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One of the most terrifying times of my life was from when I was very young to the time I was 13 when I was sexually abused by a close friend of the family. This experience made the memories come alive as i relived every second of it over again. This journal entry does NOT include all the details.

Wed. Nov. 24, 2004 before 12:00 A.M.

house: quiet, dark
weather: stormy, loud wind, rain, thunder, flashing lightning
Electricity out
Sleeping on couch, on back

I've been projecting alot lately. Mostly involuntary, but I can make myself project mainly whenever I want to now. Not that I want to anymore with the way it's been going.. Strange things happening. Almost each night now. Strange dreams. Keep me from sleep.
Woke many times during the night. Not sure which times I was really awake or which times I was in the astral. First I woke in the astral to a sound. (children? Laughing? Talking? Dont know..) I started to walk around. Then fell into a dream. Then I was back and forth for a long time. From the astral to the physical to a dream. Over and Over... Then i woke again in the astral to the sound of papers being rustled loudly right beside my head. Fell asleep.
Then woke in the astral again. My shirt was lifted completely up. I felt someone (or was it more than one person..?) standing very uncomfortably close to me. I felt such an atmosphere of helplessness, shame, sadness, adrenaline rushes, fear, lust, self hatred, anger. It was so real. I pulled my shirt down. wanted to cry or scream or something. but couldnt. Then I woke in the physical. Still felt the same intense atmosphere around me. Fell back asleep. Woke to the sound of a cat meowing right beside me. Don't have a cat. Went to check for a cat at the front door. No cat. This happened several times while I was awake.
I'm scared. I can't stop projecting. It's become part of my sleep now..

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A fiery hatred engulfs her young heart.
A troubled life ahead of her lies.
A situation that eventually tore her apart,
Because we ignored her loud desperate cries.

She's alone yet the invisible voices
Abiding inside of her head
Torture her about her past choices
And torment her for the life that shes lead.

Alone in a world full of people,
she's beginning to understand,
That her hopes and dreams, so weak and feeble,
Will never turn out how she'd planned.

The air outside is cold
But not as cold as what's in her heart.
Her end now begins to unfold.
A knife; Cold, shiny, and sharp.

But the voice of a child hits her ears.
"Mommy, please put down the knife."
As the blade falls so do her fears.
On the day that her son saved her life.

I write poems when I'm bored. I thought I'd post one or two just to get an opinion. Critisism doesn't hurt me so feel free to say what ever you'd like about it.

We Made Him This Way
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Sunday morning choir sings
into the streets their voices ring.
Lonely black man passes by,
Let's out a forlorn heavy sigh.

Believes the good Lord has forgotten
a man whose good heart has turned rotten.
He's bitter, angry with it all.
He hides his feelings, lest he fall.

His life's a useless empty shield.
His cuts and wounds, they never healed. Anyone on this road that travels,
eventually will come unravelled.

This man was not a lunatic
The world had simply made him sick.

He took his gun and shot the preacher,
choir director, Sunday school teacher.

Weapon aimed at another's head,
He turned and shot himself instead.

Learn a lesson from his fate,
Let's rid this hardened world of hate.

Finally, after about 5 months of no OBEs I did it! I am SO happy. I seriously thought I'd lost my ability to leave my body at all for a while there. It's 2:52 A.M. now and it just happened and Im so excited that I had to tell someone! Heres what happened:

The other day I was takin a nap while my sister played my Enya music on my comp, and I had a strange (maybe even life changing dream) And I told a friend of mine about it. and I told him that in my dream, I remember hearing the music playing. and he said well maybe it was the music. (I personally think there are some sort of subliminal messages in her songs. They're so calm and soothing.) So anyway I played the music again tonight, hoping to have another strange dream and prove myself to be right. And it happened! This is my first AP experience where I had NO vibrations. I just "opened" my eyes, and was in the astral. First thing I saw was an entity in the form of a shadow of my dog, but since I knew about negs from these forums I wasnt very scared at all. But then I woke up. :-/ But it doesnt matter!! FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY sorry. Im really excited. I was afraid I would never do it again.

K Im done. []

I was just wondering, for the people who have natural OBE's, around how old were you when they first started happening?

Also, i was wondering if maybe taking pain killers (that make u slightly drowsy) or muscle relaxers might help one get in the state where they're able to have an OBE?

Hey everybody! Im Jaclyn. I've been searchin fer a good place to talk about my outta body experiences and happened to stumble across this place so I thought I'd check it out. It's nice ta meet yall!

