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Hi, I'm new to this forum.  I have searched for years, the meaning of 2 experiances.  I have had many but always found some logical explaination.  Both occured during the day & when I was home alone. In the 1st...It was a Sat. Morning & I was busy doing dishes & cleaning. While walking through my rooms & into the bedrooms to pick up laundry to wash...my mind went blank & I found myself paralized/ standing in position.  Suddenly, I felt a pressure start at the top of my head & travel slowly down through my body, down to my feet & out. Mentally, my mind was clear of any dialog but my awareness was directed to the sensation. After about a minute...I felt the sensation start from the bottom of my feet...travel up through my body & out through the top of my head. (not up the spine) Then I felt a release & found myself walking again.  I sat on the edge of the bed & had a feeling of being "violated."  At the time, had no health problems nor used any type of medication.                             In the 2nd...about 3 yrs. later...was returning home from working all night at a DVD plant when I walked into the kitchen door. I just put my thermos down on the table & was heading for the coffee maker to make fresh...when all of a sudden...I experianced a hard, sharp physical blow to my stomach area which dropped me to my knees in front of the refrigerator. Yet, I was the only one there! All my senses were directed on the pain from the sharp blow to my stomach. Then a feeling of impending death...a knowing & everything went black. As I awoke, it was dark but for the light coming through a front window facing the street. I was laying in front of the refrigerator. I got up, turned on the kitchen light & sat at the table.  I had lost 14 hours (from coming home in the morning from work until waking up?) Hours earlier, I had felt at death's door. Now I had a feeling of complete health?  I had to call into work (sick) for there was not enough time to shower/change & get there in time for my shift.  Any suggestions to either of these experiances?

Hi Everyone,
In regards to the gun issue at hand, I sense that it has been carefully planned in advance with other factors involved, that pertain to FEMA & Homeland Security.

The bait...is giving back a supposed freedom that was limited.  A few carefully planned "incidents" by the power's that be, & the Prez signs an emergency bill to allow FEMA...door to door searches under the watchful eye of Homeland Security...& you lose the right to bear ANY ARMS!  Therefore, they give alittle bit back & come back & take IT ALL!  Wonder what the web-bot has picked up concerning this? Marianne

Hello again, I felt I needed to clarify a point.  My isolation, in part, especially in my later years, has been self impossed.  It's not so much psychological as it is physical.  I have gone the root of psychotherapy & partical regression.  
Partical isolation provides me with the ability to determine where & what direction I am being tested, how I am getting hit, under what circumstances, which gives me a more direct way of using mediation to over come & correct the imbalance.
Experiance has suggested that, although the incidents are physical & interupt my daily life, the manifestcation is energy related & an outside force.  I often have felt like a puppet on a string, being manipulated against my better judgement/will by something unseen with a negative atmosphere.  When the air stops feeling heavy around me(the feeling like being in a whirl tunnel of heavy energy) & I reconize that my psychic boundaries are widening, I know intuitively that I have used "my will" to break the connection.  The air around me becomes light & physical problems lighten up.  I know that I'm in another direct attack when I begin to notice the atmoshere around me getting heavy, which usually brings on an infection somewhere in my body.  Feeling drained, I retreat to a quiet spot, outside if possible & try to mediate.  It provides partial relief to the physical symtoms.  I can reason the fact that all this may sound like I have some heavy mental problems, but I can assure you...I am stable of Mind. Because I have trained myself to detect outside influence doesn't make me psychoic.
I feel that Spiritual Quest & Psychic Self Defense....go hand & hand. To raise beyond the negative base of physical existance, to willingly raise above that, you put yourself in line to experiance "God-head" on one end & the negative force that trys to keep you in line on the other.  The ying/yang or opposite forces. My willing intent to experiance Christ conciousness in this lifetime, has brought forces of negative/physical accord.  Trying to identify the outside force is not in my line of experiance.  I have not been gifted or it is being veiled from my senses...to identify this outside force. Constant study & unwaving commitment have not brought to light, the force I am dealing with.  In the mean time, my search goes on while my health deteriates further.  I have come to this web-site for help!  To identify the source & overcome it...before my health leaves me to weak to fight physically.
At one point, several months ago, my condition with fibermylagia forced me to walk with a cain & hop from one chair to the next...just to move around. Just dosing off in a chair would produce sleeping paralsis that would last up to an hour before I could move a finger or toe to break it.  I have experianced no dreams for years. I have since overcome the worst of this condition by strictly adhering to supplementation/vitiamins with high protein supplements, so as not to tax the digestive process in iliminating toxins in my system which the Candida produce.  I should be losing weight by pounds & inches, yet I have gained...which makes no logical sense. Trying to physically keep mobile & infection free takes away my concentration on my Spiritual efforts of study.  And this is exactly what this outside force wants!!!

