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Lets talk about auraic sight for a minut..

i just started to have it i think!  i don't really think i see aruas around colors... but i do see them around my hand and around some people.

Today i had a job interview, and the psychologist doing the interview was sitting in front of me befor a white board...    this guy was lit up!  he is definatly a powerful person, smart and the like... but seing this goldenish display definatly prooved i was seeing what i was seeing... it extended about an inch/half inch around his head and sholders.

i also notice one around my professors in class, and like i said i have noticed em around my hand for a while.

oh, and i think i noticed it above a tree once, but i only noticed it when my eyes where moving... and it looked like it had more branches growing up above it...   im leary about that one but i did see somthing so eh'   (its getting to the point where i have to question EVERYTHING i see now)

i don't think its so much a color though...  aside from the interviewer who definatly was workin with some yellow, most of the aura i have seen, including my own, is just a... distortion of the background.......   like mine (i can see it now with my hand in front of the screen) is a very faint hew of blue i suppose, but its basicaly about a milimeter of... diffrent white...   or somthing... like a whiter white...

questions: ok... i kinda got this skill from simply... asking... for it (i do occasionaly do the opening eye sensation... and i think its also just generaly related to my energy raising and chakra stimulation) but i really just sorta got it from... asking for it, or.. dare i say, willing it.   i suppose if i keep this up it will continue to improve, But, i ask, is there anything else i can do to improve/stimulate/ this... skill?

and/ does the energy or worth of a person determine how much of the aura they have? (seems like it... as alvins was crutial and others arn't!)  if so... i need more becase mine is kinda slacking! (i mean its more than others but it aint enough if thats a determinant of something)

Also... it LOOKS like if i put two of my fingers together, and charge my hands (specificaly fingers, SPECIFICALY the area Between them) i see what looks like... a sturring of the area between them... or maby a briging? of the distortions??   i don't know

There is also the possibilty that im just crazy...  

Oh, and next time i take a psychoactive, or better yet Empathyinapill i can't wait too look at auras... (somthing tells me i will be in for a suprize)

Any thoughts/suggestions?

alright man... its 1:15... i was waching the burbs (awsome movie)... walk back in the room, tv is on a diffrent channel. im the only one in the room, and i woudln't have changed it (hbo)...  Normaly i would be like 'uh... ok'

BUT, about an hour or so earlyer i was in my room on the phone with one of my boys, when my room door creaks... then OPENS up a crack.    i always close my door and lock it.. i may not have locked it, (i didn't hear the click when it opend) but i ALWAYS close it...

MAN...   i have been on here befor talking about what i can only describe as an 'experience' that i have had a few time (some of you sugest that it was an AP... i dunno i couldn't tell you...  (tell you one thing... no more drugs for me!)

Every night i do the energy building deal (NEW) and a few other practices of my invention... (basicaly i showermyself with a godly white light, then try to feel myself floating in a sea of existance to connect me to everything (i get an actual floating sensation so i guess its working)...                

im still newish to all the spirituality but i believe there is more going on than MTV and CNN...

Anyway, today seems like some straight up polturgist shyt!   i mean... doors don't open and channels don't change, without someone affecting them...                

any thoughts?

Has anyone tried the recapy in on the tool album?   after a bunch of industrial noises some one starts chanting in german, the uneducated would think its a hitler speach, but its not, he is saying some recapy called 'the balls of satan'   my german is not great but it sounds like its mostly eggs chocholot and hashish, but theres some otehr stuff to and then you say some encantation while making it and i think there was some otehr sthings you have to observe...   anyone willing to eat em and tell me what happens??

if you are channeling a (kinda like the god from dogma) reprenentation of god, could you help me with words?

your strange turns of events are confusing the heck out of me, all i ask of you at this point in time... well two things...

Am i on the right track? (easy answer, im sure its going to be an abstract form of yes)

and more specifically, what are the words, or actions, or motions, or thoughts or whatever to crack that riddle you have presented me in the form of a stained painting?

i tried the breaking open thing and that has NO effect on my chest at all... i can stimulate my brow chacra just by thinking about it, and the crown i feel i can get going somewhat...    but the body... nothing

how do i get them cranking?   i figure im gunna need all my jucie flowing if im going to OBE

I have been attempting to study magic for about 4 months now... and so far its been a WHOLE lot of reading and VERY little understanding.

erally i think i just need a proper initation and mentoring, becase reading the cryptic books of a bunch of long dead mages aimlessly isn't working...

but specifically... i want to know how i can project my will into other people... sort of make people not so much do what i want (im not evil) but make them more willing to agree with me so to say. I would have manny good uses for such an ability and skill, both to further my own ends, but also to help others in distructive situations.

