I'm starting to see life in a different way now

[Donal]

I remember before I used to live home with my Dad and it was all a negative enviorment, and I was depressed and the like, I just didn't feel like anything.

Now since I moved out and I will take a break from my dad for about a half a year, my life is practically transforming. I am self-reliant on myself, and it just feels so good. I am losing weight now, I am down to just under 15 stone now, and I was 18 and a half before. I am about 2 stone away from my ideal weight and this is giving me more confidence. I never had the push in me before to do a course or something, but now I feel like I can do one. I am 18 now (going on 19 on 3rd of January) and there is a course in my local college on personal development. It is for 10 weeks and you go there 2 nights a week. I want to establish a routine and meet more people, and hopefully do a full time course or get a part time job or something by September next year.

My room was always in a mess before, but now like I realise that I can find a space for everything and it is much easier. It was not that I didn't know that before, I am just "seeing" it now, if you know what I mean, and how easy it is. I am doing nothing at the moment, I play games an awful lot, but I am fairly happy, I go into town almost every day and go into this internet place, at least I am getting out and I am doing stuff I want. I am sure I will want to do something better pretty soon, and a major plus is that life is not all negative. I want to be at my full potential, operating 100% efficently before I make a big decision in my life. I am just posting this if in case anyone is in a dark situation, there is always a way out. I know it is hard, but you have to potential hidden in you to become whatever you want to be.

[stamboe]

My best wishes for you.

My room is a total mess but I don't care. I think and say that I find things better in the mess, which is of course a lie and an excuse for not cleaning up

It is so true that there's always a way out of darkness even how tough it seems. And if you pay attention it's always things to learn and opportunities to evolve even in the darkest of moments. It may sound like bull**** but I've gone through a very tough period in my life and it changed my life for the better and forever. So shine your light.

Christian

[Kazbadan]

So, you are saying that after leaving your father, life got much more easy? COngratulations! At leats you have the courage to do that...i still live with an agressive (alcohool problems) father and i have no idea how to leave my home. I have 26 and if i leave he will get mad and bored.

He thinks that for one leave home, one must get married. One of these days he wil see his "luck"...i just feel for my granmother that will be somewhat alone with him...

f***! I know that if i could live far away from him, alone bymyself, i could learn things that most of the people learn musch more earlier than me and life could be thousands times much more easy. I used to be depressive, agressive and sad with with life for no reason. I found that my father was the origin for that. I was able to solve part of the problems starting by changing my inner game, my toughts, bt i still need to give a very big jump that will modify in a positive way my life.

So, Donal, i fully understand what you feel know. Freedom.

But i get sad with other things too. Many people from my family knows what i suffer and they still make critics to some decisions that i make, like if the fault was mine. People dont get what it means to grow up with no orientation. Even worst, to grow up with someone that will make ur mind much more confused and destroy everything you are.

Good luck Donal!