Hello Rob, I appreciate the reply & most definitely will check out the suggestions!
I have come across material on "reverse speech" recently & will look into it further.  As far as magic, in any of it's related forms, have never practiced.  Something within always tells me "Don't touch!" I do mediate often, mostly before falling asleep, I ask for Protection from the highest Spiritual Source.
Next month I will turn 52.  I have lived my life, mostly in isolation from a very young age, due to the unexplainable happenings around me. As the years have progressed, the experiances/happenings have grown more involved & complicated.
Even at an early age, family always felt that I was different in some way, although they have never questioned my link to the family tree. Quiet, shy & extremely obedient, I was always the one to get hit by "Murphy's Law!"  Yet never placed myself in a situation to shame my family.
When My Father passed away when I was 11, my Mother re=married a few years later.  In doing so, left me behind, yet took my 2 younger Brother's with her.  I ended up being placed with an Aunt & Uncle who wasted no time in getting me enrolled in the Convent(Dominion) after High School Graduation. I soon learned that there was a differance between religion(man made law) & Spirit(God's Law.)  The convent was an overt cover for amassing monetary means by guilt & fear. As soon as I turned 21, checked myself out of that situation which further isolated me from family, due to their belief structure.
For the most part, I have been plagued most of my life, by an outside force.  It seems like I have been tested/manipulated to pass certain obsticules.  Each time I succeed, I get hit with something more involved/dramatic to over come. Along with success has come questionable health.  I have always been health conscious. As a rule, If God didn't make it, I don't eat it. I am into vitamins/supplements due to deteriating health. After the incident of the hard blow to the stomach that put me out 14 hrs, I have been diagnsosed with Chronic fatigue/Fibermyalgia(affecting muscles & joints.) Sleep paralysis is a symtom.  Research has named Candida as the main cause plus a low protein imbalance.  I have addressed all of this with counter-measures for Candida & doubled the protein uptake along with the 38 vitamins/supplements. On paper, I should be nearly cured... yet I am far from it. Defies Doctor expectation.  Something is holding me back from health, some outside force.  Question is, if I over come this, what's next in line?  I leave nothing unturned for an explaination.

Hello Group, I have been reading & searching this forum with all it's related topics.  Some how I am getting the impression that I have been dealing not with neg interferance but possibably...an exchange of energy.  Question is "What kind of energy?"  What would start at top of the head, flow downward & out the feet, then do a reverse & out the top of my head?  The other experiance with the punch in the stomach & being out for 14 hrs. was in the Solar Plexis area.  Being Spiritually oriented...are these signs of some type?  Are these signs of DNA changes?

Hello Bloodsword & Need,
Forgive my delay in responding.  I have been without a computer since lighting struck close to our home & followed the cable in.  Lost 3 TV's also.  Unplugged everything but forgot the cable.  Costly lesson!

I appreciate your responses.  In my first post, I related 2 unusual experiances along with a long list of Health problems, that have gotten progressively more involved with time.  Seems I overcome one health matter/illiness, only to find myself affected by something more serious, shortly there after.

Since my early teens, now 51, have been very health conscious.  To a degree, if God didn't make it, I don't eat it!  I was brought up on a dairy farm where beef was plentiful, yet I rarely eat it.  Sometimes, small amounts of chicken, turkey or fish. Have always preferred fresh veggies & fruits than the can stuff. Plus I take vitamin supplements. I am well educated in nutritian & supplements.  Yet, my health doesn't reflect conscious effort.  At the present moment, I'm dealing with Chronic Fatigue Syndrom/Fibermyalgia.  My energy is zapped. Fibermyalgia is a condition that effects movement of the muscles. It also involves painful muscle spasms including charlie horses in the calves of the legs.  For over 3 yrs. The only way I can sleep is on my back & the way I lay down is the same position I wake up in. The scarey part of the condition is suffering...sleep paralysis...unable to move when I first wake up.  Mentally I want to get up, physically, the body won't respond.  I have to try to move a finger to break the spell. If there was ever an emergency, I would be able to hear what is going on, I just wouldn't be able to respond quickly. In this case, it could be life-threating!

