Hello everyone,
I've become increasing concerned of a neg attachment, there for possibly some time. I had managed to control myself for some time and eventually the bad thoughts I'd been having went away. But now they're back. I went on a course in hypnotherapy and my thoughts did come under my control again. But they're back again. I don't want to divulge what these thoughts are. But I became quite freaked out after they returned to me last night. And then I got up this morning and my housemate is minding her niece who's 2/3 I think. And the child was terrified of me, and I don't know why. She's always been uneasy with me but this morning she was terrified of me and it really freaked me out because she's normally just been shy but today she was quite frightened by me. To the point where the whole car journey I went on with her in the back seat (and me in the front with my housemate) that she had her hands over her eyes for the whole journey. Only when I got out the car did she put her hands down.
I've heard that children can sense dark forces and what was ironic was that my housemate (who told me she doesn't believe in anything of a spiritual nature anymore) did mention that children can sense dark forces and I had been thinking the same thing. Coincidence? I don't know! I'm not a bad person, but my thoughts have made me feel as though I am for so long. I haven't had this much control over them since I was 15 when this all started. I'm now 21. The hypnotherapy course which lasted for 2 weeks helped to balance my mind again but when it was over I went back to work and life returned to normal and stress came back and I soon find myself returning to the way things were and my spiritual calm diminishing again.
I used to have a feeling of always being on the brink of tears, that if I just tried a bit harder I'd be able to bring myself to cry. That went away with my course but now it's back again and I don't enjoy feeling like this. I have wanted to approach my hypnotherapy teacher (a very spiritual man and a great healer) but I don't feel comfortable telling anyone the things that come into my mind.
Can anyone provide any assistance or advice on how to get rid of this neg if indeed there is one. I have a meditation course in Vipassana coming up soon which I am looking forward to and I'm hoping that I'll be able to use that meditation to balance myself once again. But for now, I'd just like some advice from anyone who can help.
Kindest regards,
Marc
I've become increasing concerned of a neg attachment, there for possibly some time. I had managed to control myself for some time and eventually the bad thoughts I'd been having went away. But now they're back. I went on a course in hypnotherapy and my thoughts did come under my control again. But they're back again. I don't want to divulge what these thoughts are. But I became quite freaked out after they returned to me last night. And then I got up this morning and my housemate is minding her niece who's 2/3 I think. And the child was terrified of me, and I don't know why. She's always been uneasy with me but this morning she was terrified of me and it really freaked me out because she's normally just been shy but today she was quite frightened by me. To the point where the whole car journey I went on with her in the back seat (and me in the front with my housemate) that she had her hands over her eyes for the whole journey. Only when I got out the car did she put her hands down.
I've heard that children can sense dark forces and what was ironic was that my housemate (who told me she doesn't believe in anything of a spiritual nature anymore) did mention that children can sense dark forces and I had been thinking the same thing. Coincidence? I don't know! I'm not a bad person, but my thoughts have made me feel as though I am for so long. I haven't had this much control over them since I was 15 when this all started. I'm now 21. The hypnotherapy course which lasted for 2 weeks helped to balance my mind again but when it was over I went back to work and life returned to normal and stress came back and I soon find myself returning to the way things were and my spiritual calm diminishing again.
I used to have a feeling of always being on the brink of tears, that if I just tried a bit harder I'd be able to bring myself to cry. That went away with my course but now it's back again and I don't enjoy feeling like this. I have wanted to approach my hypnotherapy teacher (a very spiritual man and a great healer) but I don't feel comfortable telling anyone the things that come into my mind.
Can anyone provide any assistance or advice on how to get rid of this neg if indeed there is one. I have a meditation course in Vipassana coming up soon which I am looking forward to and I'm hoping that I'll be able to use that meditation to balance myself once again. But for now, I'd just like some advice from anyone who can help.
Kindest regards,
Marc