sounds quite profound what you went through. In regards to what you are doing and your ex, I would stay away from visiting. All break ups are hard, hard as to what lessons you need to go through at that time/phase. Do the only road - no contact. Hard as F%$# at first, but its the best course to take IMO.
I would use your astral self to ask the creator what is your higher self or anything to find out some deep seated issues.
I heard this from an amazing scientist, Dan Winter, "You need passion and change to ignite your inner bliss. Once you achieve bliss, your sound waves from your heart comes into harmony which braids your DNA. So, bliss is the purpose of having DNA.
Think about that one...
Keep chasing your bliss......
I would use your astral self to ask the creator what is your higher self or anything to find out some deep seated issues.
I heard this from an amazing scientist, Dan Winter, "You need passion and change to ignite your inner bliss. Once you achieve bliss, your sound waves from your heart comes into harmony which braids your DNA. So, bliss is the purpose of having DNA.
Think about that one...
Keep chasing your bliss......