Hello
My name is James Adamik, I am a long time energy practitioner and recent student of OBE/AP. About 6 months ago I got a copy of Astral Dynamics as a gift, i have read through it but still have some questions pertaining to some experiences in my life.
ok, heres the scenario.... for the past 3 yrs i have almost evey night drifted into a frightful dream... about 1/2 through the dream it becomes lucid as i realize it is a dream. i begin to contiously controll different aspects of it.
Soon after i become conscious and begin to controll it i "wake up" but not wake up. i cant move my body, it as if it is frozen stiff waying a million pounds, my eyes are closed yet i can see everything in the room as clear as a do moments latter when i wake for real.
I feel as if i am not laying on the bed but slightly above it..... then the terror begins. i use the word terror instead of fear becasue it is far beyond any feeling the word fear could possibly convey. every night when this happens i think "ok this is my projected double and i am almost out of my body, or maybe i already am, there is nothing to fear" but the terror persists..... it grows uintill there is nothing but dread and i cant seem to reenter my body normal, or get away from it to project... i am stuck facing the cealing screaming mental in terror. I fight with all of my might to make my hands move to hit my wifes leg to get her to wake me up but all i can ever get is a slight wiggle.
According to my wife, about this time i let out an almost imperceptable wimper and begin to shake like im going into slight seizures... she touches/shakes me and i wake up. The feelings of terror stick with me for some 30 minutes afterwords, but nothing else out of the normal occurs to my body upon waking.
when i told this to my friend he gave me a copy of astral dynamics and my reaserch has lead me here to ask for help... can someone please tell me what might be going on and how i can stop it.
oH and i also have a preaty strong fear that if i do manage to leave my body i wont be able to reenter it, as if i wont know how when i get there.
Thank you for anything you can offer
James Adamik
My name is James Adamik, I am a long time energy practitioner and recent student of OBE/AP. About 6 months ago I got a copy of Astral Dynamics as a gift, i have read through it but still have some questions pertaining to some experiences in my life.
ok, heres the scenario.... for the past 3 yrs i have almost evey night drifted into a frightful dream... about 1/2 through the dream it becomes lucid as i realize it is a dream. i begin to contiously controll different aspects of it.
Soon after i become conscious and begin to controll it i "wake up" but not wake up. i cant move my body, it as if it is frozen stiff waying a million pounds, my eyes are closed yet i can see everything in the room as clear as a do moments latter when i wake for real.
I feel as if i am not laying on the bed but slightly above it..... then the terror begins. i use the word terror instead of fear becasue it is far beyond any feeling the word fear could possibly convey. every night when this happens i think "ok this is my projected double and i am almost out of my body, or maybe i already am, there is nothing to fear" but the terror persists..... it grows uintill there is nothing but dread and i cant seem to reenter my body normal, or get away from it to project... i am stuck facing the cealing screaming mental in terror. I fight with all of my might to make my hands move to hit my wifes leg to get her to wake me up but all i can ever get is a slight wiggle.
According to my wife, about this time i let out an almost imperceptable wimper and begin to shake like im going into slight seizures... she touches/shakes me and i wake up. The feelings of terror stick with me for some 30 minutes afterwords, but nothing else out of the normal occurs to my body upon waking.
when i told this to my friend he gave me a copy of astral dynamics and my reaserch has lead me here to ask for help... can someone please tell me what might be going on and how i can stop it.
oH and i also have a preaty strong fear that if i do manage to leave my body i wont be able to reenter it, as if i wont know how when i get there.
Thank you for anything you can offer
James Adamik