Haven't posted lately.....here's why.

[personalreality]

As I've said before, I'm a recovering heroin addict and I've been on the opiate replacement medication suboxone for two years now.

This week I have been detoxing off of my meds and while the meds allow me taper slowly its still not a pleasant experience.  If you're unfamiliar with opiate withdrawal Google it and you'll know what I've been dealing with all week.  Its nobody's fault but my own and I take responsibily for that.  It still sucks.

Yesterday my heart rate got dangerously high so I went to a Dr.  They were worried about hyperactivity in my brain and thus seizures.  So they made me take an ambulance to the hospital.  They gave me diazepam and clonidine which helped a lot but then they just sent me on my way.  I tried to tell them that it was just going to happen again, its withdrawal, that's what happens.  But as I've learned, unless a doctor is trained and licensed in substance abuse treatment, it freaks them out and they don't want to deal with it any longer than they have too. 

So, I talked to my mom and she made me drive back home (2hrs away) last night so she could take me to the family doctor.  So I'm sitting outside the Dr here waiting for my appointment.  We'll see what happens.

Just wanted to let you all know I'm still here, I've just been a little sick.  Ill be back soon.

[kurtykurt42]

Doesn't sound like my idea of fun. I'm sure you'll be fixed up in no time though. What about all those crystals in your metaphysical store? If I were you I would borrow a few and sleep with them under my pillow for good luck. 

[Tiny]

Dear personalreality,

do you do energy work? Do you meditate? It sounds like magnetic healing would be appropriate.

I hope you don't rely on establishment's medical treatment and their substances cause that's like taking your chances on snake venom and hoping it'll heal you somehow.

And please make sure you stay away from common neurotoxins such as glutamate, the sweetener aspartame and sodium fluoride, some of them potentially deadly (people have been killed by drinking diet coke). Butter and other terrible oils cause heart problems, best to use only coconut oil and deodorized coconut oil both as butter and for frying. Refined salt damages the body, use only sea salt or and the best is "himalayan" salt.

Jim Humble's MMS is a cheap and outstanding chemical that can detox your body from various poisenous oxydes incl. in the brain it also happens to kick cancer.



peace

[personalreality]

I've been using a lot of crystals.  A customer of mine enchanted a piece of amber and quartz to help me and it has.  The real problem was my heart rate.  It was pumping like I just ran a mile when I was sitting still.  It was dangerously high yesterday and the concern is that when your heart rate is that high for extended periods your brain becomes hyperactive, and you are at risk to seizures.

I didn't want to take pharmaceuticals.  Especially not mood drugs (which is what every Dr wants me to be on BC opiate abuse destroys your brains ability to make neurotransmitters).  I think a lot of those were intentionally created to hamper spiritual evolution.   But I had to do something.

[NoY]

Welcome Back m8

And well done. its not easy to master your own mind but refusing to be ruled by drugs is a damn good start
I hope in the coming months it gets easyer and easyer for you

God Bless

:NoY:

[Xanth]

Welcome back PR. 
I hope you're feeling much better.

[CFTraveler]

I hope you're feeling better, keep on keeping on.

[radman32]

good to know your back on track. Keep up good work!

ps I envy those w/ crystals!

[missym]

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[RyanAugust]

I have never touched heroin but I am no stranger to drug addiction. Your a trooper. Best of luck!

[missym]

  As a recovering addict I know how hard it can be, the withdrawls are utterly horrible but you're a champion for going through them and kicking the stuff for good.
The withdrawls are what kept me on drugs for the longest time.

we are all here for you if you need us, I hope you will be well enough to come back soon! I miss your posts  
All the best.