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Well i got woke up at 8am by my room mate and his mate. I was not amused as I work late shifts so my sleep pattern is not normally totally along with the sun. So i told them to shuttup and went back to bed.

Couldnt get back to sleep for about 2hrs, as it really p**ses me off to be woken up.

Been doing a lot of energy work, i do it lying in bed as is most comfortable for me - which does affect me getting to sleep sometimes.    

Anyway to the point - found myself thinking i was lying the opposite way around in bed, knowing i wasnt, thought id go with it as i knew it was a good oob starter - and it felt real comfortable to do this. I finally dropped off still in this mindset and bang, - up i went. buzzing, really feeling amazing, feeling the sheer reality, energy, power, and will power involved as ive read about so much about.

Passing through my door was really cool, i did get stuck halfway but just yanked myself through. I have a mirror next to my door. My eyes were red tinted, prob not a good sign??- you tell me but i really didnt care about that - no negative feelings at all in my first.

There were two entities i met, one was just a different housemate walking down the stairs with a football shirt on - not like him. - thought id just shave through the side of his body to try and get a reaction and he did seem puzzled.

The other was a kind of sexy black lady in my lounge. I live in a mixed race shared house so thats not uncommon. She also had red tinted eyes - and teeth? I was kind of turned on by the voyeurism aspect but then she acknowledged me and said "why have me when you can have anyone in the entire world" which was real sweet i thought.  

So back upstairs i went, knowing i should stop soon as I have been told over and over by Bruces book - although i so didnt want to. So still oob looked for my pad under my bed, couldnt find it so went to get paper from my high cupboard. Kept jumping up and down to get to it - realised i couldnt which didnt bother me at all - just jumped up and stayed up.

So tried to "open my eyes" but couldnt as seems to make sense now. So i took my hands to my eyes and forced my eyelids open and here i am. Hope you enjoyed the read as much as i enjoyed this morning. Been practicing so long so glad its paid off.

any comments welcome.

Next i want to sit on the moon and watch the earth spin. Anyone done that?

Hello all.

What do you do if your new to this and after reading the psychic self defense book, applied countermeasures and reckon the neg is onto you? Surely they always know anyway as they are sposed to be psychic by nature. Mine is bad, ill say that, i have regret and core images that have troubled me for many yrs.

The book says seek a church or a group but im reluctant,

I was driving today and the word apparition came through my awareness a few times. Not because ive frightened myself as, until i got back, i didnt know what apparition meant. Im pretty sure ive cheesed it off.  

This is very real to me and I have to say the book has been a HUGE wake up call for me, both of Robs books ive read are superb, and im sure he has positively influenced thousands of lives with them.

But now im real scared. Are they likely to appear before they go or do they appear when they are real cheesed off at you or both or what.
I have natural ability, not yet projected although am confident, but have never seen shadows or anything substantial.
I DONT want to see a negative spirit, at least not until ive seen a nice one. What if I do? Id wet myself and have a heart attack. Im truly phased now and i trust my intuition. Pls advise.  

Luv
Anon

"its influence"  Im not sure what is meant by that - no disrespect. To me changing key, substituting the tritones from dim7's into borrowed chords and resolving V I 's with as much tension as poss is beautiful.

I had a guitar lesson today

biffy clyro - liberate the illiterate, when the factions factioned, eradicate the doubt or pretty much anythin by them gets me in a Meditating mood.

well i fink music is damn important, expression and enjoyment. If you cant enjoy yourself and express yourself then why bother at all. Nice to see someone mention it - cant beat kazaa and a set of headphones with your fav tracks going.  As for hallucinations - thats drugs isnt it - not music. []

In response to that upstream, yeh ive tried lsd in my youth. This post was diffrent but noone seemed bothered so though i might as well start over.  Was just trying to be honest and open, has been a hard adjustment period was kinda hoping for some help. Thnx to all that did.

It has happened since. Same scenario, exhausted when i got to bed after work, woken up at 9am by next room, got up played some guitar, tv, internet, back to bed 11.30am. Woke up at 3.00, really chuffed that id managed to have a good kip after an exausting weekend, and went back to sleep. Came around then in the so called "polarity shift" (opposite end of the bed) position - so as not to blow it, kept my eyes closed, stuck my head under the covers and tried a med and raising energy. Could feel the pressure but dont think i was going deep enough. Was disturbed by a text message, knowing im playing snooker in the evening should get up and check it. especially being as last time i checked the clock it was 3.00. So got up and its 12.30, an hr after i went to bed in the first place. The whole checking the clock and it being three must have been another oob but i didnt realise. The damn clock is 24hr so it should have said 15.00 anyhow.

nothing spectacualar but a decent follow up, something for the pad.

latas

Cheers right back to you Selski. Is invaluable to have an outlet for this kind of thing. Talking to your mates who have no comprehension of your efforts has got to be a big no no. Surely over time it must become a bit of a burden to keep such a secret - especially when great things start to happen.

runola

well yeh after reading the book i was sure i was influenced, bad dreams, feeling drained and fatigued in the mornings and other such things i read about.

And so yeh , in admitting to myself that neg influences are real and that i was probably affected, I was a bit put off trying to project for a while. I have read that its common to be confronted by a neg on the first one anyhow.

But now im getting used to the idea, and you nice people have offered all this advice im back in training, and have tried many methods offered. My visualtion isnt properly developed so cant be sure whether im imagining these spiders n snakes because i expect them to be there. Its fun having a sword and a blowtorch and hacking them though for sure.

Definately making progress, fell through my bed, got astral sight, saw the chord and my double (three different attempts). Keep losing my nerve when the sensations get too strong so bit more practise to go.

thanks all

Thanks for your kind words. I wrote this post in angst as when reading it back in quite plain. Im just new and frankly, i cant think of anything to make you more paraniod than suspecting negative influences in your life.
I have been on the fence with religion all my life, from a broken home with no influence from my piers. Im not or have not been religous in my life although I am of English/Christian background.
I put some salt about the place and used some garlic on me feet n socks, realising i dont know what on earth im doing or might be dealing with, over time got a bit panicky.  I spose a good way to fight bad is with love and self respect. Surely that cant harm anyone. Im also concerned that im on the brink of my first OOB exp and Im apprehensive about neg influence. Im exploring and I want to know what others think, what they have done and results.

luv

Anon