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Last night I felt what I thought was a negative energy: it put pressure on my heart chakra and tugged at my energy field, which was quite a strange experience, as though I were being stretched and compressed. I rang up a psychic I know and at first she couldn't find anything to account for my sensations. On closer inspection, however, she saw that there was something near me; it hadn't lodged in my aura but it was trying to get my attention by dipping into it. With a bit of dowsing it turned out that this entity was an earthbound soul, i.e. someone who had died but for some reason had missed 'the light' and had become trapped on the earth plane. Her guide took the soul over to the light and I wasn't bothered again.

This has happened to me on a number of occasions. It is very difficult sometimes to distinguish between a neg and an earthbound. Being relatively inexperienced, I have managed to recognise an earthbound and help it over to the light only once; every other time I have assumed I was dealing with a neg and sought help.

Last August an earthbound started to obsess my aura and I thought it was a negative energy. It put fear and distress into my solar plexus chakra. I rang another psychic I know and she saw immediately what the problem was. She spoke to this soul on the telephone, communicating with it through my ears. She said something like: 'Well, Donald, I'm sorry to hear that you drowned in the 1930s but we are in the 21st century now. Make your way towards the light; can you see your family waiting for you? That's it, you can leave Ais now. You know where you have to go.' The soul left me in an instant. The psychic who had helped me said I could expect a 'thank you' in the following days. The next day I was travelling home on the train to my parents, and I passed a supermarket. In the carpark there was an enormous sign which said 'Thank you'. It completely bowled me over, and gave me an insight into the complexity of the spiritual world.

Next time you sense what you think is a neg, perhaps take a moment to consider whether you are being contacted by an earthbound. From what other experienced psychics have told me, you should be able to negotiate with an earthbound like so: 'Look, I am trying to sleep now. Stop harassing me and I'll help you in the morning.' Earthbounds will respect your wishes; negs will probably not.

Has anyone else here had experience of helping earthbound souls? If so what did you do about it? Can anyone hear them (I can't)?

Ais

Perhaps I'm being simplistic here, but I thought witchcraft was the art of casting spells, i.e. of influencing the conduct of other people or entities through the psychic/spiritual realm. I've been in New Age shops and noticed books there which describe the kind of spells one can do. I'm not sure what to think about this. It seems to me that the kind of person who finds casting spells attractive is basically someone who wishes to exert control over others and the environment. Am I being unfair on those who cast spells?

Occasionally I have come across people who use psychological tricks to make me feel vulnerable and drained. Again, the issue is one of power. I think they, in their own way, are casting spells too.

Perhaps astral projection can be considered witchcraft or not depending on your motives for doing it. If you've always done it, if it comes to you as naturally as dreaming, I don't see how it can be considered witchcraft. 'Craft' by definition is something learned.

Ais

I'm getting a friend to watch this programme and tell me all about it.

I approached the Catholic church for an exorcism when I had a very powerful neg attached to me which simply wouldn't budge, but they couldn't help me. A few days later I was put on anti-psychotic medication which worked although it was slow. I had to put up with this horrible neg for about two months before it finally gave up trying to get into my body.

If nothing described in this forum or elsewhere can remove a neg, and if you are at your wits' end about it, at least be reassured that there are powerful drugs out there which will clear you. I suppose if you present to a psychiatrist complaining about an evil spirit attached to you they will assume you need anti-psychotic medication anyway, as they think such thoughts are symptomatic of mental disorder. I have met only one psychiatrist, retired now, who understands the reality of neg experience and how it can compromise mental health. It's a pity that the profession as a whole is totally unable to accept or acknowledge that certain mental illnesses can involve spirit interference, especially schizophrenia. The profession instead views such illnesses as chemical imbalances in the brain, which is right but only up to a point.

Enjoy the show.

