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Great I will remember this. Thankyou.

Hello all and thanks for reading. I have been projecting for a little bit now and I opened up to my girlfriend about my spirituality and it turns out she is a very powerful aura reader without realizing it. She has been reading my aura lately and I was curious as to what this meant.

At first I had her examining my aura by looking into my third eye. She said she sees a very bright golden halo that reaches out to my shoulders. Which I think is a very good thing and almost hard to believe from what I understand of auras.

Now what concerned me though is that I had her look into my heart chakra and she saw what looked my soul in the astral. The light blue transparent color. In the middle of my chest she saw what looked like a woman's hands praying with a rosary. Around my arms she saw very bright white shackles or possibly hands holding my arms. Near my waist/hips, she saw two bright blue flames flickering and moving around.

What does all this mean? It's all very confusing to me as I've never been very "religious" however I have always had a great faith in god and a strong feeling of spiritual connection.

By the way does anyone have any recommended reading on chakras or auras? I've begun meditating and reading other peoples auras. I'm trying to gain a better understanding of myself and what I'm going through.

Okay thankyou. I have been praying for help everyday and I feel like there is a battle going on inside of me but I think I am winning. I am walking in the light to the best of my ability. Your words do help

When you say lose your awareness, do you mean that you have attempted separation and have somehow entered what appears to be an OOBE-like dream where you are wrapped up in the narrative and don't realise how crap it was until you phased back out of it?

Kind of.. I think I pretty much realize it's pretty crappy when I'm doing it though. It's definitely an OBE though, I've done it a few more times sense then though and now I've gotten the hang of flying around my house but I can't seem to exit it.

Yes my sp is usually very scary... and yes I seem to wake into it as oppose to entering it from a waking state. So i should try and enter it directly and that should reduce the "baggage"?

How I got around this is to not actually employ a floaty outy separation. Now I simply intend myself to be in the nonphysical. But when I started out I used to employ a trick of rubbing my hands together (nonphysical hands) and blowing on them... it works well with others... because apart from the fact that I know this from teaching people... It's also been published by other OOBE practitioners since I wrote about it about 4 years ago.

Okay cool I will try that technique next time.

Hey one more question. I'm still having trouble getting past the fear factor of entering into my OBE's. Do you guys have recommendations for getting past this barrier? lately i have just been trying to emanate love as soon as I enter my SP and it has been (reducing or at least making the bad guys not as scary)

Hello all thanks for reading. Well i have a question pertaining to healing myself I need some help with. I think I may have let something evil inside of me a couple of years ago and I need to expel it. I think it's been laying dormant in me for a while giving me what I wanted in exchange for what it wanted but I can feel it making me angry and motivating me to do bad things and I need to remove it. Does anyone have some suggestions as to what I can do?

not an expert but it sounds like a lucid dream.

Hello Guys,

I'm a pretty new astral traveler here but I think I'm slowly gaining ground. I've been frequenting into sleep paralysis lately as a middle ground to make my way into OBE. What I've been doing is trying to stand up or walk around after I enter the very terrifying SP. I have managed to do so a couple of times but when it does actually happen I seem to loose most of my awareness and things become very dreamlike. Things are also very short and reality is extremely distorted. I'm not sure if I'm just lucid dreaming at this point or if I have actually entered a low evel of an OBE. I did manage to turn around and see myself sleeping after standing up from a SP episode once. But my room looked very different, and I wasn't able to think or see the same as I had been when I was in my SP state. Anyways, some thoughts on how to enter the OBE from SP would help. Or anything of the matter. Thanks.

Okay so I am here to give an update on the last month of my life... And holy crap it has been a ride.

Let me first state that I have not had sleep paralysis in a long time. I have forced my mind from it completely out of fear. Starting after my last post I told myself to let in those spiritual feelings again, to begin lucid dreaming again and to let the paralysis come and that I would be safe.

Well it started with constant lucid dreaming... the lucid dreams I have are insane, could make movies/books out of them no doubt. I won't go into detail about them however... I'ts what happened to me during my paralysis episodes that I find are exciting.