You're absolutely right... sort of...

so murderers are ok cuz killin isnt wrong? is that right? oh but it cant be right cuz right doesnt exist... so its wrong, but oh... wrong doesnt exist either.... so if im right and there is no wrong, im wrong because thats right. correct me if Im wrong.

lol nay

lmao gandalf

lmfao!!! aninfinity (ask nay what twinkie cream is. shell be happy to explain it to ya. Right nay? lol)

upstream, I havent read any ap books.... i just told the guy to whack off be4 goin to sleep and it worked. Thats all I know. lol

Hah I've been trying to teach my buddy how to project for a long time now, and NOTHIN was workin so the other night I told him to masterbate be4 he tried and HE PROJECTED for like the third time in his life. So Masterbation=Good. [][][]

WAIT wait wait.... so ya'll were SERIOUS about eatin the "twinkie cream"?!

Hi there, and welcome to the forums, iadr! It's great to have you. []

Oh I believe it is! I'm very excited for you, and wish you luck on future projections! []

Nay, LOL. Sorry 'bout that. I just don't find my post as bad as the ones tellin' people to eat their sperm. Now THAT was uncalled for. [xx(][]

CONGRATULATIONS Fossil!! That's excellent news! [] I'm very excited for you. []

Who says women don't admit to masterbating?! I DO! [] In fact, last time I attempted to project (YESTERDAY) I did it, and was succesful!! [][][]  Whoever says masterbation is gross, I bet yer the biggest fan of it on these forums!! [] And also, whoever it was that said men shouldn't do it, and weren't meant to, that's bs. [] I don't think men could live w/o it, unless they're gay... maybe not even then...?? Welp sorry if I've offended anyone with my blunt post, but that's my views on the topic.

Everybody have a good day, and, guys,remember! Protect yourself against prostate cancer!!!!

*waves* []

kode, lol

Thanks ya'll for replying. It's nice to know I got friends who i can discuss astral projection with and won't think Im crazy. [] Unfortunately, since school started back I haven't OBEd again. I think I'm too stressed, or maybe just too tired. But I'm not discouraged in the least! [] I have faith that it'll happen again when I'm least expectin it! Till then, I'll be preparin'. Maybe read up on some conjurations to help my neg problem. (hmm it seems to be gettin worse since last time I projected. I can feel the presence in the physical some nights.) welp, I'm off!

Nope I don't believe in reincarnation almost as strongly as I dont believe in evolution.

Thanks for all the support, ya'll. I'm very excited. Umm I just reread my post. Wow. I'm never gettin' online at 3 A.M. again. []

Rastus, yes I've found that Enya's music is better for me than any other sort of music I've tried to AP to before. The music puts me to sleep very fast, and keeps me from sleeping too deeply when it's set at exactly the right volume. I took a nap today (still tired after my long morning. heh) and almost APed 3 times in one two hour nap. The only reason I didn't is because I'm not used to not having the vibrations. They sort of let me know when it's safe to move so that I wont wake up. Also, it's hard for me to project in the daytime (my bed is right beside a window so it's sort of bright)

No I'm not saying that having sex is sinful. I'm saying that Jesus taught that premarital sex is sinful, therefore it is. I guess He could have been married to Mary, but I highly doubt it because all He was truly interested in was living for God, and growing even closer to Him. With a life like Jesus' I don't really believe anyone would have enough time for a spouse.

Lola, actually, I hadn't even read all the posts. I had to type fast, cause I had to get my stuff ready for school which starts tomorrow (rolls eyes) So I just read the first page, then put in my 2 cents real fast. Wasn't talking to anyone in particular. []

No, Jesus was not gay. If He was, you might as well say there was no Jesus (which I'm sure many of you do believe) because the Bible says He was without sin, perfect, and never went against His own teachings. If He did have sex, was gay, or w/e, we'd know the Bible was lying, so why should we believe He existed at all? (Hope ya'll're followin'. [])

Also, I believe Jesus was far beyond the spirituality and understanding of such things as we ever could or ever will be. I don't think He needed sex. He understood very much that all He needed was the Father, and to follow Him no matter what.

Why are the people who don't believe Jesus existed commenting on whether He was gay or not....

Lola, EW. That was cold hearted. [xx(]

19, you contradict everything you stand for. The Bible says Christians should be wise as serpants, GENTLE AS DOVES. Callin people dumbasses isn't a great example of that(not to mention the Bible also says to keep our speech clean as to not make our brothers stumble).You give Christians a bad name.

quote:Preaching is as sad as its believers

quote:Ah, christian morals. How cute.

Ya'll should have consideration for the other Christians on these forums who haven't been preachin' to everybody, and shovin' their beliefs down your throats. These comments could be very offensive.

Hey there, Lucie! [] Nice to have you on the forums.