up.
I've read that this is common and this is the state you are in before you actually exit - that this energy is your astral body getting ready for exit - is this true? And if so, since I'm apparently on the right track, how can I focus on actually leaving my body when I reach this uncomfortable state?