Sorry for my mistakes, English are my second language.
cainam_nazier, I think Universe or your I-There, whatever you believe, sending you the desperate messages. You have to change something in your life. I had a time, not as bad as yours, when everything would go wrong. I had two minor car accidents
in two months. Not even talking about endless on and off unemployment for two years. Back to my car accidents, I realized (too late, only after they fired me, and it was a very humiliating way, how they handled it.) a place, where I was working at that time, is absolutely a wrong one. I had to put myself together piece by piece after all that.
You should analyze what you have not done right, or done wrong with your life. Don't blame yourself or anybody for anything; simply recall how everything was going before your troubles have started. Did you have a couple or more options in front of you? Was it a right choice you have made? May be not. Think about everything.
cainam_nazier, I think Universe or your I-There, whatever you believe, sending you the desperate messages. You have to change something in your life. I had a time, not as bad as yours, when everything would go wrong. I had two minor car accidents
in two months. Not even talking about endless on and off unemployment for two years. Back to my car accidents, I realized (too late, only after they fired me, and it was a very humiliating way, how they handled it.) a place, where I was working at that time, is absolutely a wrong one. I had to put myself together piece by piece after all that.
You should analyze what you have not done right, or done wrong with your life. Don't blame yourself or anybody for anything; simply recall how everything was going before your troubles have started. Did you have a couple or more options in front of you? Was it a right choice you have made? May be not. Think about everything.