Ais

Dear Mick

There are several reasons why I attract negs. First, I did a crystal healing course a few years back, or rather the first weekend of it. I did not know it - it wasn't made clear to me - but working with crystals increases your vulnerability to negs. I picked up a neg from someone I was treating - the premise is that you use crystals as a tool for clearing negative energies attached to a client's aura - and it blew open my chakras so that suddenly I became very psychically aware: I was able to sense people's and plants' auric energies, the energies of places and flowing water. When you are opened up in this way, a direct channel is created between yourself and the lower astral plane where, as you probably know, all such negative entities belong. So I got bombarded with lower astral stuff and actually ended up in a mental hospital because of it: the energies I experienced were able to get control of my mind and compromise my grasp on reality. I had learned no techniques for defending myself at that stage, but it was probably too late then anyway. Only physical medicine - anti-psychotic medication - could really help me. The energies I experienced were so powerful that on a number of occasions I was nearly knocked out of my body by them. Scary stuff.

There is a karmic reason why this happened. Many lifetimes ago I was an Egyptian priest in charge of training young sensitives, and I unfortunately used methods which opened them up too quickly and made them vulnerable to the kind of attack that I am experiencing in this lifetime. So opening up too quickly can make you a target for negs, as you don't have the necessary mental/spiritual foundations to protect you. Rudolf Steiner did his best to warn us about this. I think it is very unwise to do any sort of work which accelerates your psychic sensitivity, as this can open up a nasty can of worms. I was just naive when it came to doing the crystal healing course: I had no idea it would open me up in such a way.

Further, my chakras are not entirely in balance, and this is another reason why negs can affect me. There is a split between my lower three chakras and the upper ones, which makes it unsafe for me to have a psychic faculty.

Then I am a creative artist which means that I am open and vulnerable anyway. I spend a lot of time in my own imagination, de-coding the world as I see fit, and am consequently not as grounded as I should be. I had my first neg attack at the age of sixteen, just after a performance of some of my music. Of course, at the time I had no idea what I was experiencing.

So my vulnerability to negs is due to crystals, lack of grounding, out of balance chakras, karma and rapid psychic development. I am having to do an awful lot of work to rectify all these things. I know that I must close down my psychic faculties permanently in this lifetime as it is too dangerous for me to remain open. Unfortunately there is no 'off' switch, but the exercises I am doing are helping very gradually to get me back to normal sensitivity (or what's normal for me anyway).

This is a serious answer to a serious question - hope it's clear.

Ais

In response to James' post, I'd like to say what's working for me. Since last November, when I was under attack almost daily, I have been doing a grounding and protection visualisation which seems to be yielding good results. Its chief value is preventative. I see myself as an oak tree, then sprout roots into the soil, both down and across; I then visualise a large rock which the roots get entwined with; then I send red energy from my root chakra into the right hand roots, through the rock and back up my left hand roots; I do this circuit a few times as it helps to ground. For protection I imagine myself wearing a silver cloak. I was sceptical about this visualisation at first, thinking that it wouldn't work, but over time, having done this visualisation both first thing in the morning and last thing at night, I have noticed that I am now much less vulnerable than I was.

When an attack occurs I find breathing white light from my third eye chakra into my whole body, and then into my aura, works very efficiently, even against powerful negs. I spend a few minutes doing this and then spray myself with frankincense oil in water, and then the room. Frankincense has a very high vibration which repels negs - it's used in the Catholic church for the same purpose. I open the window which becomes the exit point for the offending neg. I have dealt with the majority of negs in this way. The ones I can't clear need to be moved on by psychics who work in this sphere. However, my success rate is increasing as time goes by. If you are completely and consistently grounded, negs won't waste their time with you.

The negs I experience tend to obsess my aura - meaning that I feel a disturbance in it - and/or attack my chakra points, which means that my heart rate can be affected, or my swallowing, or my adrenal glands. It helps to think of negs as an irritation rather than a threat, no matter how fearful they make you. I have found that as I grow in confidence about my ability to deal with negs, I don't find them as frightening as I used to. This robs them of their power and thus repels them. They are opportunists and will simply move on to a more vulnerable target.

