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I haven't been able to astral project (although I've come close, I started slipping into this bodily sinking whirlpool feeling after a long time of laying down, but it got too intense so i woke up.), but I do have a lot of dreams about aliens and UFOs. The dream I had last night was very vivid. I was with my brother and we decided to go down this sewer drain, at the top was a ladder that went down this circular hole very deep. When we hit the bottom, I saw a long tunnel. My brother was behind me, and I kept walking forward. I suddenly looked up to see this short grey alien. He was in the distance but I could see him enough to see that his big black eyes were angry, and he had this weird flithy aura around him. I saw him starting to run at me really fast, I was scared senseless, so I ran back and told my brother to run too. I couldn't make it to the ladder in time so I ran into this hole in the wall that happened to have a wooden door on it. Inside was what looked like a nurses office, cept trashier. Anyways, the angry alien smashes into the door, and I lean against it. At this point I think I'm about to die, and I put my foot against a wall, and push all my weight into the door. The alien scratches the door and pushes really hard. It starts screaming at me. I woke up soon after that dream. Then i tried going back to sleep but I know that when I do a lot of times I go right back into the dream. Thats exactly what happend, and when I went back into the dream, I didn't see anything except for a flash of grey light and this monsterous scream, which woke me up again. This time my heart was pouding really fast and the addrenaline was rushing so I just decided to eat some cherios for breakfast. WTF is with all these alien ufo dreams I'm having? I have about 2-3 a week about aliens and UFOs. excrement...some of them are good, some bad.

I didnt astral project last night but my dream was very vivid. Heres what happened...

I was outside my house and it was late in the afternoon, getting very dark. Off in the distance I saw a green light shoot off into outerspace, I knew it was an alienship. I saw a few more shoot off. I looked over at my mom and I told her in an excited voice, "See I Told you! Aliens do exist!". Anyways after that I felt this weird sensation (i RARELY have physical feelings in dreams and this was incredibly vivid) A green female alien about the size of my hand flew into my mouth and slid around inside me. She made her way into my brain and i felt her latch on. It didnt hurt, it almost tickeled. She was friendly, and she communicated with me telepathicaly. I think she wanted to become permanent inside me. I didnt mind, because she began telling me that she could watch my back and see things I couldnt. I was excited, i felt like I was a super human. She then exited me and left for a short while. She came back and this was really weird but she entered me through my anus. I felt her force her way in, and i felt a little pressure, and i felt her very quickly race up my insides and latch onto my brain again. She radiated a green aura. anyways, i had a bunch of fun dreams last night, but I wanted to share this one. I wish it would happen in real life!

whats happening in 2012? ive heard many things, im fascinated by that date because ive heard something about extraterrestrials comming from a far away galaxy to save us. aka the 2nd comming.

hey man, i suffer from social anxiety. really bad, to the point where i loose control of my facial expressions movements and most other behavoir. it really sucks because im in college, ive been trying really hard lately to improve and it seems to be working but ive been living like this for the past 4 years. i dont know what happened, but at the beggining of my senoir year in highschool i lost all my friends, and rumors went around school that i was gay. my confidence shot to zero and all my friends left me. i began to take on strange behavoirs, and this really got to me as i was once viewed as one of the coolest funniest kids in school. anyways, ive never dated but i just met this girl, and we kinda clicked but i bonked excrement up by being really nervous around her and liking her too much, i basically acted like a wussy around her, and gave away all my power. she got bored of me already, i was really depressed fora couple days, but now im recovering, im ready to take another shot at life. before tho this last week, i kept thinking of killing myself. i remember comming home from school hating myself and beating the excrement out of anything i could and crying because i felt alone and tired of living. its hard man but i really say its a good idea to keep living. i still fear going to school, because i have an impossible time having normal conversation with people, and i really am afraid of encountering this girl i met because now things might feel weird around her. i hope i can maintain myself, but anyways, ii just wanted to let you know your not the only person who suffers from things like social phobia. anyways peace man. hope you make the right decision.