Now, from what i have read about magic there seems to be a fine line between what is hocus pocus and what is necisary to (make ones mind perform the tast?) accomplish the procidure

Personally i lean twoards teh idea that the results of magic are functions of the human brain/mind triggerd/accessed by the ceramony... then again i could be wrong, after i stoped studying magic for a period i had several experiences (or visions or somthing) that shook up my beliefs... (see my post under phychic defence)

in conclusion my requests are
1. if some one could teach me an effective process for bringing others under my control (horrible way to put it but basically...)
and 2. if some one could point me in a proper direction of education (that dosn't involve me reading 100 books that i hardly understand... take Crowley... i can understand him when he writes scientifically, but the other stuff...)

any feedback would be welcome, i again would like to make it clear that i am a servant of good, i try to adhear to my own chivalric principles and loveing values

A few weeks ago i would have called all of you crazy...

that was untill i started being contacted by who the hell knows what.

It started a few months ago with a horrifing dream? one night. I found myself in my bed but then out of nowhere i become paralized and my body begins to vibrate and feel like rolling on X with subs pumping. at the same time as this everything i looked at was vibrating and warping. At the time i thought as though i was having some kind of trip flashback (though i have never done acid) or some kind of sezure. but regardless i dismissed it as some strange occurence.

few days later somthing happens again... this time much diffrent. same situation while i was in bed, in what seemed like the relm between sleep and awake, i was again paralized by some unknownity.. this time though, instead of seeing my room all triptified, i instead saw all white static (like a tv on no channel) but i could make out my computerscreen "That was donstairs!" and i could make out some kind of face...

Now, understand that everytime this happens, i have become quite excited and full of fear, my heart would pound and i wouldn't know what was going on... BUT, i would make it stop by saying in my mind over and over again that god loves me and god will protect me from the evils.

And so that has worked so far... as the visions have been mannyso... i think about 10 so far...

Now... the LAST ... vision... i had (thursday night) was the first time that whatever was going on actually felt evil... this time i was in my bed enjoying a typical dream when i became aware that i was in my room laying in the position that i actually was... this time i felt some entity coming up my stairs, then actually into my room and actually felt it over my back... then i heard a loud buzzing growl and felt some kind of sensation on my back... untill i banished it away with my typical prayers to god.

Now... tonight but a half hour ago... in a fit of anger and bravery i challenged whatever was attacking me... i told it that it stood no chance against me and the power of god and all the like...  right after i was done saying that... my nose started gushing blood.

WTF IS THAT!  if this is all in my subconcious then DAG! if its actually a melevolent sperit then i think it accepted my challenge and will attack me tonight or soon...      

Now... i have to accept the responcability... for a college paper i researched Magic... all types in fact, and i even performed some experiments of my own... i now fear that i have gone through the looking glass and attracted beings too me. i also fear that not all of those visions where evil, some seemed trying to aid me... but this last one was definatly evil, and the NOSE BLEED! i mean geez!    

I come befor you humbled (proud person that i am) and seek genuine aid and guidence. I know the power of god will protect me, and with his word are they bannished and my soul saved, but i present myself to you seeking what i can do to defend and to remove/bannish/destroy thies melevolent things coming to me... if thats what they are...

Please, advise me.

i never said i was frightend... a little alarmed at first... but not frightend, in fact at night when my water disapeared i started laughing and told him/it/whatever/ to stop playing tricks on me


anyway i think it has happend again a few times, definatly odd stuff... and i notice if im in a lit room i will see, in an adjacent dark room, movement in my perifrial vision... knowing there is no one back there



also kinda unrelated, when im outside and look into the sky (i see them other times/places but outside is teh most prominent) i see tiny spheres? flying around... i mean small, the size of . i guess there clear, and they are all over, at all distances (i can change my focus and hone in on diffrent ones) and they fly around in seemingly random paths... and the seem to appear, travel a few millimeters, then disapear'              

but i saw theis long befor any energy raising (that i was aware of)... i think it was even befor my AMT experience (a drug i recoment you only do if you want to change the world you live in forever)... but then who knows, i honestly think im going through some sort of that kundili deal, where everything is changeing in me.. (well the way the world exists anyway)

Khuli, thats definatly it'   i never had it befor though... and it is diffrent colors and diffrent lengths for diffrent people, so i don't think its just some visual tick...

and mine is a light blue that i can BEARLY see, and that looking through techniuque your talking about makes it go away lol... i think im going to stick to how i have been doing it, buy just looking at it realy and asking it to get better!     i also bring to fingers together try to run energy between them... and pull them apart... i can see the aura between them a little longer than everywhere else, and i think it applys to my sight as far as making it better...    

but then who knows this aint normal! lol

exactly kakkarot,    No one wants to be a crack head, no one.