Does this help?

Ais

In response to James' post, I'd like to say what's working for me. Since last November, when I was under attack almost daily, I have been doing a grounding and protection visualisation which seems to be yielding good results. Its chief value is preventative. I see myself as an oak tree, then sprout roots into the soil, both down and across; I then visualise a large rock which the roots get entwined with; then I send red energy from my root chakra into the right hand roots, through the rock and back up my left hand roots; I do this circuit a few times as it helps to ground. For protection I imagine myself wearing a silver cloak. I was sceptical about this visualisation at first, thinking that it wouldn't work, but over time, having done this visualisation both first thing in the morning and last thing at night, I have noticed that I am now much less vulnerable than I was.

When an attack occurs I find breathing white light from my third eye chakra into my whole body, and then into my aura, works very efficiently, even against powerful negs. I spend a few minutes doing this and then spray myself with frankincense oil in water, and then the room. Frankincense has a very high vibration which repels negs - it's used in the Catholic church for the same purpose. I open the window which becomes the exit point for the offending neg. I have dealt with the majority of negs in this way. The ones I can't clear need to be moved on by psychics who work in this sphere. However, my success rate is increasing as time goes by. If you are completely and consistently grounded, negs won't waste their time with you.

The negs I experience tend to obsess my aura - meaning that I feel a disturbance in it - and/or attack my chakra points, which means that my heart rate can be affected, or my swallowing, or my adrenal glands. It helps to think of negs as an irritation rather than a threat, no matter how fearful they make you. I have found that as I grow in confidence about my ability to deal with negs, I don't find them as frightening as I used to. This robs them of their power and thus repels them. They are opportunists and will simply move on to a more vulnerable target.

Does this help?

Ais

I'll try and keep this as succinct as possible. In 2000 I moved into a Quaker Meeting House to be warden there. At weekends a crystal healing college used the premises. After having been invited to be a patient on a number of occasions I decided to enrol on the course in October 2002 to find out more about how crystals work. I was very impressed by the results of my crystal healing experiences: profound inner calm, yet energised. I did the first weekend of the course and was looking forward to practising on a few friends. The first two healings were fine, but the third, given to an acquaintance I had invited to dinner, turned out to be a bit of a disaster. At the beginning of the healing I started to experience distracting negative thoughts. If I had been a little more experienced I would have stopped the treatment at this point. At the time I did not realise that this was thought insertion due to a malign entity residing in my patient's aura. I carried on with the treatment. About half-way through I suddenly became fearful for my patient who had fallen asleep. A split second after this feeling of fear the entity in question gushed into me through my solar plexus. That night, in bed, I experienced all the symptoms of full-on psychic attack: a foul bristling up and down my aura that made me shake and sweat. I could not sleep at all. I rang the course leader at 7 the next morning and she came to clear me an hour and a half later, with smudge and a powerful prayer to the four archangels. This worked, but the whole of my flat had become contaminated with this energy. I felt it trying to get back into me. In the evening the course leader came to clear the flat. It became obvious to me that this energy had forced my psychic centres open in a very extreme way: that same evening I had been invited to dinner with some acquaintances and I could vividly sense their auras. Going to bed later that night I realised that some vestiges of negative energy remained in the flat. I could sense a crawling around my body, as if the energy were searching for a way in. When I turned off my light I experienced two visions: a kind of close-up of a stone temple built in colours of indigo and magenta and a picture of a priest lying in robes as if he had just passed away. Although startled I was not afraid of these visions: they seemed very heavenly. I managed to get to sleep despite the negative energy. The course leader had put sodalite crystals around my bed as protection.

