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I was once like that, except I didn't cut myself, I did pick at my skin though. I weighed in at less than 100 pounds at one point in time. I was injecting a lot of drugs. Everyone thought I was gone forever. No one had any hope for me. Then somehow I said "f*** this!" inwardly and despite the lack of support that I had from my parents, I had no friends, had nothing... except a puppy, and that helped a lot, actually. I did it. I did a 180 on myself. Now I am not the same person I was, I am a normal looking 17 year old girl. Not depressed, not on anything except vitamins, work out every day, look good. At least your friend has someone who cares so much about him that they will post about him here. I wish any of my friends would have though about me enough to ask how I was doing. I guess I didn't have any real ones. Now I know that for all the hell I put myself through I am better off than I was before. What doesn't kill you... makes you stronger Well anyways, sorry that was a tangent. I hope he gets better. I've been there. I'll pray for him.

thank you

It probably be good for you to worry about it a lot, even though it is definitely disturbing. It probably speaks of your fears for the baby. It's your subconcious speaking to you. It's not a lucid dream unless you know you are dreaming while you are in your dream.

^^ above post: That's probably true, actually. That's basically the conclusion I am trying to come to. Thank you. I wanted to post this because of the weird effect this dream had on me. It was truly weird.

the thing that freaked me out was getting up to puke like 3 times and going back to continue with it. it had a sense to it which felt horrifying, you know that dream-feeling? and i remembered it clearly. well it might be kind of hard to impart to someone else.

p.s. i'm not pregnant or sick or anything... the naseau was unusual

I hail from montana, right on top of this supervolcanoe I keep hearing about   ...well if it goes it goes.. i guess... i keep wanting to run away to alaska or canada or south america though, i think that might be a little more habitable but i suppose it probably won't really matter because that sucker's gonna affect the entire planet.
Well anyhow, I just discovered these forums and I have always been into expanding my consciousness, lately just through natural practices like yoga and meditation. i used to do a lot of drugs, actually, but I think I might be a rare example of a mostly if not fully recovered person, in that I have moved on to higher pursuits. Now I'm more into quantum physics.
Well... that's me in a nutshell.
Namaste.

I live in Bozeman MT right on top of it!!!!
These posts always make me think about it.
What a way to go, huh? I'm scared.

I had the weirdest experience last night. A really strange dream. When I went to sleep I had a slightly uncomfortable feeling but I started drifting... in my dream I was with an ex (who is in jail). He was being bad and mischevious so I told him to leave me alone. We were in a house surrounded by lots of people. Well I have a blank spot in my memory here but after that I just remember that I was alone and I had to leave the place I was at... I went outside and a big tall thing with a body made of twigs and branches and a skull for a head grabs my hand and we run across a field. Ever seen windigo? it's a movie, this was visually similiar. I think it was sunset. I was watching myself in 3rd person at this point. I was dressed like Alice from Alice in Wonderland, kind of. Well we get to some trees and my 'character' my dream self starts screaming "no not you!" etc, and freaking out, because my ex's bones are there, and he has big horns made out of twigs. I had the impression that he wasn't "dead" although he was just bones. The weirdest thing was that I got up like 3 times in the middle of this to try and puke because I felt nauseated as hell. But I couldn't. And then I would go back and fall asleep again. I have no idea what to make of this.