An update, the girl hates me now, (i think my magic experiments worked... just not the right way lol) and one of my friends is in jail on an unrelated situation...

and believe me, i DONT think candles and wands and crap do anything, aside from perhaps providing out minds a crutch to perform whatever it is they are capeable of.

I think i have found abetter answer than continously trying to help thies people. instead, i will just destroy my affection for thies people... and to compinsate for the lack of outward affection, i will increase my loving touch to other people (people with easy problems, somthing i am capable of alliveing at my current level).  I feel giving up on those other dear friends is horrible... but alas, i cannot give my love to thies black holes forever.

My method to destroying thies affections, i enter a state of trance... the moment consern or heartache arises over thies people, i bombard that portion of my mind with both a realeasing and reconfiguration command (much like banashing bad images in the mind)

works pretty well so far (its been about a week since i have cared, even after being tested, any disapointment i felt lasted about 20 minuts, solved with music).

All in all... i am still looking for magical guidence out there guys... but befor while i was reading about somthing i didn't understand, now i am starting to understand and then reading about what it was i came to understand (if that makes sence... basicaly im starting to feel around somewher i can't naturaly sence)

i could just be crazy... but since i have been generating energy (care of mr. bruce) and using my own devised chakra stimulation process (involving an insperation i got under the influence of MDMA... i could actualy see mine, and other peoples, expanding with my eyelids closed), and some rituals (all within my mind) i devised to reverberate me throught all things...

While i don't know if i am doing things right/doing things wrong/doing things at all!-  i know i have been doing somthing... i can feel the diffrence... im starting to sence things i never had befor, my thoughts become clearer, my understanding of myself and the world around me has broadend and enhanced, and most alarmingly i am starting to see... something... like a vail hanging over my vision of an ever fluxuating... somthing of color and movement.

perhaps its a biochemical problem in my brain, perhaps its in my eyes (but web MD don't think so) but perhaps im seeing somthing... else...

i think i will also post about my vision change on the other part of the page about auric sight or what have you... maby someone else has seen this


Anyway... screw those people, i need to work on helping myself first, then when im strong enough i can lift the worlds bricks. Any thoughts?

i definatly did not change the channel, and the door making noies first, then a second opening up...   i mean geesh...          

as for my 'ap'ing (if thats what it was) two of the times i felt like a bad presance was around, (often afterwards the pattend evil pictures arose)    so i assume i have gotten the attention of somthing else   (carrying a rosary and other affermations seems to have stoped all that)



As for the sea... while in a trance (i guess) and after doing a lot of energy raising, ill imagine the gloryus light penitrating me, i feel the sensation of somthing pearcing all of me downwards like the light, then after this i will get the feeling of floating (and as i picture the sea, and its currents of energy, i actualy do feel the currents lapping against and through me, and often i seem to be able to feel the current extending out around me,(though this could be a created responce)     again... any thoughts?

I am dieing for some breakthrough esperience (and i am looking for DMT to rocket me there!) and i hope to attain all types of mystical mumbujoobo... but thats another topic

but... yeah... any thoughts?

i agree i am well aware that my actions are not always in my best intrest, as a person i feel accustomed to a level of dissapointment if you would,  i find my convictions and my believe in life after death are the only things keeping me in check. but thats a whole nother story

Actually, i just got done doing my homework for psychology, and yes, i have read about hitlers mind control techniques... A good book on the subject of mind control is 'The Battle For Your Mind' (the author escapes me) and yes, i do have a healthy relationship skill and i have talked to several of the people in question, on numerous occasion, and manny times my words have done plenty to help them, or help them help themselves. I think many of you believe i seek to accomplish tasks that could easly be done with other methods. Believe me, to the best of my abilities i have failed in all other mediums. I come to you, this speritual comunity in hopes that you may possess another tool to perform great works. For your consideration, lets look at three of my subjects.

