I need to talk.My astral lover of 12 years,,,

[A_Strong_Bond]

Hello everyone.

I am new here.

I really need to talk about something and I am so glad that I
found this forum.

To make a long story short,I have had a VERY strong,telepathic
and astral relationship with a man(on the physical plane) for 12
years now.

He is a psychic and a very powerful one at that.
He is quite known around the world for his deep trances.

I met him 12 years ago when I went for a consultation.
I ended up going to a few of his meditation classes so
I got to know him.

I could tell that he was instantly attracted to me.
Me ,him and his freind would go out for a couple of
beers after the class and he could not take his eyes off me.
He constantly winked at me and had that admiring smile.
He complimented me often.

To make a long story short ,,one day we were having a couple
of beers and he said something stupid which annoyed me.
This was at a table with me and three others.
His *focus* was still all on me.
There were other attractivre women around by he only
looked at me.
He is a capricorn.



It was nothing mean or evil just a stupid comment.
Its not Important.

Anyway,after the classes we all HUG each other.
When it came to me he lifted me up and kissed me on'the cheek.
His way of saying Im sorry and that I like you.

I did not go back for a while after that because I felt
uncomfortable.
Yet I never forgot him and I did like him and I seen him as
a father figure.
Kind,understanding, and supportive.
He is 16 years older than me.
I was much younger then and I had problems.
Emotional and other.

I started to have many vivid dreams of him.
(I am VERY Intuitive)
AT first they were healing,then one day it
turned sexual.
And it has been that way ever since.

Unlike some of you here who do not know who your
astral lovers are *I* do.
He is VERY Real.He is on the physical plane.

We have been connected all these years.

I have had different psychics tell me the same thing.
Year after year.
There is a man in your aura.
He has stayed with you.
Your aura is blue.
He is with you.



My other freind read the tarot cards (which I was doing at the time)
and he was ALWAYS there.
The Chariot(astral)
KIng of pentacles(He is a capricorn)
The lovers and two of cups.
Sometimes the lovers with the devil which means obsession.

I became     good freinds with HIS best freind for a long time.
But I kept this to myself.
It is private between me and my astral lover.
But I gave him a couple of letters to give to him.
I could not just go up to his office to see him
because he shut down his office at that time.

I have been told that we were going to  be together one day.
But it has never happened.

He DID contact me once about 10 years ago but I was not here
to get the call.

This man is ALWAYS on my mind and I am on his.

I have NEVER,ever felt such a DEEP *physical* attraction and'
closness as I do for him.

I am not an ugly person.
I can get dates.LOL
But when I TRY to move on and like someone there he is.
Always.

I have also felt some jealousy on his part when I was
out late.
Not MEAN or violent but he wanted to know who I was with.
I can FEEL it.
I have sensed him watching me on the astral plane day and
night and so has my friend.

One of my male freinds(who is very psychic too) was at
mt house  for New Years Eve and as we were sitting there at
my table he said to me,Your freind does not want me here!.
That was about the time when I sensed him visiting me!
I see BLUE when he is there and a CLOSENESS that is unreal!.
Like his arms are around me.
I did not tell my freind that he was there(astrally)
He sensed it.


You see he is married(not happily) and from what I know his
wife is not well.
She is dying I was told by his best freind.

He also has a handicapped daughter.

He has not had it easy.He has worked very hard to support
his family and he has had many knocks.

When he did not reply to my letters I told my freind(his best freind)
that I was upset.
Then he told him that he contacts me EVERY day in his own WAY
and when the TIME is right he will CONTACT me.
The time is not right yet.

Thats was 12 years ago.

I just need to get this out and talk to people
who understand that thsi stuff is real.

Some have told me that he is abusing his power.
Others have said that he truly deeply cares about'
me but he is in a situation  that is hard to leave.

I just need a understanding ear (if you can understand) what
I am going through.

Please do not judge me as I have NEVER pursued this man.
He has done all the pursueing and very consistantly
at that.

He is a capricorn.

I cannot help how I feel.

I have now found myself *connected* to him emotionally,
physically and mentally  for 12 long years.
And I FEEL his passion for me.

I was told by a very good psychic that   we have *sympathetic* natures.
We are emotionally and telepathically connected.

I would appreciate ALL replies but adspecially from
some of the more experienced astral travellers out there
and those who understand   these type of STRONG CONNECTIONS.

Thank you for listening.

I look forward to your replies.

Marilyn