Over the next few days I found myself accustoming myself to my new-found sensitivity. I could feel the auras from plants and the energy from currents of water. I could sense other people's auras and know if they were clear or not. This was fine. Unfortunately, in the weakened and shocked state I was in I began experiencing attacks from other negs. Strangely I noticed that each one seemed to represent each of the seven deadly sins. I wondered whether I was going through what Rudolf Steiner calls the 'purification of fire' and whether I might die soon. At this point I became psychotic. I woke up one morning experiencing the most extraordinary thoughts. I began believing that I was a reincarnation of Jesus and that the number 42 was significant for me, meaning my death in 2014. I began believing that I was a starchild, spiritually connected to Sirius, and that it was my task to help humans reclaim the planet from the lizard people who were controlling it. I visited the crystal healing course leader and enthusiastically reported my new-found information. She did not disagree with me: I must have been very persuasive. She gave me a book about psychic children by James Twyman, thinking that I was one of these. I also persuaded her to give me her most precious crystal, for what reason I don't know: I just felt I needed it. It stayed in my flat for a few days. One night I was lying in bed and heard a voice: it said 'Be still: I love you'. Even now I don't know whether this was my guide or whether it was a neg trying to trick me. Interestingly this was the only voice I heard throughout my ordeal (unless you count voices heard in the semi-waking state). I began to sense that there was something not right with this crystal. I put it as far away from me as possible, wrapping it up in aluminium foil, thinking that this would contain its influence. I felt anger coming from it after I had done this. That night, just as I was dropping off to sleep, I felt an energy shoot up through my feet. It reached my neck before I realised what was happening. I remember choking and spluttering. I felt that this attack had come from the crystal and, terrified, I got a hammer from the kitchen and smashed the crystal.

I wrote to the course leader to tell her what I had done. She was absolutely distraught, and a few days later I received a legal-looking letter from her asking me what I was going to do about this matter. At the same time my grandmother died: on 13th November. We went over to Ireland for the funeral and stayed there for a few days. When I returned I started experiencing a very frightening neg which would periodically settle around my head and make my mind feel rotten. I started to become very paranoid, thinking that my phone was bugged and that negative energies were out to get me through other people. I even began to suspect that the course leader was a lizard and that she was using black magic on me. I remember talking with a person who came to the Meeting House to preside over spiritual healing sessions, and as she was leaving she turned towards me and I saw her look like a lizard. It was her and it was not her. Even now I don't know what the cause of this was. Mental illness? Clairvoyant vision? Was I seeing a neg which had attached itself to her? I don't know. I began to think that I had had some involvement in my grandmother's death. I wondered who would die on 13th December. Sure enough, the elderly sister of someone who attended Quaker Meeting died on this date.

I managed to live with all this, sleeping fitfully, for about a month. But the neg which was making my mind rotten got more powerful as I got weaker through lack of sleep. The crunch came in the middle of December 2002 when I was staying at my parents' house. My mind felt so rotten that I could not sleep: it was sheer mental pain. When the negative energy was not around my head it would shift to my heart, putting a tremendous sense of pressure on it and making it beat faster. I felt that this neg was trying to kill me. The following morning I had a doctor's appointment to keep, back where I lived (a month previously I had arranged an appointment with the doctor to make her aware of my condition). My mum drove me back. I entered the flat and was going to the toilet when a very powerful sensation of pins and needles swept over my entire body, from my legs upwards. I felt myself disappearing and jerkily made my way to the kitchen where my mum was, shouting 'Get out! Get out!' This sensation of being knocked out of my body was the last straw. At the doctor's I was too distraught to sit down. The doctor diagnosed schizophrenia and I was sent off to hospital and interviewed by a psychiatrist who admitted me as a voluntary patient. My sister came to visit that evening and I tried to explain to her that if a neg took control of me she should know it wasn't me. I was terrified of what I might do should I become possessed.

Anti-psychotic medication and sleeping pills saved me. The neg continued to try to get into my body for the next two months or so, but it eventually got fed up and left me. I had big problems remaining in my body: the smallest upset would cause me to dissociate. I developed agoraphobia, which I still have. Every task became a huge effort, even shaving. I went to my parents' to recuperate, tiring of the boredom of life on the ward. This is a pity because I would like to have talked with the other patients about their experiences, but I didn't feel up to talking to anyone. Mealtimes were depressing: everybody tried as much as possible to sit on their own, facing their own personal hell alone.