so im curious about the dark entity. what was it doing sitting in your garage?

ok, so ive been worrying a lot lately. that when i try to AP something negative might try to scare me. ok ive read a couple instances where people have been attacked by AP dream monsters/whatever, but is there the possibility of an astral negative/positive being to know that your going to be APing and wait for you to AP and then attack you right as you seperate?

i was wondering if there was anything i can do to protect myself. and has anyone had any negatice experiences with something doing somethign to you RIGHT as you AP? just curious.

wow man sounds really bad, but ya know. its a learning experience. ive never APed before, and ive had thoughts about what if when i project, something will come out afterme, but i love the idea of HEY F**K YOU, YOU STUPID DREAM MONSTER YOU, HAHAhA YEAH YOUR COOL, NOT YOU F**KS**T, NOW ILL PROCEED TO BEAT YOUR butt attitued. sorry if im too vulgar but really, thats how i would approach the negative situation. or just try to imagine yourself as a super saiyjin and go kao ken on its butt. anyways i hope my intense attituted towards this helps. peace man.

email me at thethinker@spymac.com

my mom and step dad dont beleive in it. ive never aped but ive gotten close.

if yall could, i would like a copy of that mp3 as well. i only have the demo of bwgen.

http://www.sectionz.com/detail.asp?rType=mp3&SZID=20908 download that song, its a cool beat, if you like tupac you will like this. i make my own beats, but i saw you had 0 replies to this. anyways i get paranoid too. hehe but cool you listen to hip hop/rap. check out that beat. its brand new one that i made. just goto that link, scroll down and look in the middle of the page until you see download and then click that link, thena popup will appear, just save as. hope you like. its a trippy spooky cool beat.

i have social anxiety. i was hoping that if i could astral project maybe i could find some help or guidance. i dont have many friends, ied like to make more, im a pretty funny guy too, but im way shy and its virtually impossible to get to know me because of my anxiety prevents me from ever truely being down to earth and having normal conversation with people without feeling okward, insecure, and weak. does anyone know if its possible to get help in the astral? also one more thing. i was wondering if it was possible for anyone who can astral project, to see if they can find out information on my problem in the astral. since i cannot consciously AP at the moment from lack of skill. I was just wondering if anyone could pull up some information on my problem or what to do. i havent found anything useful here in the physical world in the past 3 years except drugs but i hate taking them to just feel "normal" around people. thanks

ive been practicing AP for a while now. I was just wondering, is it possible for people in the Astral to find out how long it is before i finally AP? it would be cool if people could pull up a couple answers for me. it might help me strive harder to AP. anyways. just wondering...lemme know if anyones intrested in this sort of thing. thanks

so after we die we usually come back to become reborn again. the never ending cycle? anyways, to escape this "curse" one must gain spiritual enlightenment? im not really sure what enlightenment is...ive read up on it but for the slower people like me, i still dont understand it. can anyone break it down for me?

and i mean besides enlightenment ending the life cycle of reincarnation. And how do people become enlightened? I read that meditation is a way to get closer. anwyays...just wondering as usual

say if someone kills themself, they automatically goto the astral plane? i always read about stuff like, when people kill themselves they goto hell, i dislike that idea. just my opinion anyways, if someone killed themself do they start out on a hell like astral plane? or is it possible after a suicide to start on a high astral plane in a very heaven like area?

