Last night I had a strange experience, which is carrying over into today even after a sleep. I am certain that I am talking to my younger self! Apparently, I"ve 'always' known that such things as time-telepathy were possible, but is this why?
I've heard it called an engram, but this specific type might be another type of 'gram' type of thing. I can, at this point, remember that I talked to myself, plus, my big 'save the world, young superman' prayer and everything that ever happened in my life seems like it is based on the past evening of communication. It's almost as if the future created the past, and only 'he' has a chance to make a difference.
There's also other things that have happened, which make me question and doubt the validity of some of my memories. Undoubtedly, I either made myself a satyr with residual links in the gene structure, amplifying it at this time with the innate projection of sexual energy into the past, or, I was born that way. I don't remember anymore, only the younger me would know for sure. It seems like the more that I say or think or do, the more that these moments are creating some kind of prophesy that ultimately has to be fulfilled. And so, by my words to this point, I've created my entire life! It's only what seems to have happened.
But I wonder now, if as we go farther into the future, we start to drag a network of memories behind us in time, and this forms like a scooped dish of a matrix behind us in time. That matrix-network eventually has a reflection in the future, but the present is always grinding away on the future and digging quietly into the past, cycling the past to continually reinforce the future. Is that right? It's like that matrix that gets woven into the time stream gets bigger and bigger, and unfolds, and then, it reflects itself on the waters of the future. And that reflection can be seen from the present, but the present is always balanced between an infinite unknown past and a future that we actively create. Is that right?