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[.........what kind of fraud am I for teaching the importance of discipline, when my own house is ready to crumble???]

Hi:

I posted over in Psychic Self Defense, but Rastas ("Rastus"spl?) sent me here. I've gotten into a terrible nightly wine addiction...2 glasses a night...on weekends maybe 3. Its now habitual, as I do this everynight....its been going on for a few years now....started when I went through a crisis 3 years ago... I'm sick of it, and disgusted with myself!!.....and its hindering my path, as my night time meditation is null, and I feel miserable for demonstrating such a lack of self-disclipline. I'm a Master of a Martial Art studio for Gods' sake.........what kind of fraud am I for teaching the importance of discipline, when my own house is ready to crumble???
I'd like to give this habit up right now, and I'm asking for some healing energy to get me through this. I can go no further in my spiritual journey, unless I deal with this. Thanks for taking the time to read this...your prayers and spiritual energy are most welcome, and I will make sure to participate within the healing forum as well, to circulate the help.

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Hi Everyone:

I could really use some advice on psychic self-defense against alcohol. I'm having a terrible time quitting alcohol......I've been trying forever. I buy the supplements: B-Vitamins, Herbs, Aminos,...I wear Amethyst constantly,... but when I come home from work, the alcohol-neg takes over. Yes, I've considered AA, but I live on an island, and I am active and well known in the community......plus I tried AA many times, but left the meeting wanting a drink always!!! I'm a functioning alcoholic...never drunk, but drinking at least 2 glasses of wine a day....... which to me is the worst kind,  as my neg keeps a shield of denial around me often....I'm absolutely depressed about this. I have an 11 year old son, and am married.  All three of us are familiar with "negs", etc., and when someone has a real bad psychic attack, the other 2 seem to be able to come to the aid ....but this issue seems to get skirted. Tommorow morning, I will bring this up in our family meeting, (if my neg doesn't talk me out of it) and maybe its a good start but I just feel like I'll never quit....heres' my question: HAVE ANY OF YOU SUCCESSFULLY QUIT ALCOHOL OR ANOTHER SUBSTANCE ADDICTION? IF SO, HOW DID YOU DO IT?  Thanks

Thanks ya'all for the constructive advice. I'm going to try and reply all at once: Thanks Lighthouse!! I read works by those authors years ago, and went the therapist route as well, it worked for awhile......I still might look into it again....so thanks.

Thanks EOL007...some good advice definitely. I never get drunk, as I never want to lose control over a situation...but I DO have a habit, as anything I have everynight is an addiction. Cutting back for me hasn't seemed to work......and maybe your right...maybe this isn't a "neg" thing....but maybe it is also...I WANTED TO KNOW IF THERE WAS SUCH THING AS AN ALCOHOL NEG. BUT SO FAR FROM THE POSTS, I GUESS I MAY BE IN DENIAL AND THERES NO SUCH THING.....JUST MY LACK OF DISCIPLINE.

Thanks Rastus:  Bullseye!! I started reading "Initiation into Hermetics" by Bardon.  I started meditating last week, as the workbook demands it. I'm sure this will be a great supplement and I'm starting the apple cider ritual today. Your post really motivated me to continue....otherwise I will continue to feel like the proverbial "Initiate Loser"....THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!

Thanks Somebloke: Thats a whole list of information too!! Think I'll seriously up my water intake as well.....as I don't  like beer or hard alcohol....only wine...and expensive wine too....so if I'm successfull....my finances will improve!!

WHEN I STARTED THIS FORUM, IT WAS 3:00AM THIS MORNING. WHEN I WENT TO SLEEP I HAD A VERY VIVID AND AMAZING DREAM.  A YOUNG GIRL CAME UP TO ME AND SAID, "IF YOU NEED HELP, PLEASE ASK ME"...HER TEETH HAD A GOLD FRAME IN THEM (WEIRD I KNOW). SHE REPEATED THE SENTANCE AGAIN...FINALLY I ASKED HER WHAT SHE COULD DO FOR ME....AT THAT MOMENT....LONG SPIDERS (THAT LOOKED LIKE MY MOTHERS FAKE EYELASHES) STARTED COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH...SOME SHORT SOME LONG...THE GIRL...WAS HOLDING A TUB FOR ME TO KEEP SPITTING THEM IN....MANY CAME RIGHT OUT OF MY TEETH....WHEN THE LAST ONE WAS GONE....MY HUSBAND STEPPED HIS FOOT IN THE TUB...THE GIRL AND I TOLD HIM TO TAKE HIS FOOT OUT OR HE'D GET INFECTED.....THE GIRL PLACED ALL THE SPIDERS IN A SECURE BOX, WRAPPED WITH BUBBLE WRAP...I ASKED WHAT SHE WAS DOING WITH THE SPIDERS.....SHE TOLD ME THEY WOULD HAVE TO BE DESTOYED..SO AS NOT TO RETURN TO ME.........FREAKY DREAM......BUT I AWOKE THIS MORNING FEELING LIKE I HAVEN'T IN A VERY LONG TIME.  YOUR POSTS WERE VERY HELPFUL...I HOPE IT TRULY IS A NEW DAY FOR ME. THANKS VERY MUCH!!