1. One is a young girl, whom i love dearly. this girl has some serious self esteem problems, i believe that stem from her abuseive family life, her mother, a raving alchoholic, and her father, an abuisive crackhead (fortunatly no longer living with them), her younger sister, wracked with several mental ailments of her own, and an older sister that has left.    She has taken the role and responcabiltiy of the mother of the family (at only 15). on top of this she has been addicted to cocain and x, and has been rapped twice and gone through a period of overt promiscuity. Needless to say she has issues that i constantly try to help her with. our relationship is only friendship, but i do love the child and pity her greatly. (for those that would say give up on her, you never truly loved some one)

2. Then there are my two old best friends. Thies guys, very dear to me as well, do battle with the worst of all 'NEGS', cocaine addiction. both dealers of various substances, they constantly go in and out of deep submission to that horrible substance that can sap souls and crush dreams. I have often supported them in there clean periods and i constantly reach out to them in there times of deep addiction

Both parties the only option other than self help would be commition into aid facilities. for the girl, she won't accept that, and for the guys, it would result in jailtime, somthing i have experience and would wish on no man. you see my delema here... aside from major profecinall help that would damage there position in life there only hope is self actuilation and i dearly try to help them achive this. if magic can suceed where my words and actions have failed, then it is my duty to do it, not my Ego.

but how do you know who is really controling who? are 'they' controling you by making everyhing around you aranged so that you have thus thoughts? or are you in more control than you relize and it all is a direct result of how you precive it?

don't mind me im just tripping

you guys went about way off topic, but intresting none the less... when im not... pressed for time...  i will write my thoughts on the above

I think i have my ego undercontrol, in that i try to not have one, but i am aware of myself and i do have my wants, and some of them i would like fullfiled.

by bringing people to my side of the argument, i can help myself and i honesty believe i can help others with my aid, on the outside, and in extream cases from the inside out

In the mean time i devote much of my life to study, and to social interaction. I am a good speaker, but some people are stubborn and or seriously damaged in there mind, i am currendy studying phychology amung other classes to help make the world abetter place one person at a time, and i new a practice to make things happen the way i want them to, i think i could further help the people i cross.

If karma dictates that helping people against there will is wrong, than i will accept the responcibilty.  in my understanding of god (higher power/s what have you) he smiles upon charity and good works, and dosn't have a problem with people getting things for there own here and there.

It looks like no one is willing to give me the information i seek, without knowing my true character i understand. I would be very gracious if some one would be willing to instruct me on perhaps just some basics, as so that i can lean to understand 'the way of things' on my own. a pm or an im would suffice, but a post on here so everone may benifit would be appreciated to, thank you

...  what do you mean by feel the magic?

i think im starting to feel energy... ill notice my hands will tingle over sertan things and in the air occasonaly... when i focus on em, and i do the NEW stuff...

but feel the magic?

perhaps i am willing to accept the consiquences...

and as for the information being out there... i have about 2 books sitting on my hard drive from authors older than the hills, who is an auther that writes understandable information that i can go aquire.

when i move to baltimore i consider seeking out a GD lodge but it seems to me like any orginization seeking to improve mankind, for a price, dosn't soudn that enlightend

this was supposed to go on the thread where some moderator was supposed to be channeling god, i figured i would ask

(is it wrong to listen to three six mafia while thinking about god?)

after knowing this much... how can i just stop? i guess i understand that if i am good and my intentions are good than the bad cannot harm me, and i want to serve the good, where do i go to understand more.

Fortunatly nothing happend to me last night... but that may becase i didn't go to sleep till the sun was up, thies things always seem to happen in the early morning wile still dark (3-4 o clock). I find it decerning that all i can really do is continue to fend them off with gods help (whatver it is, when i say 'god protects me' it works). it would be nice if i understood thies things more and new better how to get rid of them forever, but it sounds like im always going to be aware of the not normal.

What steps can i take to fix myself? or better yet what can i do to... understand more...    i mean if thies bad things exist then good things have to exist as well? how do i get good things to approach me? maby they can help?

Another thing... do thies things make you hear people say things that they didn't say? or make you see things that arn't right?  (about 4 occasions now my friends or father will ask me what the hell im talking about becase i miss hear somthing they said)  

I just hope im not going crazy... i think now that im calmed down i have much better grip