Okay so about a week and a half after my last post. I did it again. I woke up in sleep paralysis. I knew it because I could feel myself awaken but was unable to move. My eyes were shut... I was pretty terrified, for some reason I knew the demon was just going to be standing right in front of me when I opened my eyes. Alas I opened my eyes and a great big demon was there in front of my bed. He looked a lot like a nazgul from lord of the rings. I was ticked off at the guy so I started to raise my hand in attempt to flick him off (IT WAS HARD AS H*** to do) Then the most amazing thing happened.... I woke up. My hand was previously raised. I had seen it... but now when I awoke I noticed i hadn't moved at all. This left me wondering, what the hell did I move?

I had a couple more fearful episodes after this. Once about a week later I awoke unprepared for the paralysis. A bunch of demon hieroglyphics or something scattered on top of the walls above me. I was terrified and woke up instantly. A week later again I woke up and a woman in a white dress... was pulling me out of my body. I think I moved a couple feet then woke up again terrified.

And now for the good part. About 20 minutes ago... I woke up in the paralysis again. This great big shadow demonically stretched itself across the room. It literally twisted around like a living creature. I told myself not to fear it and that I would be safe.  I opened my eyes again and I felt this great big rush of positive energy enter me. The shadow disappeared. And I was alone in the room now. So i tried to get out of bed. I think I started to fall through/off the bed or something. I then slowly turned around and I saw myself lying down. I was so excited. That was enough for me, I had done all I wanted to do. To prove that an astral world was real... to myself.

However when I awoke I noticed things weren't exactly like I had seen them. Although I saw pretty clearly and my thoughts were as cognitive as they are now.... Objects were distorted, for example my pants were patterned a little differently. Truthfully everything was off a little bit. I take it this is normal? Does ones vision ever begin to clear more during this astral state or is this the mind playing tricks on yourself or something?

Most of it is stuck in my head after researching... some stuff I had to check to get the names right.  grin

Well it's a wealth of knowledge.

The self example was great, more then i was hoping for...  it sounds to me like I need to face my fears in some fashion or another. You sound like you have powerful psyche in you, I honestly never had to deal with SP to that extreme. I was able to quell it when I was young. I'm not sure if that was a gift or a curse because now I feel like I have lost out on so much in my life. Like a great big blanket has been pulled over the most interesting part about me.

For me I think the most difficult transition will be going from that paralysis stage to the OBE stage... It seems almost mythical to me now. I'll have to read more into Monroe.

Well I will try to muster the courage and the patience and do some meditating sessions. I will let you know how it comes out. I likely won't have any results for a weeks though. I'm still not even exactly sure how to trigger the SP. It seems to occur most frequently when I have a lack of sleep, I'm sleeping on my back and I'm in and out of my dream state. I'd be willing to be bet though if I lay down with the intention's of falling into SP it will likely happen sooner or later.

I was frightened of me frightened of me frightened of me... etc... like microphone feedback.

haha that line was genius... The metaphor in that I think rings the loudest truth for what I'm facing...

I would like to clarify... that the feedback thing... of seeing me and thinking that was maybe the presence of fear... may have been a metaphor.

I guess it's like FDR said. "There's nothing to fear but fear itself" Maybe he was an astral projector... ha

It's funny I tend to say that quote to myself before I meditate I guess it eases me a little, I just have to convince myself of it's truth. Hearing your story is helping me with that. Honestly, I appreciate it more then words will allow. So thanks.

By the way I truly feel for you. This must of been terrifying to witness... I know the feeling.

One of my main fears during SP was situations involving my mother. On one occasion I saw her standing in the doorway being repeatedly stabbed by a demon... another I watched her being sucked out of my window... another time I could here her screaming. I was 11 or 12.

Thankfully things like SP will become more well-known in the coming future, because of things like the internet and forums like this.

Do you feel like the orange pony and fighting borrowers are still there with you?

