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Hello,

I'm very new to APing, and I've been having a horrific time, not from lack of success, but from too many close calls to death....I have the most pressing concern on another forum...here's the link:

http://www.astralforum.com/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?t=2110&postdays=0&postorder=asc&start=0

There's also another thread on that site that I put in...should give some background info:

http://www.astralforum.com/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?t=2009&highlight=

Basically, I have a reccurring OBE that makes no logical sense, a premonition of my own death, and when I have either, I stop breathing, my heart stops beating, and I basically die every time I AP/EP....CPR is what has kept me alive long enough to get back...I AP while being totally awake - such as driving my car, etc....PLEASE PLEASE HELP!!!! If possible, please see to it that Mr. Bruce takes a look at these posts on the other site. It was a person on that site that recommended his expertise.[][][]I'm terrified. Please please please help if you can[][][][][][]

Thank you
Sarah

Why haven't I gone to the doctor?!?

Here is why (I posted this on another forum, and will save you the trouble of looking for it):
"heh...why would I not want to discuss things borderline occult with my disgustingly close-minded, undereducated, traditionalist parents?!? OMG....~disbelief~ *knocks on screen* "hello?!?"

In short: my mother is loosing her sanity, and my father has a SERIOUS anger management problem...besides that, mom's a Baptist, dad's a Jehovah's Witness....I'm unofficially Methodist....belief-wise, mom and I get along ok (not counting Astral Projection, which she doesn't even know exists....much less that I've dabbled with it, much less that all this is happening...) but dad, heh he causes problems with the huge conflict of faiths...mom and I deal with it and tolerate, dad does not offer the same in turn...he's very controlling, and well...*sigh*....  *will not be discussing this sort of family history further, unless prompted to do so*

so yes, I DO fear their reaction....a great deal, to be quite honest about it... besides that, Quinn, who has been a huge help in this, honored my request in his not telling anyone besides a couple of friends who are into AP *they're my friends as well...maybe 3 other people in our end of the town besides Quinn and I know about me* and of course those here in the forum and in another forum (which was suggested by SerGei, I think...too lazy to check accredation) in a despirate search for help. If I were to say, go to a doctor, and the doctor found out that this has been happening a while.....and if he would get word of a particular someone else knowing about this....*sigh*

I'm an insomniac, so I know I don't have narcalepsy....  *thankfully not on any meds* The only things I know are physically wrong with me: 1)I'm anemic and 2) I have a skin tumor on my head, which is benign... though going to a doctor isn't a big deal in and of itself, there is no way for me to go without my parents knowing.... I'm legally a minor, which means short of going to the emergency room, they'll have to be with me, and even at the ER, the insurance info is through them, so nothing could be done without their consent. There aren't really any clinics around here either...."

Logistically, it is impossible for me to see a doc. without my parents' consent. I have talked to my parents about the dizziness/headaches/lightheadedness caused by this stuff (they don't know the cause, mind you) and I am told that I'm whinning and am fine.. if my folks do not see vomit, bleeding of the hemmoraging variety, or an ampuation of some kind, they think someone is perfectly fine. `nuff said there, I think.