Hello, I am new to this site but wanted to share with you my recent meditation experiences and hopefully glean information as to what is going on. I will try to put together different anomilies that are related to a single meditation session. Currently I am reading Astral Dynamics and am aware of Etheric body and energy movements.
OK, about 10 days ago I decided to start meditation in earnest in my small ofiice at work at lunch time. It is a time I have regular with minimal interference. I left the overhead flourescent lights on just incase someone came in and I didn't look too foolish sitting in the dark.
Spec:
When my eyes are shut I can see this spec in between my eyes about 4 inches in front of me. On further attention on the spec more specs can be seen and begin to swirl in an anti-clockwise direction the view looks like one of those satalite pictures of a hurricane. sometimes the swirl becomes larger and is tilted on its side like looking at a galaxy. Swirling in the vortex are many more particles, this can fill up my whole vision field and is often hard to maintain.
Swirling Vortex:
I am undecided weather this is non physical phenomina or something inside my eyes that I am able to see. If I look at a blank wall I can see this spec and swirl, which leads me to believe its an internal view of my physical eye. I would suppose that an eye is filled with fluid and bio material that can reflect on the seeing device.
Colors:
After 5-10 minutes of the meditation I start to see Gold and Purple wafts, whisps of smoke like veils ebbing away in and out. I had now shifted my focus to the flow of these two colors. After a few more minutes the Indigo Purple color dominates the Gold color until almost all Gold has gone, only traces of it zoning in. On this one occassion the purple settled and all of a sudden became clear as crystal like looking into a giant Amethyst. It had a 3 dimensional appearnce of depth. I had to struggle to hold it but did so for what seamed like 5 minutes or so. This was quite a breakthrough for me because before meditation was; ok close eyes; wait; nothing happens; whoop de doo. But now something tangable had happened. After that meditation I had a 3 dimensional vision field when I closed my eyes for at least 3 days. Even doing a slow blink I could see a 3 dimensional space, not purple but black. I have since lost the 3D effect and dont seam to be able to get it back. After experimenting with lights on and off, only the lights on produce the Indigo veils. With lights off I only see some Gold and an off white that gets brighter and dims back to black. If I try to look beyond the swirl spec I get a shift in consciousness but I cant get the 3D back.
Tingling:
I have found I can slip into a trance quite quickly, I know this because I can feel my body tingling and my hands feel like lead. The tingling is very uncomfortable and I feel like my head is in a vice grip. Also a lot of presuure on both my eyes like they are about to explode. After meditation my physical eyes feel very sore, but the tingling and headband pressure subside. The palms of my hands also have a lot of tingling going on. Experimenting with this, I have found I can move the energy around inside my head, like moving a ball of energy around from my forehead through the pallet and into the throat then it goes straight back up to top. This is the most worrying aspect of the meditation for me as it leaves me kind of drained and edgy like my nerves are shot. This is probaly high activity in my Brow Chakra but Im not sure how to channel it or something. The pain in my eyes concerns me. Sometimes if I open my mouth a little my tongue tip feels like its glued to my pallet.
Generic Visuals:
I keep seeing bits and pieces of maybe a human face apeears out of the particles, then bright dots that come towards me and vanish. My voice keeps commenting on whats going on and sometimes I will drift into a daydream and then after a while remember I am trying to meditate and come back to the stuff in my view field. This seamingly abstract state occupies the majority of the session usually an hour long.
Astral Visuals:
After maybe 35 minutes in feeling numb, tingly & sore but at the same time content. Flashes or scenes come to me usually of lush forests, Alaskan like lakes and mountains or jungle rainforests.
One in particular stood out as it seamed to last about 4 seconds a long time. I saw two large birds soaring over a rain forest, I was behind them as if I was seeing through the eyes of a third bird. The staggering thing was the colors of the plumage, a deep crimson color with a dark black underdown just pulstaing in radiant color. The neck and belly part of the birds had a silvery almost fish like scaley appearence. I got the impression that these birds were huge. During the percieved 4 seconds I was able to get a view of a Tolkien looking citidel nestled within the tree canopies. It was like watching a hi definition tv or something. I have never seen such birds before, but I now cant forget them.
Movement:
Sometimes I will have the feeling of falling, ascending, moving forwards or backwards. A butterfly in my stomach brings me back to C1. I just wanted to note also that I have a great fear of OBE and don't relish the experience of it, I have a lot of fear.
Breathing:
Breathing in deeply seems to affect the deepness of the trance state. When I take a deep breath I feel myself goin deeper. I have noted that the majority of my breaths seam shallow. Checking on my breathing takes me to C1 for a second but it reassures me somehow.