so last night i went to be really conifdent that i would either AP or get closer then ever. well I did, i went to bed, and then i laid there for a long time. i dont really focus on anything, i just lay and let my mind drift. then i wait for a feeling. it always brings my mind back into focus from the dreamy state. anyways my legs are numb, and my arms and upper body are numb. i cant even tell where my arms are! (my mind cant even tell where my arms are located on the bed) when i tried to find them it felt like my mind was making them stretch out miles away. (if i move at ALL i pop right out of this numbness and im back completely awake) i know for a fact im not APing yet. anways i feel this falling sensation, and my heart starts pumping really hard and my breathing gets really deep and long. before this would scare me but i just kept going, then i thought i might have heard a slight ringing, but maybe i was just imagining it. anyways this falling just kept going and going and i went way deeper then ive ever gone before. so then i opened my eyes accidentally and i looked ahead and i kinda exploded out of my calm state and awoke fully. i knew i had blew my AP chance for the night so i just tried going back to sleep. anyways does anyone know what all this is? and whenever i dont AP (not like i have before) but i find it hard to fall asleep after trying to AP.

ive never achieved an AP, but I have had a lucid dream and that lasted about 5 seconds. I realized i was dreaming, idk if that counts as APing. but anyway, for some reason i cant stop thinking about scary horror film monsters coming after me right as i leave my body. i keep imagining freddys claws grab my foot as soon as i leave my body or something. im so terrified that i stop trying to AP. i can get really relaxed but my stupid mind will think a thought i dont want to think. i try to cancel the thoughts out by creating a ally but the thoughts always come back. anyone know if i will be assaulted if i ever get out? or what to do?

ok i havent been able to make an AP yet, but i thought a couple nights ago about Pennywise and or Freddy. And i have this thought that if when I AP they are going to bust right out of the closet and attack me. I would be so scared...i told myself if i ever did AP and they came out that i would shoot out the window away from them, or if i could control my mind from unleashing anymore freaky butt people i would say GO AWAY. I did a prayer to god before i tried to AP. If you say that Freddy came out of a door, that scares the hell out of me because excrement, what if he comes out of my closet? its only a couple steps away, that mofucker would get to me so quick. the only other thing i could think of to fight him is to create some kind of evil ally freak that would beat the excrement out of freddy and be my friend, altho being bad. anways. im a lil scared to even try to AP now after reading about Freddy. jesus....help me! oh yeah one more thing. I also have the remains of my cat (she passed away recently and i had her cremated) i was going to place the box of ashes under my bed to ward off bad spirits... any ideas or comments on anything ive said?

hey man, i have a similar problem except mine is far worse. i dont have the confidence most times to talk to people, its hard for me to look them in the eyes. i think people are always talking about me, i twitch sometimes during class and now that im in college and no one knows me i beleive that they think im just some weird kid with some even weirder problems. even when i do talk to people i feel like i cant connect with them and converstations ALWAYS end up okward. Even just talking to a friend. Its like ive lost the ability to be normal and down to earth and just be cool. sometimes it gets so bad that i start having panic attacks and i think people are out to kill me. im only comfortable around my family and VERY few close friends. most of my friends i still act really nervous around them. i cant even laugh normally. most of the things i do and say are out of place. i always try to act like im having a good time but i feel like im comming off as rather fake and annoying, it sucks. ive never always been this way too. i used to be one of the coolest kids back in highschool. drugs were a problem for me, not anymore tho thankgod. but yeah dont sweat it man. in actual life people all have the same fears, some just dont show it as much as others...some do...like me. anyways just to let you know, ive been getting better at dealing with my problems, but its not 100% good. anyways just to let you know i know what your going thru, and ive been to the point where ive many times tried to kill myself but i never went thru with it. but im glad, because suicide is one of the most selfish acts anyone can commit. ok nuf talking. later

cool, ill think less of it. i was going to try last night but i think because i have an exam comming up has got my mind shot.

Ive been practiving AP for a while now. (around 1-2 months) So far i can get to where my body starts getting numb. I imagine i have hands, and i pull them through my body, and when i do i can feel tingling and numbing wherever i do that at. after i do that a lot, and im really relaxed i start feeling like im falling or sinking, and then all of a sudden my breathing involuntarily becomes heavy and hard. it always happens whenever i get to this stage and it always seems to waken me and disrupt my focus and relaxation. has anyone had this happen? its like a roadblock to  being able to AP.