Being attacked can be good for you ;o)

[majour ka]

Greetings, so here goes,

When ever I hear some one with a story of being attacked while APing of in sleep paralysis etc I will be one of the unpopular ones saying there are no such thing as evil spirits, demons etc its all a manifestation of the mind and I still stand by that truth.

HOWEVER

I was finally attacked last night whilst traveling !!! wohoooo!

I became lucid in the early hours of the morning and was convinced I was awake but then realised the peace of paper I was reading didnt exist and I then knew I was in dream state...anyway ill get to the point, from there I used that to project and had 3 of the the most lucid and fantastic travels I have been on in a while  
During the second one I was suddenly aware of a man who was drawn to me like a magnet and I could not shake him off, it felt is if he was enveloping me and becoming part of me and I was becoming part of him, the energy was so heavy and awful and the harder I tried to escape the stronger he seemed to get...it was HORRIBLE!!
Then all of a sudden I just knew he was a manifestation of my own negative thought pattern, a subconscious fear I had created by harboring a sense of guilt over a situation that happened a long time ago...and had probably with out me realising played a bigger part in my own sense of self image than I had previously realised.
But there it was stuck to me, manifested in the subconscious astral plane as a burly disapproving man, sapping my strength weighing me down and making me feel threatened and vulnerable (this all happened very quickly by the way) I tried again to get away, but the realistion of the situation wasn't enough and he overwhelmed me harder. Then I began to think about what it was he was representing and began to forgive myself for the past situation and relised that it wasn't such a big deal and that it was ok to let it go,....and like a kite being cut from its string I flew free and my self made attacker dissolved in to ether.
The following day, a few hours after rising, I remembered what happened and found that in thinking about it I felt utter relief and mentally lifted and invigorated by facing my own inner demons so to speak...its as if a weight has been lifted...almost as if the negative energy I had created had now been transmuted into peace, or at least, made more room for peace....

I find it slightly amusing yet incredibly wonderful that I was able to work on myself, emotionally, psychologically and spiritually by facing up to it directly while traveling.. something I may not have been able to do so objectively in the waking state.
But I do know one thing, seeing and feeling how much our own negative energy can effect us and how it can manifest from that perspective was enlightening. But then I guess we can and do work on our selves and resolve problems in the dream state so to think that we can in the astral makes entire sense.

If anyone finds themselves attacked, Instead of fighting, (which is futile) I recommend facing it and asking yourself, how have I created this, what am I needing to become aware of and let go of....peace x

[LightBeam]

This post was your 666th, coincidence? lol
On a serious note, I agree, encounters of this sort are actually one of the greatest benefits of OBE. You progress faster and learn so many aspects of your nature and spirit. But you have to be brave to not be afraid to explore outside of your familiar vicinity. I have always encouraged everuone to go as far as they can, explore unexplored lands, and face all kinds of unkown situations, entities and worlds. This is truly what expands our spirits and brings us knowlage.
Great job being brave majour ka!

[Lionheart]

 Kudos to your Courage Majour Ka. It feels great to have the enormous weight of a subconscious fear lifted and released. Personal development, this is what Astral Travel is truly about! 

[Szaxx]

Hi,
Excellent work. You now don't have that negativity following you anymore. From the origination to time present your attitude has changed greatly for the better and this event you needed to learn from, correct and put behind you. All that now done the wonderment of whats to come stands unobstructed. You may get a task based on your betterment, a retrieval, that would be interesting to read.
You learn a lesson promoting the greater good and a test of this should ensue.
As our inherent darkness is diminished the eternal light shines deeper into the soul.
Sounds appropriate...

[majour ka]

thank you everyone, kind and wise words...and saxx, beautiful words! 

I do believe that on some level that one of the reasons I was able to make the connection and realise what was happening (although I cant prove it or will ever know for sure) is because of all the mediation ive been doing, I kind of feel it has deepened my self awareness at all levels.

[Stookie_]

Some of the very best things in my life came out of "negative" circumstances.

[majour ka]

Some of the very best things in my life came out of "negative" circumstances.

So true!!