Working, coming home, partying with friends.. and not interested in any kind of spritual stuff.. i was.
One monday morning, woke up in bed in tears, feeling the most weird felling words not enuff to tell, didnt want to work at all. But went, regardless to that veery strong feeling that was gnawing my brain with the idea of 'why? on earth im working, what for'.
So as i wasnt me, i demanded a meeting from hr manager. surprisingly enough she said im free right now come over. So there i was, actually didnt know why i was there.
I dont wanna work, i said.
Not seem to surprised, she asked the most expected question 'why?'
For just a brief second, life passed. 'You sould fire me as i cant quit now'
Now she was surprised, damn i really wanna pass this..
Following night as i still was in the mood of not being myself, was alone in the house sitting in my (2*2 - square - red - flat) pouffe at 0200, blank thinking i close my eyes.
There it was an ancient looking, modern shining huge sword, swinging up and down in the sky, only the front edge was visible rest was smoked somehow...
It actually was asking for my permission to smash my forehead, opened my eyes with fear, didnt know what to do. wtf is going on in my brain.
There i am in bed, trying to sleep and once more the .. sword awaits. I called my buddy lives 2 flat down, she agreed and got into bed with me.
she said me t calm down,as n physcal damage could be done as she thought it was just an illusion of my mind playing games on me. Knowing that another person is with me, i let my eye lids fell. And ater for a very brief darkness, the sword began its usual swinging in the air. I could feel that if i wont open my eyes it will smash towards me. And so i didnt!
All of a lightning, ancient sword cleaving the black sky opening up a white-blueish air behind descended to my forehead leaving nothing but a woman that dresses like in the period of 1800's, in a port heading towards to a ship that will bring her to europe...
tired will tell the rest later,
all i can say is that what ive been made to see was the past of my ancestors. I followed every single family tree, till my father's birth..
strange, ws really strange.. after that incident, my all instinct told me to leave istanbull and go to s.e.asia. so i went by myself, stayed there for 2 years in different countries, waiting for another unearthly sign.
Now i sense like i am aware of every f*cking thing on earth, i dont need further knowledge though i read everything. Every human being's knowledge is really precious for me. Id like to read humans, id like to read everything and i know that in 2007 smthng im going to do will do a great affect on you..
thank you
One monday morning, woke up in bed in tears, feeling the most weird felling words not enuff to tell, didnt want to work at all. But went, regardless to that veery strong feeling that was gnawing my brain with the idea of 'why? on earth im working, what for'.
So as i wasnt me, i demanded a meeting from hr manager. surprisingly enough she said im free right now come over. So there i was, actually didnt know why i was there.
I dont wanna work, i said.
Not seem to surprised, she asked the most expected question 'why?'
For just a brief second, life passed. 'You sould fire me as i cant quit now'
Now she was surprised, damn i really wanna pass this..
Following night as i still was in the mood of not being myself, was alone in the house sitting in my (2*2 - square - red - flat) pouffe at 0200, blank thinking i close my eyes.
There it was an ancient looking, modern shining huge sword, swinging up and down in the sky, only the front edge was visible rest was smoked somehow...
It actually was asking for my permission to smash my forehead, opened my eyes with fear, didnt know what to do. wtf is going on in my brain.
There i am in bed, trying to sleep and once more the .. sword awaits. I called my buddy lives 2 flat down, she agreed and got into bed with me.
she said me t calm down,as n physcal damage could be done as she thought it was just an illusion of my mind playing games on me. Knowing that another person is with me, i let my eye lids fell. And ater for a very brief darkness, the sword began its usual swinging in the air. I could feel that if i wont open my eyes it will smash towards me. And so i didnt!
All of a lightning, ancient sword cleaving the black sky opening up a white-blueish air behind descended to my forehead leaving nothing but a woman that dresses like in the period of 1800's, in a port heading towards to a ship that will bring her to europe...
tired will tell the rest later,
all i can say is that what ive been made to see was the past of my ancestors. I followed every single family tree, till my father's birth..
strange, ws really strange.. after that incident, my all instinct told me to leave istanbull and go to s.e.asia. so i went by myself, stayed there for 2 years in different countries, waiting for another unearthly sign.
Now i sense like i am aware of every f*cking thing on earth, i dont need further knowledge though i read everything. Every human being's knowledge is really precious for me. Id like to read humans, id like to read everything and i know that in 2007 smthng im going to do will do a great affect on you..
thank you