My dreams... and the evilness and violence behind them.

[AstralCody]

I was going to put this in the dream section, but it's not much about dreams as it is another topic. I didn't want to make this at first because it would be a fear based topic. Then I thought... Oh what the hell. I will go ahead and make it and see what happens. The sick, disturbing, violent, evil, almost making me not want to sleep anymore nightmares will not go away. I have sent out love before I sleep. I have imagined a bright light of loving energy surrounding me before I fall asleep. Nothing works. I am constantly being attacked or experimented on. I wake up feeling like a train hit me. I do realize that many do not believe in negative entities or what not. In fact I ALWAYS believed if there were any you make yourself end up there. If you have a negative vibration etc. Why in the hell... If I am a loving being who is content in life (except for some anxiety sometimes) but I always jump over those hurdles... am I having these nightmares every night? This has been going on for six months now. It now feels like I am being attacked. Literally. Like something is coming in my dream space and playing these games. I see no reason at all for me to be having dreams of me blowing up my own family... Running away from the cops because I shot someone... Being experimented on and having orbs shoved up my nose and then blood shooting out over the wall... Watching my cousin burn alive... Being chased by skinny deformed looking women who growl at you and punch at you and I wake up hitting my headboard... Seeing dead people everywhere... Having a huge "thing" with horns rip me open and see my ribs and bones fly everywhere and jolt in bed as I wake up... Killing my own family members... Or they go insane vise versa... Not to mention I can feel pain to extreme detail in my dreams. Last night I was having an operation done on me and I could feel the incisions being cut in me. To extreme physical detail. I literally felt it. I cannot describe to you how much this hurt.

What in the hell is going on here? For six months I have handled it okay... I mean I have tried things, thought is was just a phase I was going through... I stopped with astral projection for a while... took a break from all of this. Now I am getting ticked off kind of.

Is it quite possible that some being is messing with my dream space and I am not aware enough? Is it possible that there is evil stuff going on here? It makes no sense for me to be having these horrible dreams every friggin night when I go to sleep.

[Szaxx]

If you've not read this then do.
It may have some commonalities, if so enjoy your dreams.

http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_dreams/want_a_nightmare-t34007.0.html

[Astralzombie]

That sounds rough Cody. I am one of those people that you speak of that does not believe in evil itself. And the white light stuff only works if you believe it will work.

I have had plenty of dreams in which I have killed family members (brutally), zombies, witches, devils, all that crap. But the only ones that I consider nightmares are dreams with tornadoes and tight spaces. It's all perspective. A tornado can "get" me whether I believe in it or not and my claustrophobia stems from a childhood incident but the fear of it is only extreme in my dreams and not in waking life.

Everything you described can only harm you if you believe in it. Not because belief makes something real but because it leaves you open to fearing it. I know the imagery must be unpleasant but do you actually think your capable of hurting your family like you do in a dream? I doubt you would so don't think of it literally.

Fear is a disease and once it creeps in it will eat you up and spread to others. Some people let it control every aspect of their lives. I know you are nowhere near that point but once you start considering certain possibilities, it allows the fear to hang around a little longer and do more damage.

I have a feeling that if you would have completely dismissed that first nightmare that started this current trend six moths ago, you would not have made this post at all.

You're a very rational thinker so I'm sure you will be fine. However, the physical pain that you are truly feeling is unusual from my perspective and I don't know what to say about that.

[Lionheart]

 Remember Cody, you can determine the outcome of these scenarios.

It sounds like you are becoming Lucid enough to see what situations you are in. Now it's time to take control of them.

I can't tell you how many times I awaken in some kind of violent or unusual situation that I have to overcome. As soon as my awareness is strong enough, I totally take control of the entire scenario and change it to a more welcomed finale.

This is part of learning In the NPR. You will continue to experience this until you "take the bull by horns" and decide that enough is enough!