I just wanted to share this with you all as I don't have anyone to share it with. Everyone around me seams so stuck in the mundane.
Regards - Gary
Please respond to any of the above anomolies if you like.
OK, about 10 days ago I decided to start meditation in earnest in my small ofiice at work at lunch time. It is a time I have regular with minimal interference. I left the overhead flourescent lights on just incase someone came in and I didn't look too foolish sitting in the dark.
Spec:
When my eyes are shut I can see this spec in between my eyes about 4 inches in front of me. On further attention on the spec more specs can be seen and begin to swirl in an anti-clockwise direction the view looks like one of those satalite pictures of a hurricane. sometimes the swirl becomes larger and is tilted on its side like looking at a galaxy. Swirling in the vortex are many more particles, this can fill up my whole vision field and is often hard to maintain.
Swirling Vortex:
I am undecided weather this is non physical phenomina or something inside my eyes that I am able to see. If I look at a blank wall I can see this spec and swirl, which leads me to believe its an internal view of my physical eye. I would suppose that an eye is filled with fluid and bio material that can reflect on the seeing device.
Colors:
After 5-10 minutes of the meditation I start to see Gold and Purple wafts, whisps of smoke like veils ebbing away in and out. I had now shifted my focus to the flow of these two colors. After a few more minutes the Indigo Purple color dominates the Gold color until almost all Gold has gone, only traces of it zoning in. On this one occassion the purple settled and all of a sudden became clear as crystal like looking into a giant Amethyst. It had a 3 dimensional appearnce of depth. I had to struggle to hold it but did so for what seamed like 5 minutes or so. This was quite a breakthrough for me because before meditation was; ok close eyes; wait; nothing happens; whoop de doo. But now something tangable had happened. After that meditation I had a 3 dimensional vision field when I closed my eyes for at least 3 days. Even doing a slow blink I could see a 3 dimensional space, not purple but black. I have since lost the 3D effect and dont seam to be able to get it back. After experimenting with lights on and off, only the lights on produce the Indigo veils. With lights off I only see some Gold and an off white that gets brighter and dims back to black. If I try to look beyond the swirl spec I get a shift in consciousness but I cant get the 3D back.
Tingling:
I have found I can slip into a trance quite quickly, I know this because I can feel my body tingling and my hands feel like lead. The tingling is very uncomfortable and I feel like my head is in a vice grip. Also a lot of presuure on both my eyes like they are about to explode. After meditation my physical eyes feel very sore, but the tingling and headband pressure subside. The palms of my hands also have a lot of tingling going on. Experimenting with this, I have found I can move the energy around inside my head, like moving a ball of energy around from my forehead through the pallet and into the throat then it goes straight back up to top. This is the most worrying aspect of the meditation for me as it leaves me kind of drained and edgy like my nerves are shot. This is probaly high activity in my Brow Chakra but Im not sure how to channel it or something. The pain in my eyes concerns me. Sometimes if I open my mouth a little my tongue tip feels like its glued to my pallet.
Generic Visuals:
I keep seeing bits and pieces of maybe a human face apeears out of the particles, then bright dots that come towards me and vanish. My voice keeps commenting on whats going on and sometimes I will drift into a daydream and then after a while remember I am trying to meditate and come back to the stuff in my view field. This seamingly abstract state occupies the majority of the session usually an hour long.
Astral Visuals:
After maybe 35 minutes in feeling numb, tingly & sore but at the same time content. Flashes or scenes come to me usually of lush forests, Alaskan like lakes and mountains or jungle rainforests.
One in particular stood out as it seamed to last about 4 seconds a long time. I saw two large birds soaring over a rain forest, I was behind them as if I was seeing through the eyes of a third bird. The staggering thing was the colors of the plumage, a deep crimson color with a dark black underdown just pulstaing in radiant color. The neck and belly part of the birds had a silvery almost fish like scaley appearence. I got the impression that these birds were huge. During the percieved 4 seconds I was able to get a view of a Tolkien looking citidel nestled within the tree canopies. It was like watching a hi definition tv or something. I have never seen such birds before, but I now cant forget them.
Movement:
Sometimes I will have the feeling of falling, ascending, moving forwards or backwards. A butterfly in my stomach brings me back to C1. I just wanted to note also that I have a great fear of OBE and don't relish the experience of it, I have a lot of fear.
Breathing:
Breathing in deeply seems to affect the deepness of the trance state. When I take a deep breath I feel myself goin deeper. I have noted that the majority of my breaths seam shallow. Checking on my breathing takes me to C1 for a second but it reassures me somehow.
I just wanted to share this with you all as I don't have anyone to share it with. Everyone around me seams so stuck in the mundane.
Regards - Gary
Please respond to any of the above anomolies if you like.