This one made me chuckle. I suppose your logic is accurate.
The commonality in your beliefs does ease my mind a little, but the fear is still very difficult to overcome.

How would you recommend I enter OBE from this point? Is it best to ignore the SP phase entirely, and use other meditative methods instead?

Great post by the way. I appreciate you taking the time to compile that for me.

and haha okay.. I will.. I guess as long as I know I have nothing to fear it won't matter. I just have to convince myself I'll be okay.

I've been doing a little research on the forums and I saw a post about hemi-sync tapes

I have to say I just listened to this one

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFI2WFtaYrk

and it put me in the most tranquil state.... I was vibrating a lot... and i wasn't scared. An amazing feeling, euphoric. If that's what astral projection is like, then i want to be a part of it.

When confronting this fear. Is it a bad idea to get angry at it? Should i try and love it instead or something? I feel like it would be my instinct to fight it... Which I assume is a bad idea. Do you have any books or articles that you would recommend for overcoming this fear?

great video.

thanks for the reply! I'll check it out.

Just to elaborate on some of my experiences recently with the sleep paralysis. It's all very lucid... Like in your face real life lucid in your room lucid.
About two months ago I had an orange pony run across my chest and dance around while two little people fought on my dresser for a good 2 minutes. (this one makes me lol)
The scary butt demon thing was like six months ago... but I always feel like hes there....
Another time a couple months ago I closed my eyes because I was so scared and I was afraid to see anything. So instead this earth shattering demonic voice whispered in my ear... wake up.... wake up... (really... just my luck)
Another time about six months ago there was this giant white glove, like a micky mouse glove. Waving me to come towards it. When I finally regained consciousness nothing was there.
There have been others recently but I can't recall all of them, I try to eliminate it from my memory.

I had like mild esp or something too when I was younger. (it least I think that's what it was...). It seems to have left me now. I remember one specific instance when i was a child. My mother said to me. Sean I have something very important to tell you. I still remember the feeling, like this terrible wave of sadness and awareness hit me. I said, grandma died without any prior knowledge or reasonable information to incur it. I used to be able to feel things like that on occasion.

Hello,

This is going to be kind of long but forgive me I have never spoken to anyone about these things because of my intense fear on the subject and I feel that I need help.

I really could use a lot of help with astral projection/latent abilities of mine. When I was a child I remember consistently lucid dreaming, seeing things like I was awake. Or it it least I think i saw things looking back ghosts, monster like creatures. I remember hearing voices all the time, like people talking in low chat. I also was a gifted intellectually writing great stories well beyond the capabilities of my age naturally, but I always felt like the ideas and words came from somewhere else... But worse then anything I remember this intense fear... Like someone or something was always feeding off of me. To this day it has never left me... it's only been suppressed.

As I grew older, around puberty I couldn't handle the fear anymore, I squelched everything supernatural about me. Anything possibly linking me to the fear. And with it, I felt like a great fortune of knowledge.. or something greater still was shut with it. But it didn't matter I had to escape the fear.

10 Years or so has passed sense that time, I'm now 23 years old. I know I've been yanked out of my body a couple times in the last months... (Sleep Paralysis) is the scientific name for it. And it's always terrifying. The most intense fear overwhelms me and I just want to escape. On one occasion I saw a great dark sphere of energy in the corner. Like a giant man hooded in black robes. A really got the impression it was a demon or something. It was the scariest thing..... But past that still I know in my heart that I can be so much more then I am if I can just push myself mentally. I feel that I have great energy but it's like something doesn't want me to use it or something I don't know.

Now that my deeply depressing and terrifying story is over... my question is.

Am I just imagining things? Do I actually have something to fear? What can I do to break past this? Or should I just dust it all underneath the carpet where I have left it.

Lastly I wish I had had someone personally to talk with. None of my family or friends could really relate with me mentally or spiritually.. it least not in this mannerism. I tried speaking about these things with people before but it only came off as comical. SO please your help is deeply appreciated!