I have lived most of my life pursuing Spiritual matters.  At one point in my life, I was a Dominican Nun. I stepped back from that position when I reconized the differance between religion & spirit. My search for knowledge has cost me my health, for the deeper I pursue this quest, unexplained happenings abound.  I have never had an interest or involvement with cults or witchcraft.  I perfer written material on Spiritual matter & self developement/improvement. Yet, there have been times in my life that I sense that there is an external force over shadowing me.  It feels like heavy air, confining & negative.  It creates chaos!  There is always a "material loss" when this feeling is present.  I have had an engine blow up in a fairly new car, lost a 22 room Victorian Home to a fire after 14 months of completed renovation, was pink-slipped from a decent job at the time I was scheduled for advancement...with this noticiable dark heavy feeling surrounding me!  Add health problems along with stress. I have taken stress management.  I have comtemplated for hours, as to the nature of these occurances. At one point, had gotten involved with a therapist to evaluate my mental status & to see if I was, unconsciously, setting myself up for these occurances & situations. Bottom line, there is something external, interfering with my "free will" "my health" "my Spiritual quest" & everything on a material level.  That "something" is dark & negative!   Marianne

Angelburst29 here:  Thank-You for the replies!
To runlola & MAGUS89, Some time back, I had silently considered the possibility of "abductions" in explaining "missing time episodes." Read extensively on the subject...but could not logically find any evidence that would point in that direction...although I still do not rule out the possibility.  

To EnderWiggin,  I find Your message interesting!  I was born into a Roman Catholic Family.  My interest in "Spirituality" from an early age was mis-interperted by my family as being of "Religious" intent. After graduating High School, I was enrolled into the "Benedictine Order" of "Missionary Servitude." When I turned 21 yrs. old & just before taking my final vows, I went through the "Tribunial" process to come out... and reliquished my ties with the Catholic Church. The biggest lesson I learned from this experiance was that there was a big differance between Spirituality/God-Consciousness and the Church with it's interperation of Doctrine for material gain! Manipulation came in all forms of greed.  I went on to self-study the other so-called Religions to see if they minic the same self imposed Doctrines. My Metaphysical interest stemmed from the knowledge gained. I often wondered if I might have stumbled onto a "truth" of some type that would single Me out for these "Attacks?" Sort of a warning, to de-tour me from the path of awareness with the intent of getting to the "Truth!"  Problem with all of this and directly after the last "attack" that left me lying on the floor for 14 hrs...was a sudden change in physical health.  Constantely tired, always some type of infection in the body( 11 teeth removed at one time due to infection) blocked colon, gallbladder removal, heal spirs & unable to walk, sever muscle aches in the middle of the night(charlie horses)a cut turned into a case of gangarene in less than 24 hrs. that needed surgical removal & a 9 day stay in the Hospital.  Just recently, major blood work came back with a diagnosis of Chronic Fatigue & Fibermyalogia.  All this break down of body...yet I have, for years, ate a healthy modified diet with little meat & fresh everything along with vitamin supplementation.  Rare do I indulge in "fast food or junk"  Poor health doesn't justify careful planning of diet? Take this into consideration with the 2 unexplained "experiances" & I have to logically consider outside interferance of some type.  I need to identify these 2 experiances to get at the root of my ill-health!  I am seriously asking for help!  Angelburst29

Angelburst29 here:  Is it possible that I might be in the wrong Forum to get an answer to my above question?

Hello K,
In reply to your answer, I have been deep into metaphysical study along with my regular work week.  I have studied all of the so-called main religions to understand if there is any connection that ties them together.  I have read/studied Edgar Cayce, Robert Bruce, Dion Fortune, Sylvia Brown, John Edwards, Barbara Marciniak, the "Seth" Material, Dolores Cannon, "A Course in Miracles", etc. plus Health/Herbs, interest in Dowsing & pendulum(not practioner, have studied works by Dr. Bruce Goldberg(regressive therapy) & am a student of Astrology, & for the last Year & half, actively involved with the Cassiopaea site.  Although I have been Divorced 17 years, & My Son's are in College, I can't really say I have much of a Social Life...other than my studies...I am an avid reader. I'm not around alot of people & am not aware of upsetting anyone directly to warrent an attack of any kind.  I have had "unusual" happenings, most of my life...but have offen found a logical explaination or reason for. These 2 defile an explaination & I will continue to search, for the last one mention was physically, a death situation.  A "knowing" of physical death!  I have daily used prayers/white light, etc. for protection.  My interest in psychic attack, etc. & after reading books by Robert Bruce & Dion Fortune, do not fully describe why I am singled out in these experiances. They are not all negative. I had an experiance several years ago, while driving with my 2 Son's with me. The car was suddenly engulfed in greenish/blue fog that forced me to guide the car to the saftey off the side of the road. Moments later, the colored fog lifted & we returned to the road. Down the road was a 3 car pile-up.  Acknowledgement of "Divine Intervention" was addressed in a heart-felt prayer of "Thanks!"