On 9th February 2003 I returned to the Meeting House. When entering the lounge I immediately sensed an energy going up my arm. It seemed that my problems were not yet over. It took an enormous amount of will and courage to stay in that place, but I did it. In retrospect I should have moved. I learned subsequently that a negative energy ley-line runs right through the flat, making it very easy for negs to reside there. In addition there are a number of gravestones propped up against the Meeting House walls and I have felt a troubled soul attached to one of them, looking for help. With the assistance of another psychic I managed to help this soul find the doorway through to the light.

Recovery was slow and painful. When I felt sufficiently well, I went to see Ruth White, a very well respected medium in the UK (where I live). I wanted to get to the bottom of why this had happened to me, and I had heard that her guide Gildas is very good on past lives (I suspected a karmic reason for my experience). Sure enough he said that a very long time ago, in Ancient Egypt, I had been a priest in charge of training young sensitives. Unfortunately my methods were a bit quick and I short-circuited some people, in the same way that I was short-circuited by my crystal healing experience. The priest I saw was myself in that incarnation. I was given this vision because it was most applicable to my current situation. I had also been a monk, and had striven for spiritual perfection to the extent that in my current lifetime a split has occurred between my upper and lower chakras. This makes psychic development dangerous for me until I get my chakras in balance.

The anti-psychotic medication protected me from psychic interference to a large degree. This was a relief because it gave me the much-needed time out to heal. I occasionally felt things but only fleetingly. However, once the medication got reduced, the more I felt disturbance. I took a holiday with my mum to Ireland in July 2004 and realised how much the energies of the flat were affecting me because of how good I felt away from them. When I got back to the flat I had a horrible week of neg interference and decided to move out as quickly as possible. I moved into student accommodation where I am doing my PhD.

Unfortunately the day I moved out of the flat coincided with another psychic attack. It was as though the negs knew I was leaving and decided to give me all they'd got. I contacted the crystal healing course leader - with whom I had since become friends, as soon as she understood what had happened to me - and she cleared the energy. I spent the next three weeks fighting this persistent neg. My dad visited and unfortunately his aura was not clear and I had a gruelling evening with him in a restaurant, privately fighting off his demon. This psychic attack had, like last time, opened me up again and made me vulnerable to further attacks. I noticed that supermarkets and pubs were a welter of negative energies, suffering a lot because of them. I increased my dose of anti-psychotic, fearing a relapse. Fortunately this did not happen. I spent a few months at my parents' again, aware of a neg in my aura. In comparison with last time it was not nearly so bad, and after a while my aura became clear once again. In November 2004 I moved into student accommodation once more.

I have since contacted the College of Psychic Studies in London for help with psychic attack. They don't prevent the attacks from happening, but they do offer practical assistance. I am still on quite a high dose of anti-psychotic medication and still taking sleeping tablets. These seem to enable me to live a relatively stable life, but I know that I cannot rely on them forever. I don't actually think I am ill any more, although as far as the psychiatrists are concerned, I might be. I recently saw a psychic specialising in psychic attack and she could find no trace, energically, of psychosis within me. All through this ordeal I have been up against different people's different belief systems: there aren't many people I can talk to about the detail of my experience.

I would very much appreciate advice from anyone who feels qualified to explain some of my outlandish experiences and comment on where I should go from here, how I can live cheerfully again, how I can best manage my psychic sensitivity, how I can steer clear of neg disturbances. Why is it that some psychics are never bothered by negs, and others have their lives destroyed by them? I don't believe that I have come into this lifetime to be mentally ill, since I have quite a number of skills that can be put to use to help others. Gildas, Ruth White's guide, mentioned that in many ways I am a healer: of course, the saying goes, 'physician, heal thyself'. If you can help with this process I would be very interested to hear from you.