Thank you very much for sharing your experience. we all went through this hesitating moments, it's not weird because you're experiecing something new to your body and mind and it's normal that we react different to this experience. I found alot of help reading different book about the subject and actually it opened my eyes to many different angle that i was not really paying intention to it.
hope this help a bit and sorry for my english, it's not my native language
hope to stay in touch
peace
hope this help a bit and sorry for my english, it's not my native language
hope to stay in touch
peace